Hymen Destruction Team (adult novel adapted from anime)

In the fall of my senior year, I finally broke up with my girlfriend of three years. I think I still love her very much, but she is planning to go abroad with a graduate student to find happiness on the other side of the ocean.

It was a beautiful golden autumn. I was the only one feeling sad among the yellow leaves.

Later, that autumn, I met Xiaojun, Xiaoqiang and Xiaogang. Together with them, we formed this "hymen destruction team".

All three of them have left school. Xiaoqiang and Xiaogang have been in school for several years and have long been at the forefront of labor production. Xiaojun graduated from a technical secondary school and had been in the underworld for many years without realizing it.

When I met them, I was still struggling in the pure pain of a broken heart, getting drunk in a dim little bar with the last few dollars I had.

The three of them were just like me, either having just been dumped by their girlfriends or having just dumped their girlfriends, and were in a bad mood.

So we got to know each other in a daze with our stomachs full of alcohol.

Forming this "hymen-destroying team" was originally a joke between us. Out of deep sorrow and pain from a broken heart, we vowed to rape virgins one by one, using their most precious blood to commemorate the pure feelings that had all passed away.

Our slogan is: Treat all the virgins in the world by playing with their bodies, destroying their spirits, trampling on their personalities, and torturing their souls.

The joke eventually became reality. Xiaogang and his friends organize our activities every weekend very seriously. Everyone is very persistent and takes it as their responsibility to destroy the hymen, and they are determined to destroy one hymen after another.

At that time, I was still a virgin. My sexual experience is limited to passionate kisses with my girlfriend.

However, after getting to know these three people, my sexual progress has been rapid.

Xiaoqiang and Xiaojun are both experts in picking up girls. Compared to the two of them, Xiaogang is an even better expert. He always manages to pick up the most worthy girl in the shortest time and at the most critical occasion. For Xiaogang, taking a beautiful woman's underwear in the midst of chaos is as easy as taking something from a bag.

I am quite handsome, although not as handsome as Andy Lau, but at least I am on par with Chow Yun-fat. So there are always girls willing to approach me actively. In addition, I continued to learn humbly from Xiaogang and others, so I soon forgot about my college girlfriend with freckles all over her face.

Every weekend night when the moon is dark and the wind is strong is when our hymen destruction team takes action.

In fact, we don’t rape or gang-rape. We just seriously looked for and introduced girls to each other, then tried every means to verify that they were virgins, and finally had sex with them.

Every time we use the virgins' chastity blood to soak the toilet paper red. Then use them to make small paper flowers. We learned to make these little paper flowers when we were in kindergarten. It’s just that the little paper flowers in childhood were as pure as the innocent smiling faces of children, but now the little paper flowers indicate the degradation of the chastity of virgins.

The first paper flower I made was dyed red with the chastity blood of a beautiful elementary school teacher. She is really a very beautiful girl. She had just graduated from a teachers' college and was assigned to teach Chinese in a primary school.

Xiaogang introduced her to me and whispered to me: "This girl is pure. I haven't touched her yet, I guarantee she is a virgin."

Just two days after knowing her, we slept in her dormitory. It was my first time and her first time too. When I entered her body, she frowned and moaned. I thought it was extremely lewd and it was hard to imagine how she could stand in the classroom and lecture her students with a sanctimonious look on her face.

After finishing, I calmly used the toilet paper that I had prepared earlier to wipe off her blood. She didn't even ask why, she just looked at me with a blushing face.

Soon after I made my first little paper flower, I dumped her. Although this female teacher is beautiful, I don’t love her. I'm just making my own little paper flower, I don't want to be with her forever.

She was the first, but not the last. Since her, with my accumulated experience, I have pursued one virgin after another and destroyed one hymen after another.

I did learn to be a bad person when I was with Xiaojun, Xiaogang, Xiaoqiang and others. We never take responsibility for our actions and never regret anything. We just devoutly made small paper flowers with the girls' blood, as if making such paper flowers was something more noble and glorious than sex and ideals.

This world is ridiculous. When I was a virgin, all I heard was this alarming message about how there were fewer and fewer virgins in the world. But after I became a member of the "Hymen Destruction Team", I discovered that there are really a lot of virgins in this world, so many that our team was so busy that we were exhausted and wiped out.

The funny thing is that every virgin likes to talk to you about sex and sexual ethics. Although they have no sexual experience, they have their own unique insights in these areas. And it seems that every virgin is sexually hungry and willing to go to bed with a man at any time, thus bidding farewell to the traditional era of chastity and purity.

I find it very strange. The sacredness of chastity described in books in the past has become worthless in reality. Is this a betrayal of human ethics or a development of morality?

I asked Xiaogang: "What is purity?"

His answer: "More sex, less dreaming."

The logic is clear, what more can be said?

Xiaogang has made fourteen small paper flowers. Every time he showed us these achievements, the smile on his face was pure.

Xiaoqiang also made ten small paper flowers. He is very busy at work, so his time and energy are limited. Xiaojun has made the least, having only made three so far. Except for a few college girls I introduced to him, the rest of the girls always disappointed him after having sex with them. Why can't he meet a virgin? Xiaogang analyzed that Xiaojun hung out with a bunch of hostesses all day long, and few of the girls he met were good quality. He had long lost the ability to tell whether a girl was a virgin or not.

After a winter, I actually made five small paper flowers. Each flower was bright red and stained with blood. In fact, I slept with seven girls in total, but two of them were not virgins. I was blind to know them. I spent the longest time and put the greatest effort into developing relationships with them, but in the end, they were the ones who got satisfied.

Winter goes and spring comes. Day after day, I dealt with my studies and devoutly made these chastity paper flowers. I feel like I'm beginning to have a postmodernist sublime temperament. He is not happy with things, nor sad with himself. He doesn't care about anything, even the girl's sincere tears.

Recalling the sadness I felt when my girlfriend dumped me, I could only grit my teeth and utter the word "idiot". I don't think I will be as stupid as before. My past innocence and ignorance have long been destroyed by me along with those hymens.

What's left of me is just a highly sexual body and a professional spirit for picking up girls. The soul is simply dead. I thought I would live like this in a half-dead state until I grew old and died.

But life always changes. There are miracles in the world every day.

In the last spring of my senior year, I miraculously fell in love with the sixth girl whose virginity I had destroyed.

The girl is in her third year of high school. She is not very pretty, but very pure. She looks delicate every day, with a naive and reserved smile. You can tell at a glance that she is a student, and a virgin at that.

I met her at the city library. Since I had to prepare my college thesis, I sat opposite her in the reading room and studied hard. When we looked up at the same time, I smiled at her and we got to know each other.

Her name is Xiao Ting. I prefer to call her Xiaoting.

It can be seen that she is a girl who studies well and has great ideals in school. When I met her, she still had a copy of The Gadfly in her schoolbag.

She stroked the cover of The Gadfly and told me earnestly: "This book describes the strength of the soul and the unyielding ideals."

Xiaoting is still very innocent and full of hopes for the future.

As for me, apart from making small paper flowers, I have almost no strong soul or unyielding ideals.

So I'm not a gadfly, I'm a rogue. The next night, I went to bed with Xiaoting.

I have also taken the college entrance examination and had my ideals. Therefore, I clearly understand what a pure high school girl like Xiaoting wants to listen to and what she likes to listen to.

That night, I asked her to come to a small house I rented off campus.

The moon was round, and outside the window a cat in heat was howling.

I told her about my experience in the college entrance examination, about persistence and patience, about "How the Steel Was Tempered", and about existentialist philosophy. When I felt that there was a hint of admiration in her eyes when she looked at me, I seized the opportunity accurately.

I'm not a newbie. I touched her from head to toe, making it hard for her to control herself. When I finally entered her body, she hugged me tightly and let out a scream. The shrill cry echoed for a long time in the quiet night sky.

I was very excited that night. Xiaoting's blood dyed a large piece of toilet paper red. I decided to make a big flower with it.

Xiaoting leaned in my arms and gently stroked my arms. Her eyes seemed still pure, just like the lake in Jiuzhaigou, peaceful and tranquil.

But I know that she is no longer a virgin and she has been ruined by me.

So, I hugged her and excitedly told her about our Hymen Destruction Group, the little paper flowers we made, our slogan, and my paper flowers.

Xiaoting listened without saying a word, her face very pale. Because she suddenly realized that she was being played.

I will always remember that moment. Xiaoting got up angrily and put on her clothes. Her movements are very beautiful and graceful, like she is dancing.

It seemed that her lower body was still painful. After putting on her clothes, she covered her lower abdomen with her hands and stood bent over for a while. I saw her shoulders shaking. She must be crying.

Before leaving, Xiaoting gritted her teeth and said to me: "You have ruined me, you are a beast!" Her expression looked like a wild beast under the light, her eyes radiating hatred and anger, but her face was full of tears.

She likes me. I understood as soon as she cried.

So I laughed out loud. She left with laughter, walking into the dark night without looking back.

That night, I carefully made the most exquisite paper flower using the paper that Xiaoting dyed red. This paper flower is the best I have ever made, beautifully even and nearly perfect.

After the injection, tears rolled down my face. Neither regret nor sadness. I just want to cry, for no apparent reason. There is no need for a reason to cry.

Xiaoting's crying proved that she liked me. As soon as I cried, I thought I also fell in love with Xiaoting.

A few days later I went to find Xiaoting. This was the first time I went back to look for the virginity I had destroyed. At the gate of her middle school, I saw her with a gloomy look on her face, walking out of the school alone with her schoolbag on her back and her head down. The two long and beautiful legs look particularly attractive wrapped in sweatpants.

She started crying when she saw me.

I said to her: "I ruined you, so I will be responsible for you for the rest of my life."

Xiaoting must be very touched. Her tears wet my collar.

She didn't go home that night, but came back to my cabin with me. We were entwined like snakes in the bed.

Xiaoting said, "You are so nice to me." Her words made me very strange. I had sex with her just to satisfy my explosive desires. I don't want to be too nice to her. Even when he said in the afternoon that he would take responsibility for her for the rest of her life, I didn't take it seriously. Why does she think I am nice to her?

Maybe I like Xiaoting because she has personality and I don’t; or maybe I like Xiaoting because she has ideals and I have lost my ideals long ago. This kind of liking is like falling in love with a rich person just because you have no money. I think it is despicable.

But Xiaoting doesn't think so. She was willing to use her meager pocket money to buy me delicious sweet rice cakes, and was willing to stay with me as much as possible after school every day. She said she liked looking at me and that I was sometimes naughty and very much like Yang Guo. She wishes she were Xiaolongnu, so that there would be everlasting love between us.

I don't want to quit the hymen-busting team yet. But it’s always inconvenient to have Xiaoting following me. Luckily, I was busy with graduation during that time, so there were no awkward situations.

Writing a college thesis is as easy as taking a shit. I just poop out a lot. After finishing my thesis, I graduated with honors in June.

A relative was enthusiastically helping me find a job, but I had nothing to do.

At this time Xiaogang came to me and told me that he found three avant-garde girls, and guaranteed that they were all virgins. He made an appointment with Xiaojun, and the three of us will put on a good show of three-way cooperation in the small house I rented. Of course, it was not a horse-drawn carriage that was being driven, but an old man pushing a cart.

These three girls are indeed avant-garde and rebellious. They are very willing to say goodbye to their virginity on such a double month and double number week.

So on my small bed, three carts were galloping on the field of sex.

They are all virgins. The three bright red bloodstains made me feel extremely excited. The girl under me not only has big breasts, but her moans are also particularly seductive. The rudeness of Xiaojun next to her made the girl under her a little overwhelmed. Xiaogang was busy with his own things while teaching Xiaojun: "Slow down and pay attention to the rhythm." He spoke as if he was doing a ballroom dance.

Just as the six of us were reaching the climax, the door was pushed open and Xiaoting walked in. She was holding my favorite sweet rice cake in her hand.

Seeing the six of us naked and in exciting postures, she was stunned by what she saw. If she was pure at heart before, then after seeing all this, her soul was tainted.

Everyone looked at me, waiting for me to find a solution in this awkward atmosphere. I had no choice but to blame Xiaojun: "You didn't even lock the door when you came in last."

Xiaojun scratched his scalp and laughed. On days when he's not fighting for the underworld, he has a pretty cute smile.

Xiaoting clenched her fists and questioned me: "You said you would be responsible for me forever, you..." She herself didn't know what to say.

My hand was still on one breast at that time. I touched this breast and told Xiaoting in a student-like tone: "You have no right to interfere in my private life. I don't love you anymore, get out of here."

Hearing this, Xiaoting's tears flowed down.

I politely said, "Remember to lock the door when you go out." After that, I continued to make love.

I don't remember how Xiaoting ran out crying. The three girls didn't mention this incident when they said goodbye to each other. They had just lost their virginity, and I think they must have some regrets.

Before leaving, Xiaojun said to me, "You are so inhumane." His tone was full of admiration. I feel very proud to be admired by a gangster.

I also know that Xiaoting will never come to see me again, and it's over between us. Fortunately, I used the virgin blood of a girl today to make a small paper flower. There are already seven. After my destruction, the most important layer of film of the seven fairies was blown away by the wind. It’s a sense of accomplishment anyway.

Even with the satisfaction of accomplishment, I still feel empty.

This emptiness devours my soul like the vast night sky. I hurt Xiaoting today and destroyed her soul again by defiling her body. There is only one month left before her college entrance examination. I hope she can get into a good university, so that she may not resent me for the rest of her life.

My wishes are good. At this moment I thought I was a good person. I deceived myself and gained mental peace.

But later, I heard from Xiaoting’s classmates that Xiaoting failed the college entrance examination.

That day was about a month after Xiaoting took the college entrance examination. I couldn't help but want to know which city Xiaoting was admitted to, so I unconsciously walked to the college entrance examination list of her school.

It was an evening with the setting sun, and the fragrance of osmanthus was wafting through Xiaoting’s middle school. I have smelled this scent on Xiaoting before, so it feels particularly familiar to me.

A girl in front of the list told me that Xiaoting failed the college entrance examination. This is a girl with big braids and beautiful black eyes. She told me meaningfully that Xiaoting collapsed before the college entrance examination. Her spirit seemed to have suffered a severe blow before the college entrance examination. After failing the first few exams, she didn't take the last two. She gave up.

The girl with big braids also told me that Xiaoting was originally among the top three in her class. The teachers had high hopes for her and thought she should have been admitted to a prestigious key university. . . . . .

As I listened to these words, I suddenly remembered what Xiaoting once said to me: You have ruined me, you are a beast.

I don't think I did anything wrong, I just feel ashamed of myself.

Out of psychological pressure of inferiority, I tried hard to please the girl with long braids. I kept making her laugh, and finally she came to bed with me and had sex with me in the cottage I rented.

The girl with big braids is not a virgin. She said she and her boyfriend tried to have sex when they were sophomores in high school.

I don't care if she's a virgin or not. The most important thing is that she is Xiaoting's classmate. So I fucked her hard, making her scream with pleasure. I am searching for the essence and sin of the soul in this cry.

I have been in touch with this girl with big braids. Because through her, I can know where Xiaoting is and what Xiaoting is doing.

The girl with the braid was admitted to the university from which I just graduated. As soon as school started, she cut her braids into short hair less than a finger's length, and she became extremely ugly.

She told me with her short hair, crooked nose and squinting eyes that Xiaoting was taking tutoring in a very ordinary cram school.

I didn't have the courage to look for Xiaoting because I thought I might feel guilty after seeing her. I still like her. Whenever I went to bed with some other girl, I would think of her and the screams she made when we had sex for the first time.

I found a job in a government agency these days. During working hours, apart from sweeping the floor, fetching water and currying favor with the section chief, I read a lot of newspapers and books.

Naturally, we also have to participate in the activities of the Hymen Destruction Group on weekends. The result of participating in this meaningful activity was that when I saw Xiaoting again, I had made a total of twenty small paper flowers.

Xiaoting's flowers are still the most colorful and exquisite. Whenever I see this flower, I always miss her.

Finally, two months before Xiaoting was going to take the college entrance examination for the second time, I decided to meet her. My original intention was to encourage her, so I went to her cram school.

She was noticeably fatter and paler than she had been a year ago. Every girl who takes tutoring classes does this, and I don’t find it strange at all. It was my appearance that caught Xiaoting by surprise. When she saw me, Xiaoting's tears fell to the ground like beads from a broken string.

We stared at each other for a long time. I said, "I wish you good luck in the college entrance examination this year."

She walked over slowly, slapped me hard in the face, then fell into my arms and burst into tears.

That night, we returned to my dorm. I have asked my company for a single dormitory and will no longer rent that poor little house off campus.

In bed, I told her with my actions how much I missed her this year. She also cooperated with me silently. The small bed in the dormitory made a creaking sound in the darkness. It seems that this bed is the happiest when Xiaoting and I have sex.

I feel like Xiaoting and I have reconciled. So I reverently showed her the twenty little paper flowers I had made. I said to her, "You are the largest and most exquisite one among them."

Her face changed suddenly, becoming completely pale. She is angry. She knew I was still destroying my hymen. She was the sixth one, but in one year there were fourteen more. Not only did I not learn better, I became worse.

That night, she left overnight. I don’t know if she had enough money for a taxi, but I know Xiaoting must hate me to death.

Someone once said that the college entrance examination is like making love, the first time is the most important. It's the same for boys and girls. After the first time, boys become more and more slutty, while girls become more and more rotten.

Xiaoting failed her first college entrance examination. The second time also failed.

It’s just that I didn’t stimulate her much the second time, so she failed on her own.

Of course, I also have an unshirkable responsibility. Because a few days before the college entrance examination, Xiaoting discovered that she was pregnant.

After failing the college entrance examination, Xiaoting came to see me. At that time, I was reciting poems with Xiaogang in the dormitory. Sitting next to him was a girl with bright eyes and white teeth. This girl said that she would give her virginity to whoever has better literary talent between me and Xiaogang.

Xiaogang chanted a poem "Spring Dawn":

I slept through the spring and didn't wake up until dawn. I was sexually harassed everywhere.

The moaning sound in the middle of the night, the girl turned into a sister-in-law.

I have received higher education, so of course I won't give up easily. So I came up with the first line of a couplet, and as long as Xiaogang can come up with the second line, I will admit defeat.

My couplet is: Menstrual belt, menstrual belt every month, the more you wear it, the more it becomes.

This is an eternal absolute. Xiaogang was full of shit and there was no way he could fight back. Just as he was about to give in and leave the girl to me, Xiaoting came.

Xiaoting's eyes were a little swollen, and she said, "I'm pregnant."

I have nothing to say. I am healthy and she has no physical problems. This is a very natural thing.

My indifference made Xiaoting very angry. She raised her fist and said, "You destroyed me. You are a beast!"

I have heard this sentence before, it sounds very familiar and kind.

She added, "I will hate you forever." She seemed to become calm again as she said this. After saying that, she walked away.

She became a little bit sharp and a little bit tough. I think this may be because of reading "The Gadfly". I have also read "How the Steel Was Tempered", but I still don't have any noble qualities. I admire girls like Xiaoting who can draw strength from books.

After Xiaoting left, I haven’t seen her for two years.

During these two years, the activities of our hymen destruction team have gradually decreased. All four of us felt a little bored. It turns out that everything in life will slowly make people bored, and nothing is always worth doing. What is the meaning of our lives?

In two years, Xiaojun has risen from a gangster to a small boss. Xiaoqiang became rich but became impotent. His desire for money far exceeds his desire for sex, which is very perverted.

Only Xiaogang and I are still the same as before. Time is wasted in mediocrity and boredom.

During this period, I read a book that really moved me. The title of the book is "Maybe Painful, Not Necessarily Happy". The author Nagang said in his preface that he was writing about feelings, but I read the purity of the past from that book.

I had almost forgotten this noble sentiment for a long time, but I didn't expect that a book would make me see my former personality again. I hate to think about the past because it makes it even more shameful.

So after being moved, I immediately burned the book "Maybe Painful, Not Necessarily Happy". I want to turn my past personality and past nobility into ashes like Qiu Shaoyun.

However, there are many things in life that you can never help but recall, and there are many people that you can never forget.

Xiaoting is the one I can never forget. During these two years, her figure and her expression always flashed before my eyes. I will never forget the first time I met her, when she stroked the cover of The Gadfly and told me earnestly: "This book describes the strength of the soul and the unyielding ideals."

I think this sentence is her banner, showing her noble qualities beneath her pure appearance.

I miss her. I found that missing her made me love her more.

If I see her again, I think I will say to her:

"I destroyed you, so I will be responsible for you for the rest of your life."

One day it was raining heavily, and Xiaojun told me that he met Xiaoting. Xiaojun's boss runs several dance halls and nightclubs that provide pornographic services. Xiaojun saw Xiaoting working as a hostess there.

In the heavy rain, I immediately ran into the dance hall at night. When I saw Xiaoting, I could hardly believe my eyes. She was wearing a short white skirt that exposed a girl's most private parts, and she was sitting sideways on the lap of a man old enough to be her father. The man's fat and ugly hands were touching Xiaoting randomly under her skirt, which couldn't be any shorter.

Xiaoting said coquettishly, "Boss Zhao, you are so bad." After that, she saw me.

At that moment I thought Xiaoting would cry. But she didn't. She smiled at me and continued to let the old man touch her.

I cried. I know I really ruined Xiaoting.

I rushed over, took out all the money I had and threw it on the old pervert's face, told him that I had reserved this girl for the night, and then rushed out with Xiaoting.

I pulled Xiaoting out into the heavy rain and asked her, "Do you still remember The Gadfly?"

She snorted and said she had forgotten it long ago.

The rain wet our clothes and washed away the thick makeup on Xiaoting's face. She finally became pure and charming again.

I took her back to my place. My company has allocated me an apartment.

The rain keeps falling outside the window, like endless tears for thousands of years of human sorrow.

Xiaoting lit a cigarette and told me about her life in the past two years. After failing the college entrance examination for the second time, she became disheartened. Plus, she was pregnant with my child, so you can imagine the pressure a girl under 20 years old was under.

She had an abortion, then worked in several places, and finally worked as a hostess in a bar, naturally going through the process from not selling her body to selling it.

I said to her, "Remember what I said? I said that I ruined you, so I will be responsible for you for the rest of your life."

She sneered and said, "I am no longer the Xiao Ting of the past. I am no longer naive and childish. I will never believe in the nonsense you stinky men say again."

She got up to leave, but before leaving, she turned around and gave me her cell phone number, telling me that if I wanted to have sex with a prostitute, I could call her and she would charge me half price.

I want to get her back, but I can't.

She is indeed no longer Xiaoting.

Through the window, I saw her standing in the rain downstairs for a while, letting the rain mercilessly wash over her body. I think she must be crying. I felt that if I rushed downstairs and kissed her in the rain, then we would definitely get back together.

But I was wrong.

Just when I was thinking about it but hadn't rushed out the door yet, I saw Xiaoting turned around and spat viciously at my building. At that moment, there was a flash of lightning, and the light of thunder and lightning illuminated the entire night sky, and I also saw Xiaoting's eyes full of malicious resentment.

She hated me very much, I'm sure. Her eyes are like those of a devil, a shrew, and a poisonous snake. The tranquility and clarity of the Jiuzhaigou Lake in the past have completely disappeared.

I feel very scared. After a muffled thunder, I sat down on the ground.

I ruined Xiaoting.

I asked Xiaojun to take care of Xiaoting. Xiaojun is very popular in those nightclubs and dance halls. Xiaojun said: "A bitch is worthy of your attention."

I really wanted to beat him up after hearing this, but I guess I wouldn't be able to do it, so I just let it go.

Since then, I have met Xiaoting several times. I asked her out, but she refused. She said if I wanted to have sex with her I should go to their nightclub.

In order to see her, I had no choice but to have sex with her. Sometimes I go alone, sometimes I go with Xiaogang.

I remember that time after Xiaogang and I had sex with her, she patted my shoulder and said that my body was still as good as before. When she spoke, she exuded a strong smell of cheap perfume, long gone was the faint osmanthus fragrance of her student days.

Later, Xiaoting died.

She contracted a sexually transmitted disease and failed to be cured after several attempts at treatment, so she rotted to death.

I knew that her STD could not be cured by medicine because her decay started from the depths of her soul. She used to be an idealistic and pure girl, with a faint scent of osmanthus on her body. She was also excited by "The Gadfly".

But she was destroyed by me. Once a person's pure and noble qualities are destroyed, he is not far from death.

So, I think maybe I am the only one in this world who knows how Xiaoting died.

On the day Xiaoting's body was farewelled, there was no memorial service, no relatives, and no friends. Perhaps they felt that the death of a prostitute was insignificant.

It was a cloudy day. The five of us, the hymen destruction team and Xiaoting's mother, said goodbye to Xiaoting. Xiaoting's father was so heartbroken by her that he refused to come.

I didn’t expect Xiaoting’s final appearance to be so pure. When I saw it, I immediately remembered the first time I saw her. But now she no longer wears heavy lipstick or the professional attire of a prostitute. Her face was pure and pale, and there was even a hint of a smile at the corner of her mouth.

She seemed to tell me seriously: "This book describes the strength of the soul and the unyielding ideals."

I understand, Xiaoting is dead. This pure face is just a pile of dead flesh.

So, I regretted it at that moment.

This was the first time I felt so regretful and ashamed. I knelt in front of Xiaoting's body and was unwilling to get up for a long time. Although I didn't shed tears, my soul was crying.

Xiaoting's mother cried her heart out in front of me. If she knew that I was the one who ruined Xiaoting, would she go crazy and kill me? She won't. Because she couldn't understand how much I had destroyed Xiaoting.

I remembered the slogan of our hymen-destroying group: play with their bodies, destroy their spirits, trample on their personalities, and torture their souls.

I have achieved all these four things in Xiaoting. But I regretted it.

The achievement of the hymen destruction team today is to destroy Xiaoting.

I think it's not just Xiaoting that is destroyed. We made a total of one hundred small paper flowers, which means one hundred girls were destroyed by us. We play, destroy, trample, torture. One hundred girls, one hundred purity, became our shameless achievement.

I do regret it.

If Xiaoting survived, I don't think I would be qualified to say to her: "I ruined you, so I will be responsible for you for the rest of my life."

One hundred small paper flowers were placed around Xiaoting's body. I want all the paper flowers from Xiaogang, Xiaojun and Xiaoqiang. I want to use these one hundred paper flowers as burial objects for Xiaoting. I want to use the chastity and purity of these one hundred paper flowers to express my deepest apology to Xiaoting! ! !

Xiaoting's body was cremated along with the one hundred paper flowers.

I said to Xiaogang and the others, "Let's disband our hymen destruction team."

No one objected. This organization is indeed too boring, so boring that everyone is fed up with it.

So, this hymen-destroying group that had existed for a long time was finally completely disbanded in the destruction of a girl.

Since the day Xiaoting turned to ashes, my soul has been in deep regret. This regret makes me feel my stomach contracting and I feel nauseous and want to vomit. The city is filled with the ghosts of many virgins who have lost their virginity, like flies and mosquitoes, omnipresent and disturbing my soul.

I decided to leave this city. I want to change myself. I want to start a new life with the purity that Xiaoting once had.

I bought a train ticket to the farthest city. I want to say goodbye to the past completely, forget Xiaoting, forget those paper flowers, and forget the hymen destruction team. Stay away. No one will remember me anymore, and I don't want to remember anyone anymore.

After getting on the train, I was excited. I felt that I would get over the guilt I felt towards Xiaoting, and I was smiling. My emotions seemed to infect the passengers sitting with me. They greeted me with smiles on their faces, making me feel warm as if I were home.

Sitting opposite me was an innocent girl, probably a student who might be going to study in another place. Because she was so beautiful, I couldn't help but take a second look at her.

When she noticed that I was looking at her, she raised her head and smiled at me.

It was then that I noticed that she was holding a copy of The Gadfly in her hand.

She stroked the cover of The Gadfly and told me earnestly: "This book describes the strength of the soul and the unyielding ideals."

When I heard this, I cried. I have never been as sad as I am today in my life. My tears gushed out like a tide, my body kept shaking, but no sound came out of my mouth.

Every passenger, including the girl, looked at me in surprise.