[A female civil servant's autobiography of an extramarital affair] (Adult fiction by a celebrity)

[A female civil servant's account of an extramarital affair]

A female civil servant's confession of an extramarital affair

(one)

Once upon a time, I absolutely did not believe that extramarital affairs would have anything to do with me.

I was born in a family of scholars. Although my family has declined, my father has always been very strict in my family education.

So harsh that everyone thinks I should be absolutely traditional.

But if someone compares "frivolous peach blossoms flowing with water" to women, I would definitely not object.

Time always passes by inadvertently. When I grow from a yellow-haired girl to a graceful young lady, I always

I was longing for something. When the TV series "Shanghai Beach" was released, I was fascinated by Chow Yun-fat who played Xu Wenqiang.

I started following him in various media and occasionally saw him on a poster somewhere on the street.

Smiling or thinking, I always can't help but feel my heart beating, and I always miss it. This habit

It has not changed until now.

By the time I fully realized that it was impossible for me to marry Fa Zai, there were already a group of boys around me who liked me.

I thought I would have a passionate love, but the reality is that there is no suspense. My husband

Kevin is my college classmate, gentle and handsome. He was the one who frequently showed his affection to me among all the suitors and insisted on

In the end, I finally gave my hand to him, even though I didn't like him very much.

Then we fell in love, got married and had children. He worked in the hospital and I worked in publicity. It was a dull life.

The days flow quietly like water. Sometimes, I sit in front of the dressing table, looking at my pretty face in the mirror.

I would secretly shed tears, I felt sorry for myself, a beautiful woman who was not even thirty years old, how could she live such an ordinary life?

I even regretted marrying Kevin, though I was always ashamed of myself for having such regrets. Vertical

Tears, regrets, the rich and carefree family life and my father's words of support for my husband made me often

Eliminate all your restless thoughts.

If I work from nine to five every day, just like the past, I may live a pure and peaceful life.

woman, but life is like a mysterious kaleidoscope, a slight turn can make a big difference.

(two)

Zhang Wei is a hero in our city. He is the criminal police captain of the Public Security Bureau. He is 36 years old this year.

He was widely praised for solving several difficult cases. It was said that some gangsters would run away when they heard his name.

I was terrified of him. I had only seen him on TV and in newspapers, and I felt like he was a mysterious figure that was hard to find.

On this day, our unit is organizing an activity to learn from the hero Zhang Wei. In order to make the activity

The section chief sent me to the Public Security Bureau to collect information about Zhang Wei's outstanding deeds. When I got there, I met Zhang Wei himself.

I found that he was not as silent and resolute as I had imagined. His ivory skin had a healthy glow and his eyes were small.

He was of medium height, handsome and kind, and his dimples had a childlike look when he smiled.

With the innocence of a child, he kept saying that he was just fulfilling the duties of a policeman and that there was no one to blame him.

It sounds so magical. He kept refusing, so I had to look for someone else. Fortunately, Chen Ying from his office helped me.

We talked about many of his clever battles with criminals and his cleverness in solving cases. Listening to those thrilling stories, I was almost

It was almost impossible to connect the smiling man in front of me with the man who remained calm even when three knives were placed on his neck.

I woke up with a feeling of falling into a dream. I had only seen such things in movies, TV shows, and novels before.

Thinking that such a thing happened in the city next to me, when I looked at Zhang Wei again, a strange feeling

Feelings were surging in my heart, and I actually asked for his pager and cell phone numbers in the name of work.

Perhaps out of my own curiosity, I suggested to the section chief that in order to better enable our colleagues in the unit

Learn from the hero, learn how he devotes himself to his work, it is necessary to learn more about his family, Section Chief

I readily agreed.

I called Zhang Wei's cell phone, but he didn't seem to be happy for us to go to his home.

Then they arranged for us to go at nine o'clock on Sunday morning. The short few days of waiting seemed so long to me.

On Sunday, I changed my usual habit of sleeping in and got up early. I put on my favorite light purple wool

I put on a brown silk scarf and looked at myself in the mirror again and again. I felt that my lips were red and my teeth were white, which made me look very feminine.

I got on Xiao Kun's bag and went to Zhang Wei's house with Xiao Shi, who was from the same unit and had made an appointment with him in advance.

His family lives in the suburbs, a very remote place. When I entered his home, I was stunned by the scene before me.

The two-bedroom, one-living room apartment was small and looked very simple. Apart from a 29-inch color TV and an ordinary VCD player,

The family was almost penniless. His daughter, about ten years old, was doing homework at the table. He was wearing a flowered apron and

A woman about his age, with delicate features, was sitting in a wheelchair on the balcony, hanging a large basin of clothes.

Watching him hanging clothes, the sunlight shining on her face gave her a peaceful and gentle glow.

His wife asked us to sit down, and his daughter skillfully poured tea for us. As soon as we sat down, he

His pager rang, and he called us back apologetically to say that something happened in the suburbs and he had to go check it out. His wife

Nodding gently, he touched his wife's hand before leaving and quickly went downstairs. We started with his wife

We chatted with each other and found out that they were childhood sweethearts. She used to work as a salesperson in Xinhua Bookstore.

Although he was busy with work, they loved each other and had a lovely daughter. But three years ago, when she went to pick up her daughter on a rainy day,

Unfortunately, she had a car accident. The damn truck crushed her leg and almost killed her.

She gradually became half paralyzed out of helplessness. For a long time, she tried desperately to divorce him, but he refused.

He agreed that apart from work, he would spend all his time taking care of her and their daughter. When she talked about this, her tears

The water couldn't stop flowing, Xiao Shi and I looked at each other, and couldn't help but burst into tears.

After leaving his home, I knew that this optimistic, strong, kind and excellent man was like a seed blown by the wind.

The seed is destined to take root in my heart.

(three)

Later, my contact with Zhang Wei became more frequent, and gradually, we both regarded each other as confidants of the opposite sex.

This activity of our unit was also a great success because of my full efforts. My colleagues in the unit all said that

A hero who loves life and is passionate about righteousness is respectable, and I was praised by my leaders for this.

Soon after, the department held a dinner party and we specially invited Zhang Wei. During the dinner, we frequently

He did not refuse the toast, drinking one cup after another, as generous as the men drinking on the earth pits in Northeast China, with red cheeks.

His face was quiet, and his two dimples kept dancing under the light. At this moment, I looked at this good man in front of me.

My heart is filled with emotion. In this vast sea of ​​people, people are restless, and men and women are struggling with all kinds of desires.

However, he treated his disabled wife with a broad mind, treated his busy work with full enthusiasm, and was the

He is so outstanding, I suddenly realized that this man is the one I have been looking for all my life!

As I was lost in thought, the party was about to end. I couldn't help but feel

I was worried, and the section chief said to me, "Xiao Chen, you've been to Captain Zhang's house. You should see him off. He's drunk a lot."

I think this opportunity is exactly what I have been looking for.

When we were still a little way from his home in the taxi, I asked him, "Do you want to get off and walk a little?

Maybe you'll feel more comfortable this way. He nodded obediently.

The wind on an April night blew coolly on my body, but I could clearly feel a warm comfort. We seem

As if we had agreed, we walked into the shaded path by the roadside trees. My heart was as dazed as that of a girl in her first love.

It was so quiet that I could clearly smell the strong smell of alcohol on him. He accidentally stepped on a stone.

I staggered, and quickly pulled his hand. I didn't expect him to be standing there, hugging me tightly. I was

I was stunned by his sudden action. My mind went blank. He kissed me deeply without giving me a chance to explain.

I couldn't see his face in the darkness, but I felt his breathing getting heavier and his masculine desire growing stronger.

"Xiao Chen," he murmured as he kissed me, "I am not as holy as others say. I am too bitter.

I need a woman, a real woman. ”

In the midst of his frenzy I felt something wet dripping onto my face and he was crying! For a time, I

I have infinite love for this man. "I understand you," I hugged him gently and said, "You have lived too long.

It's painful. ”

I let him kiss me and touch me, my breasts began to rise and fall like rabbits, my husband and children were on my mind.

�Receding like the tide...

At this moment, a speeding car honked its horn at us. We separated in fear and calmed down.

I went over to him, covered his mouth with my hands, and shook his head gently.

He shook his head, looked at me gratefully, took my hand and walked to a nearby clump of trees, listening to the leaves rustling in the wind.

The sound of sand.

He began to tell me about the hardships he had experienced over the past few years. After his wife became paralyzed, she lost all feeling in her lower body.

The police work is often so busy that he has to work day and night. When he gets home, his wife's incontinence is the most annoying thing for him.

Since then, most of his salary has been spent on buying "diapers", and his marriage has long been in name only.

He was so young and ignorant that he said he didn't even know how he managed to get through it. In the dead of night, every word of his

I was shocked, and every second passed by like the wind. Then my pager rang, and I knew it without even looking.

It was my husband who beat me. He said to me apologetically: "I'm so sorry today. You gave me a gift but I... I'm really not good at it.

West! I calmly held his hand and said, "You don't have to say anything. I like you from the moment we met.

rise! Take care of yourself! goodbye! "When I turned and left, I wondered what kind of expression he would have behind me?

Growing up, I have been pursued by many boys, and I have never taken the initiative to express my feelings to a member of the opposite sex.

Today, today is an exception. I feel a happy bird flying out of my heart, flying to this boundless

Night.

(Four)

It has been almost two months since I last saw Zhang Wei. During this time, I have truly experienced what it means to be deeply in love.

Lonely" I thought about his inappropriate kiss and gentle touch that night, the hot tears he dripped on my face,

His life was difficult, and I felt sorry for his pain. When I heard that he was gloriously elected as a representative of the National People's Congress, I

I am proud of his pride. No one knows that every pore of my body is thinking of him. My cheerful and happy appearance

There is infinite loneliness below, just like a song says: "The person I care about is always wrong", the person I love is always

I am separated from you by thousands of mountains and rivers.

I thought about him restlessly, feeling anxious and sleepy. Kevin didn't notice my change.

Although he has a lot of free time, he mostly spends it drinking and playing mahjong with his friends. Because he snored too loudly when he slept,

Ever since we had our son, I have been sleeping in a separate room from him and him. Now my son is five years old and has moved to his own

The small bedroom gives me my own private space.

At night, Kevin often took me to his bedroom and had sex with me. In the morning I make breakfast while he takes his son to school.

Kindergarten, it seems that nothing has changed in our ordinary life.

I received a call from Zhang Wei on this day. I couldn't believe my ears. He asked me if I could

I could go to his house and help. I was so happy that I didn't know what to do. After hanging up the phone, I quickly returned to my home, which was not far from my workplace.

I was busy choosing my favorite summer outfit: a light pink shirt with a waist and a creamy white one-piece that reached to my knees.

skirt.

When I stepped onto the stairs of his house, I could clearly hear my heartbeat. I didn't understand why I

So nervous.

When I entered his house, I saw that his hair was messy, his face was yellow, and his chair, bed, and table were piled with

I asked, "Is there a world war?" He said:

"Chen Li, my wife has taken the children to her sister's house for the summer vacation. I have been on duty for three consecutive days and I am very tired.

Help me tidy up, will you? ”

I looked at him and nodded, then put on my apron and started to get busy. I was also surprised that I was like this when I was helping him with housework.

It was like this was my home. I cleaned it up bit by bit, washing and cleaning it, and he quietly helped me pass the things.

After packing up everything, he said, "Thank you!"

I looked at him and smiled: "Boy, it's not over yet!" Hearing what I said, he said a little embarrassedly:

"I think it's pretty good!" I told him to sit down. He sat down on the chair obediently. I brought a towel to wrap him.

I poured shampoo on his neck and said, "Your hair is too dirty. Let me wash it for you."

He said, "How can I do this?" I said, "If you are embarrassed, how can you ask me to do housework for you?

Be good and don’t move! "He no longer refused, and I gently scrubbed him. His hair was thick and dense,

Looking at the man I love, my heart is happy. I hope I can wash away his fatigue. He leans on me and

He fell asleep after a while. I thought he was too tired. I didn't dare to move for fear of waking him up.

But maybe it was because of his job, he only slept for about ten minutes. When he woke up, he said he was so sorry. I patted him.

His head said, "Don't move, I haven't finished washing yet!" Time passed quickly. I admire Einstein's phase theory.

Really, the time I spend with him passes so much faster than the time I spend in the office with a cup of tea and a newspaper.

There was nothing in his refrigerator except eggs. I cooked for him, stewed an egg, took off my apron and handed it to him.

he.

"Xiao Li," he actually called me by my nickname: "I'll take you home."

"Well, it's time for me to go home." My heart suddenly felt empty.

I could see that his eyes were full of attachment. He didn't say anything, but I felt uneasy.

The strong sense of loss made me feel sad. In order not to let him see the tears in my eyes, I turned my back and walked to the door.

Change shoes.

He followed me and was about to open the door for me. I turned around suddenly, and his hand just happened to touch me.

He took a step back as if he had been electrocuted.

For a full ten seconds, our eyes met, and the next moment, we hugged each other tightly without any prior agreement. He keeps

Kiss me gently, first on the mouth and then on the neck. I stroked his shoulders and hair through his sweatshirt, and he

My son touched my buttocks and thighs.

"You look especially beautiful today."

"Why?"

"Pink shirt, white skirt, I guess?"

"A pink shirt and a white skirt, like a beautiful lily."

"Put your hand under my skirt," I whispered in his ear, my voice soft but firm. He hesitated.

Then he reached in. I could feel his shaking hands moving from the inside of my thighs to the bottom of my woman's skirt.

A secret place.

Suddenly, his pager rang. This was something I didn't want to hear. I was really willing to give this man even if it meant

It was a lifetime of tenderness and love, but after he called me back, his expression became serious and he said to me:

"I have an urgent mission. Sorry, I have to go!" "It's okay." I straightened my dress and hair and said to him.

We went downstairs together. Looking at his receding back, tears blurred my eyes again.

(five)

A week later on Saturday, Kevin was going to Beijing for further studies, and his son had been clamoring to follow him.

Go, early in the morning, I arranged to send the father and son to the airport.

After returning home alone in the afternoon, I dragged my tired body to the bathroom to take a bath. When I stood up to wipe the water,

I stared blankly at my naked body in the floor-length mirror, unable to suppress my desire to see Zhang Wei.

I called his pager and lied to him that I had something urgent to tell him and asked him to come to my house no matter what. he

He must have thought I was in trouble and said he would be here soon. I quickly went to the closet and found the

The outfit she wore at home: a light pink shirt with a waist and a creamy white one-step skirt that reached her knees. Change clothes

Finally, I ran to the mirror and looked at myself. I really looked like a lily.

Twenty minutes later, he rang my doorbell, breathlessly.

As soon as he came in, he asked me what was going on with concern. I watched him for just over a week, and he disappeared.

Lost a lot of weight.

I took him into my bedroom and closed the door gently. Turning around and looking at the person I think about day and night, I threw myself into him

Huai was unable to utter a word. He choked and said that nothing was wrong, he just missed him.

He pushed me away and said, "Xiao Li, don't be like this. I have a mission tonight and I have to go back. Maybe you

I am destined to have no fate. ”

I grabbed his hand and said, "That's not the case. Do you know how much your Sayuri misses you?"

He looked at me steadily, then hugged me tightly, kissed my forehead, my eyes, and my lips.

Last week's scene was destined not to end so hastily. I felt the tenderness from under my skirt again. His hand

Becoming firm, moving between my legs and lower body. "Sayuri, I missed you too. I love you so much."

I felt his thrusts, hard against my belly, and it made me intoxicated.

"I want you to prove it with your actions." I tossed my hair back and said, "Let your little lily bloom for you."

Let it go. ”

"Well, I want to see the blooming lilies." His hands began to unbutton my dress, one by one.

Fast but gentle, the pink shirt was separated along the deep cleavage, covering the chest; the cream-colored narrow skirt followed the slender

The legs slid down and fell to the ground.

I shyly pulled up his sweatshirt and unbuckled his belt. His broad chest was covered with strong muscles, tightly wrapped around his chest.

There was a stubborn tent erected under her underwear, which made me feel confused and dazed.

He captured my heaving breasts from between my arms and rubbed them through my bra. "The button is here."

Like a teacher who teaches by example, I took his hand and guided him behind my back. He's a little clumsy, but okay.

My bra was opened and the straps were pulled down along with my shirt, and my breasts stood proudly in front of him.

"Is your little Lily pretty?"

"Xiao Li, my little Lily, I love you so much!" His hands suddenly grabbed one of my nipples.

Knead it hard. "Oh~", I couldn't help but scream as I watched my tender breasts deform under his hands

I made a sound and my lower body was completely wet.

"Ah Wei, I already have an IUD. Today?"

"Ah Wei, I've already had an IUD inserted. Let's pick your little lily well today."

"Yeah," he picked me up and put me on the bed. I stretched myself out to welcome his pressure.

Body, waiting for him to tell me with his body that he loves me.

We kissed deeply, our tongues entwined.

He wandered over my body, his right hand following the indentation of my back to my waist, and his left hand sliding from my armpit to

On my chest, I could feel the bulging breasts of a mature woman.

I gently stroked his back and hair under him, my eyes were hazy, as if there was a layer of fog, and my lips were

A low, trembling moan came out.

He took one of my breasts in his mouth, sucked it, and nibbled on the nipple with his teeth. The feeling of breastfeeding made me crazy.

Like being drunk. Gradually, he kissed my breasts and lower abdomen...

When his hands rested on my waist, I lifted my hips slightly as if by telepathy, allowing this last bit of cover to be

He pulled it away. His dark thing finally popped out of the "tent", so thick and strong, as if to show off to me.

stand upright.

"What a beautiful lily," he hugged me tightly and kissed me madly.

"Oh~hmm~" I hugged him, twisting my body gently, emitting a strange heat, fragrant hair

Her hair was scattered messily on her shoulders, and her legs opened involuntarily, clamping around his waist and clinging to him.

"Come in," my heart was already boiling hot, "Come and pick your little lilies."

A sour and swollen feeling came from me? A sour and bloated feeling came from my lower abdomen. It was the first time I was

The invasion of men other than Wen is accompanied by the pleasure of having her lower body stretched.

At this moment, the man I love enters my body, and the world is shut out of us...

For the whole afternoon, we were lingering, whispering, listening to each other's breathing and heartbeats.

I kept repeating, "I am finally happy, Sayuri, you are my woman! Since I saw you, I have

I feel that the Zhang Wei in front of me is not the steel man in people's minds, but a ship returning from a long journey.

The exhausted ship has found a shore to dock at for the time being. This man is the only one I actively want and he really gives me

My happiness as a woman, when night falls, I feel the joy of my life

All the flowers in the garden are blooming slowly, so gorgeous and vivid, with incomparable beauty.

I don't know how long it was before his pager rang again, and I knew that was his signal to leave. He said to me:

"Sorry, I have to leave again!" He pulled my hand like he was talking to his wife and before I could say anything, he quickly

Gone.

That night, the rain was knocking on the window, and I tossed and turned in bed. I felt guilty about Kevin, but more importantly,

I was savoring every moment I had with Zhang Wei. This man was more appealing to me than my teenage crush.

I dream about him. He is vivid, tender, excellent and even a little tired.

It has taken root in my heart, and now it has grown branches and leaves. This may be the fate of my past life and this life.

I can't hide away.

(six)

A sleepless night passed, and the rain finally stopped. Maybe it was because I didn't get enough rest, I

My heart was beating wildly. I didn't know why, but I always felt something was wrong.

After work, seeing colleagues gathered together, talking and making a lot of noise, Xiao Shi came up to them and said

I said, "Chen Li, do you know? Zhang Wei died!"

Hearing these words that sounded like heavenly language, I felt dizzy and hurriedly held onto the desk.

He knew that his urgent mission last night was to raid a drug gang with his entire team. During the fight, a criminal

The criminals were no match for him, so they detonated the ammunition they had prepared, and he became unconscious.

The drug gang was eventually caught, but he never opened his eyes again.

As people sighed and admired him, he was reported by various media, and his wife was also named by his group.

Zhishang took extra care of her, but I knew that the sadness in her heart was unmatched. After a long time,

Every night, I spent my time in a daze. I didn't understand why God let me meet him and cherish him. I hadn't even thought about it.

Where will he and I go from now on? We will never see each other again. The flame of passion has burned out, and he has become

A wisp of smoke gnawed at my weak soul in the depths of heaven. How could I bear it?

When few people in this city mentioned Zhang Wei anymore, I often felt sad and stubborn in my dreams at midnight.

I miss him so much that no one knows that my feelings have drifted away from my marriage. I think this will be the only time in my life.

An extramarital affair, because love can not be forgotten. Maybe from now on, all my thoughts about love in my life

And desire, like his warm breath, no longer exist, and after the passion of the flowers blooming that night, I actually

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