Holding my thoughts and dancing with the wind, I recall the complete collection of the thin spring clothes of the past (other adult novels)

1.

“Guess who I am?”

When I was racking my brains for an advertising copy for a perfume, a pair of soft and delicate hands covered my eyes from behind. I was startled and dropped the pen in my hand and instinctively wanted to stand up. Then I heard that sweet voice and I knew who it was.

"Stop it, Xiaorou. It's so late now. Why aren't you sleeping yet?" I reached out to pull her hand away.

"I'm not Xiaorou."

"Who are you?"

"Guess!"

"I don't want to."

"Oh, I don't care! You must guess!" Xiaorou said coquettishly.

"Okay, then I'll guess. You are Vivian Chow!"

"Hehe~ No, that's not right!"

"Then you are~~Xiao Qiang!"

"Wrong guess again!"

"Ha! Bing! I know you are A-Pi-Po!"

"Oh! That's so annoying! Am I that old?" Xiaorou pushed my head and sat down on the edge of my bed. I turned around and saw her with her eyes rolled up and her lips raised high. It was a hot day, and she was only wearing a loose T-shirt. Her chest was bulging, and her round, white legs were exposed. A small piece of white cotton fabric could be vaguely seen at the junction of her legs. She was wearing a pair of green slippers, and her calves were rubbing along the edge of the bed. Alas! I wonder if girls nowadays have good nutrition. They all developed so well! Then I realized that my fixed gaze was too blatant! Xiaorou seemed to notice that something was wrong with my gaze, so she crossed her legs and raised her mouth even higher.

"What the hell! Where are you looking at?!"

"I'm watching~ I'm watching our little Rourou grow up!"

Xiaorou rolled her eyes at me again, but a smile appeared at the corner of her mouth.

"Am I pretty then?"

"Beautiful? Compared to you, Zhou Huimin and Xiao Qiang are all ugly!"

"I knew you were the best to me."

She rushed up to me happily, hugged me and pecked my cheek. I could clearly feel two soft balls of flesh pressing against my back. A feeling of heat rushed from Dantian to the forehead. I think I must have blushed, because I saw Xiaorou had a teasing smile on her face, and her big black and white eyes blinked at me with ill intent.

well! Silly Xiaorou, she doesn’t know how stimulating such a small action is to a 28-year-old single man!

"Why are you coming here dressed like this?" I tried to divert her attention.

"It's hot!"

"Aren't you afraid of being seen?!"

"Others? Are there other people living near our house?" That's true. Our house is in the suburbs of the suburbs and the nearest neighbor is 80 meters away.

"Okay, that's enough. I'm going back to sleep. Good night!" Then he left my room without looking back.

well! This is Xiaorou, my little cousin, a pampered little girl.

We live across the street from my uncle. This is the land left by my grandfather. My father and uncle did not move out after they separated. They decided to build separate houses but connect the balconies on the fourth floor together so that the downstairs can be shaded in the summer (this is why Xiaorou can sneak over every day). I am the youngest and have three older brothers.

My uncle has only one daughter, Xiaorou. Because of his late marriage, there is a 10-year age difference between Xiaorou and me. Xiaorou has been spoiled since she was the only girl in the family. Among them, I spoil her the most. Perhaps it is because of her that I feel fulfilled as a brother! Maybe she was born too late?

At that time, my brothers were either studying away from home or suffering from neurasthenia due to the pressure of continuing their studies. They had little time to pay attention to her. So, apart from my aunt, I was her only playmate since childhood. When she started school, I was ordered to take on the responsibility of "protecting the flower", and I have always been very competent. Every time she was bullied by classmates, I would always beat her up and make her cry. In the past few years, my three brothers have immigrated one after another, and my mother also went to the United States with my eldest brother. Only my father still frequently travels between mainland China and Taiwan because of his factory, and I am almost always the only one at home.

Although Xiaorou has been spoiled since she was a child, besides being very fond of acting like a spoiled brat, she is actually very well-behaved and considerate. Maybe she was afraid that I would be lonely all these years? After finishing her studies, she would always come to my room and stir the room before going back to sleep. In my impression, Xiaorou has always been the little girl who wore a white shirt, a blue skirt, and an orange school cap, and who would hold people’s hands and act coquettishly when she saw them on the first day of school. Unexpectedly, tonight, I was shocked to realize that she has grown into a young and beautiful girl.

I looked at Xiaorou who was about to step over the railing, raised her legs, revealing her round buttocks wrapped in white cotton panties. Suddenly, my crotch began to stir, and I quickly looked away. What was I doing? She is my sister! I turned my attention back to the copy, but I couldn't help but take a look. Xiaorou had already twisted her way into the room. I have organized the manuscript and I'll stop here for today! I turned off the lights and was about to go to bed when the phone rang.

"Hello, is this Mingwei?" A soft voice came from the receiver.

"Xiao Feng? It's so late? What's the matter?"

“………………” After a few seconds of silence on the other end of the phone, the voice began to sob.

"Xiao Feng! What's wrong? Don't cry!"

“………………”Xiao Feng just kept crying.

"What happened? Come on, tell me slowly."

After waiting for a few minutes, Xiao Feng stopped crying and said, "Are you free tomorrow? We haven't seen each other for a long time. Can we meet?"

"Okay, when?"

After making an appointment with Xiao Feng at the time and place, I lay back on the bed, thinking about my old classmate Xiao Feng, with mixed feelings in my heart.

Xiao Feng and I are truly old classmates. We have been in the same school from elementary school to university. We played together when we were young, and we have always been just friends who can get along well with each other in high school.

Until we went to college, because we were often together, we were naturally classified as a class couple, and we were together naturally. Xiao Feng was not the prettiest girl in the department, but her figure was the most outstanding, so much so that she earned the nickname "nanny". Although she was surrounded by many suitors all the time, she seemed to be determined to follow me and showed no interest in other suitors. At that time, I thought she was the one for me in this life, so I was not in a rush. On the one hand, we both loved literature, and we both thought that love should be beautiful, pure and without a trace of impurities. So over the four years, apart from holding hands, kissing and hugging, there was nothing else we did.

After graduation, I joined an advertising company and she joined a magazine. We were both busy, and when we met occasionally we would just have a quick meal and talk about work. As time went by, I always felt that there seemed to be fewer and fewer topics to talk about. In addition, we both put all our energy into work and wanted to achieve good results, so gradually, our feelings seemed to be getting weaker and weaker. The last time we met was more than half a month ago. I vaguely heard her mention that someone was pursuing her, but I didn’t care much. Since the past few years in college, I almost believed that getting married was a matter of time! ? It’s just that this phone call was a bit nonsensical. Forget it, let’s talk about it tomorrow!

2.

When I entered the restaurant, I saw Xiao Feng sitting there alone, looking thoughtful. I walked over and sat down, waking her up from her thoughts.

"What's the matter?"

“…………” She stopped talking again.

"What's wrong? You look weird?"

Xiao Feng slowly took out a wedding invitation from her purse. I took it and opened it while thinking, I haven’t heard of any classmates or friends getting married recently? When I opened it, I saw the names of Xiao Feng and a man I didn't know printed on it. I looked up suddenly and looked at Xiao Feng in disbelief.

"I...I'm getting married." Xiao Feng said in a low voice.

"What are you kidding..." I realized my voice was unusually loud, so I quickly lowered the volume "Are you kidding?!"

"………" Xiao Feng said faintly, "I am also conflicted, but Mingwei, have you noticed that our relationship has faded a lot since graduation? I have been hesitating whether I should continue…"

"That's because we are all busy!" I interrupted her.

"I know, I know you've always wanted to achieve something in your career, but...but Mingwei, I'm not young anymore, and my family has been urging me to get married. He...he's really good to me, I have no choice..."

"You can tell me!"

"I've said it more than once, but you don't seem to care. I doubt whether you really care about our relationship..."

"I care, Xiao Feng, I swear I really care..."

"It's too late." Xiao Feng shook her head slowly. "I... I'm pregnant... My family knows about it... Mingwei, it's too late. We can't turn back..."

"Who?" I heard a sound coming out of my throat with difficulty, but I began to feel dizzy.

"It's our boss's youngest son, I told you..." I couldn't hear what Xiao Feng said after that. I only saw her red lips, which were carefully made up, opening and closing. I felt dizzy...

I don't know how I got home. When I woke up, I was already in my bed. I saw Xiaorou mopping the floor with great effort. There were manuscripts and books scattered all over the floor next to the desk. I wanted to turn over, but I felt like my whole body was scattered and I couldn't use any strength. My mouth was bitter and dry, and my head was splitting. I couldn't help but groan. Xiaorou heard my voice, dropped the mop in her hand, walked to my bed, and looked down at me.

"Brother, are you awake?"

"What's wrong with me?" I asked her confusedly.

"You're still asking!" Xiaorou put her hands on her waist and puffed her cheeks. "Do you know? You got drunk last night, cried and made a fuss, vomited all over the floor, it was so dirty, and...you yelled and screamed at me, you were so fierce!"

"Really? I'm sorry, Xiaorou, I can't remember."

"You forget so quickly. Your uncle is almost mad at you. He says you've never done that before and you must have made some bad friends."

"Xiao Rou, can you give me a glass of water?"

"No way!" Xiaorou said this but left the bed and picked up the water on the desk, which was obviously prepared long ago. "Uncle asked you to call him when you wake up. What happened to you?"

"You don't have class today?"

"Today is Sunday, what class do you have? I see you are drunk." He handed the water to me. I tried to get up, but I had no strength. Xiaorou sighed, held my head and fed me water. I rested my head on her soft body, but the shadow of Xiaofeng appeared in my mind. After drinking the water, Xiaorou put her face in front of me again.

"Tell me! What happened?"

"Xiao Rou, I'm so tired, can you let me rest for a while?"

"No! You must explain clearly!"

"Ah~~~~~!" I sighed deeply, "Xiao Feng is getting married..."

"Sister Xiaofeng? Isn't that great?" Xiaorou looked puzzled.

I smiled bitterly and said, "Xiao Feng is getting married, but I'm not the groom."

"How is it possible?" Xiaorou opened her eyes wide "Why?"

"I don't know either."

"How could Sister Xiao Feng do this!"

"It's not her fault. It's all my fault. I neglected her too much."

"Oh! Poor brother, you must be heartbroken." Xiaorou held my head in her soft arms, and her long hair brushed against my face. well! How great it would be if Xiaorou was replaced by Xiaofeng at this time.

After Xiaofeng got married, in order to escape the pain in my heart, I devoted myself more fully to work. At night, I had to numb myself with alcohol. Xiaorou still came to my room every night, and in the drunken night, she would take care of me until I fell asleep before leaving with a sigh. Several times I seemed to see the shadow of Xiao Feng in her, and I almost thought she was the incarnation of Xiao Feng. But when I rubbed my eyes and looked clearly, she was my young, beautiful, and coquettish little sister. I pushed her away, rushed into the bathroom, and vomited desperately.

That night, I was still drunk and stumbled back to the room. Xiaorou fell asleep at the desk. I closed the door, burped with a smell of alcohol, and pinched her nose mischievously. Seeing Xiaorou slowly open her eyes, I sat back on the bed and looked at her with a smile. Suddenly, Xiaorou got up and threw me onto the bed.

"Xiao Rou! What are you doing?" I was frightened awake by her action.

“Get up!”

I helped Xiaorou up, but saw two lines of tears on her cheeks.

"Brother, please don't be like this, okay?"

"What's wrong!?"

"Brother, do you know that I am so sad when you are like this?"

"Xiao Rou, dear Xiao Rou, don't cry, don't cry! Brother is fine!"

"Don't lie to me, Xiaorou is not a child. I know that you have been abusing yourself since Sister Xiaofeng got married. You didn't drink like this before. Seeing you so sad, my heart hurts, do you know that?"

Xiaorou took a step back, took a deep breath and said, "Brother, I've thought about this for a long time. Since Sister Xiaofeng can no longer love you, let Xiaorou love you well!" She slowly raised her hands and began to unbutton her pajamas. I saw the clothes on her chest gradually open, revealing a white bra. I'm totally sober now.

I hurriedly grabbed her hand and said, "Xiao Rou, what are you doing?"

"Brother, Xiaorou likes you, I..."

I reached out my hand and covered her lips. "Brother likes you, too! But I'm your brother! Do you know what you are doing?"

"Of course I know. I'm 18 years old. Do you still think I'm a child?" Xiaorou broke free from my hands and hugged me tightly. I felt her young, soft and elastic breasts pressed against my chest, and I smelled the fragrance of her young girl's body. I felt my sanity collapsing bit by bit, but the feeling in my crotch was getting stronger. I almost put my palms on her breasts, but I pushed her away and took a deep breath.

"Xiao Rou, listen to me, this won't work. We are brother and sister, right? I like you very much. Really, I really like this beautiful and caring little sister of mine, but, that won't work..."

"I knew it," Xiaorou pushed me away fiercely. "I know you don't like me at all. You are so nice to me only because I am your sister, so you tolerate my pranks and my nonsense to you, do you know? I do this because I want you to pay more attention to me. I have liked you since I was a child, don't you know? You like Sister Xiaofeng, but does Sister Xiaofeng like you? Isn't she married to someone else? Can she care about you like I do?

"After Xiao Rou finished speaking, she ran out of my room without looking back. I didn't have time to hold her back, so I could only sit down on the edge of the bed dejectedly, muttering," Xiao Rou, no, it's not like that. “

3.

I haven't been home for nearly two weeks. I'm really afraid to face Xiaorou again. I'm afraid to see the resentful look in her eyes when she left that night. During this period, I went to the hotel every day to vent my frustration among those stranger girls. My boss obviously felt that something was wrong with me and said, "I don't know what happened to you, maybe you are too tired. Take a vacation and talk about it when you come back." So I obediently asked for half a month's leave.

That night, I was still drinking and partying in the hotel when suddenly my pager rang. I looked and it was a call from home. My dad had gone to mainland China the day before yesterday, and only Xiaorou would call me. There must be something wrong! After driving back home in a hurry, Xiaorou sat alone in the living room in a daze. Seeing me rushing in through the door, she stood up and said:

"My parents went to the mainland to visit a factory. I'm the only one at home these two days. I'm so scared. I know my brother hates me, but... I'm really scared..."

Seeing her pitiful appearance, I couldn't help but walk forward and hug her, "Xiao Rou, I'm sorry, it's all my fault!"

Xiaorou raised her face in my arms and said, "Brother, kiss me!"

I looked at her big, bright eyes filled with tears, and smelled that unique fragrance and a surge of alcohol in my nose. My rationality completely collapsed...

I kissed away the tears on Xiaorou's cheeks, she slowly closed her eyes, and I gently pressed my lips against her warm and soft lips. She responded with a more passionate kiss. I placed one hand gently on her breast and rubbed it slowly and gently. I put my other hand around her soft and boneless waist and gently laid her down on the sofa. I used my tongue to pry open her slightly open lips, searching, and our two tongues entangled in our tightly pressed mouths. My hands wandered restlessly over her body, and I could feel her frantic heartbeat through her bra and shirt in my warm palms.

I slowly pulled off her shirt, revealing a white bra underneath. I caressed her breasts through the bra. "Hmm~" A stream of hot air came out of Xiaorou's nose. She kept her eyes closed, which deepened my desire. I left Xiaorou's lips and slowly unhooked her bra. What appeared before my eyes was a pair of small and exquisite breasts of a young girl. The two small nipples on the pink areola seemed to be calling me. Xiaorou's skin was so white and clean that I could see the thin blood vessels densely covering her breasts. I was almost stunned.

Seeing that I hadn't moved for a long time, Xiaorou slowly opened her eyes and gently called out "Brother!"

"Xiao Rou, you are so beautiful." I stared at this beautiful girl in front of me, and had long forgotten that she was my blood cousin.

"Brother, I love you! From a long, long time ago."

"Xiao Rou, me too." I kissed her lips again and rubbed her breasts gently with my palms. Her breasts were not big enough to hold in my hands, but were full of elasticity. My lips slid along her jaw, neck, chest, and licked her cleavage. When I followed Xiaorou's raised peaks to her nipples, she twisted her body restlessly, and the breath in her nose became more and more rapid. My tongue deftly moved her nipples up and down, and then drew circles on her areola from large to small. When I gently held her nipples that were swollen and hardened due to excitement with my teeth, she couldn't help but screamed:

“Ah~~~~~”

My tongue continued to search downwards, sliding across her abdomen and her belly button. My hands pulled her skirt down, and Xiaorou clamped her legs tightly together.

"Brother, I'm so scared." Xiaorou suddenly said this, but I could no longer understand the meaning of her words. Lust had already overwhelmed me.

"Xiao Rou, don't be afraid. Come on, relax." I gently pulled Xiao Rou's legs apart. I saw that the triangle area that was always vaguely visible in front of my eyes was gradually covered with a thin layer of water. Xiao Rou shyly turned her body over, and in front of me were the two pink buttocks that were always covered by underwear. I suddenly grabbed the two pieces of meat and kissed and bit them madly. Xiao Rou said anxiously:

"Brother, be gentle, you bite me so hard!"

So I took off her panties with all my strength, turned her over, facing me, when I saw Xiaorou's triangle area with sparse pubic hair, I went crazy, I quickly took off all my clothes, leaving only a pair of panties, leaned over Xiaorou and kissed her beautiful skin madly, my cock rubbed back and forth on Xiaorou's round and tender thighs, it was already hard and swollen to my discomfort, I sucked Xiaorou's nipples hard, she seemed to go crazy too, just kept calling out:

"Brother, brother~"

I grabbed Xiaorou's hand and put it on my cock, and Xiaorou let out a soft cry.

"Hello, bro~~"

Her already slightly flushed face became even more shy.

"Xiao Rou, are you afraid?"

"No, I love my brother, I'm not afraid."

I simply took off my underwear, and the two of us were already naked facing each other. I guided Xiaorou's hand to my cock again, and taught her to rub it back and forth. Xiaorou's palms were soft and warm, and I could only feel the blood in my cock was about to burst out of my body. Xiaorou seemed to feel the strong changes in her hand, opened her eyes to take a peek, and then closed them tightly again.

"Brother, you're so hard and hot!"

"That's because Xiaorou is so charming!"

"I feel so itchy and weird inside. I can't explain it. My whole body feels weird."

I leaned over and kissed her gently, moving from her breasts, belly button, and vagina to the mysterious intersection of her thighs. I opened Xiaorou's tightly clamped legs, and there was already a gurgling stream in the pink path. The tightly closed palace door exuded an enchanting heat. I couldn't help but put my mouth close to it. Xiaorou twisted her body uneasily.

"Ah...Brother, this feels so strange..."

My fingers opened the door, and what appeared before my eyes was the most beautiful scene in the world. It was the most delicate, mysterious and untouched part of the girl. I stretched out my tongue and licked it back and forth gently and slowly.

"ah………"

Suddenly Xiaorou screamed out loud, raised her hips up and twisted violently, her two smooth thighs tightly clamped my neck. I raised my head and looked forward. Xiaorou opened her lips slightly, gasping violently through her nostrils, and her white breasts trembled with the ups and downs of her chest, forming waves.

I couldn't bear it any longer, so I picked up Xiaorou tightly, let her wrap her legs around my waist, and walked towards the room. My cock, which was ready to poke Xiaorou's buttock groove with every step, made Xiaorou laugh out loud at the feeling, "Haha, it's so itchy!" Her small breasts shook with waves of laughter. I couldn't help but stretch out my mouth and hold half of her breast tightly, and my tongue swept wildly over the nipple that had already become engorged and hard.

"ah……"

Xiaorou's head was tilted back, and her soft black hair was swaying behind her.

(Ah... so comfortable, so great...)

After finally reaching the room, I put Xiaorou on the bed, took a step back, and carefully admired her flawless body like a statue. Xiaorou shyly turned her body to the side with her back to me, trying to escape my beast-like gaze.

"Xiao Rou..."

I sighed softly. Her skin was so crystal clear and her lines were so perfect. There was not a trace of extra fat on her body. That is a physique unique to young girls. I pounced on her like a hungry tiger, and pushed her legs apart with my knees. Her white and tender little honey bush was completely exposed in front of me. I immediately felt my heart and flesh trembling, and I leaned down like a madman.

"Xiao Rou..." I blew gently in her ear, about to break through her last line of defense.

“Ah! It hurts!”

I had just gone in a little bit when Xiaorou frowned and all the muscles tensed up. I quickly stopped to give her time to catch her breath. I kissed her brows, her earlobes, and her lips, and my hands slowly stroked her back and the inside of her thighs. After a while, Xiaorou slowly breathed a sigh of relief, and her whole body relaxed. She took the initiative to kiss me and said:

"It's okay, I can..."

I continued sucking her snake-like tongue and moved forward gently.

"Um……"

Xiaorou still couldn't help but hum, but she no longer stopped my actions. Finally, I entered Xiaorou's body. I could feel that the road ahead was small and tight, but full of warmth and wetness. The wrinkles gently scraped across my glans. After entering, I stopped for a while, on the one hand to let Xiaorou get used to this feeling, and on the other hand to feel the feeling of being tightly surrounded.

"I... I feel so full. I get it. I felt so empty just now, but now I feel so full. This feeling... is so good..."

Xiaorou ignored my reaction and kept murmuring to herself, so I started to move. I tried to make each move gentle and slow, fearing that if it was too fast, Xiaorou would not be able to bear it.

"Uh-huh……"

At first, Xiaorou kept her lips tightly closed, but gradually she began to hum again, so I speeded up and deepened my movements a little. Suddenly, Xiaorou took the initiative to hug my waist, opened her mouth but no sound came out, and her eyes that were originally looking at me affectionately began to become distracted and absent-minded. Then, Xiaorou began to squirm inside, her breathing became rapid and flustered, and my pleasure quickly climbed to the highest point with the force of expansion and contraction. Finally, I let out a long breath and lay prone on Xiaorou, continuing to feel her uncontrollable expansion and contraction. Xiaorou slowly closed her eyes and her breathing slowed down. I left her, kissed her gently, and caressed her breasts that rose and fell with her breathing. Gradually, we all sank into a deep dream...

4.

I opened the door of my house and the living room was filled with a weird atmosphere and an unusual smell in the air. Strange, why is the whole family here? I don't know when my three brothers and mother returned home, my uncle and aunt were there too. When I opened the door, everyone's eyes were cast towards me. I saw that those eyes were filled with anger, contempt, despair and disdain, like sharp swords trying to pierce my chest.

"What's going on?" I asked them puzzled.

"Mingwei!" Aunt stood up and walked to me: "How can you do this, Xiaorou is your sister, how could you do such a thing?" I looked at Xiaorou, she was wearing a bathrobe. She had been sitting at the stairs since I entered the door, with a half-smile on her face. At this time, she walked towards me, untied the belt of her bathrobe, and I was shocked to see that she was not wearing anything inside.

"Brother, I'm pregnant! Look, this is the fruit of our love!" I looked at where her hands were, oh my god! Xiaorou's belly swelled up, making her originally smooth vagina look like a small hill.

"This...I..." My tongue seemed to be stuck in a knot and I couldn't utter a word.

“What kind of world is this!” Auntie screamed, glaring at me and gritting her teeth. “You know Xiaorou is our sweetheart. We’ve asked you to take care of her since she was little, but we didn’t ask you to get her pregnant. You, you are a devil, a beast…”

"..." I was eager to explain something, but I could only shake my head in fear, looking at everyone in the room. My aunt kept crying and shouting, my mother just cried silently, and my father kept shaking his head and sighing, saying:

"What a sin, what a sin."

At this time, the three brothers surrounded me and questioned me: "Xiao Rou is our sister, why do you want to possess her alone? Why? If we have to rank her, you should be the fourth one!"

Xiaorou smiled and asked me what name I wanted to give the little life? I felt that this scene was too chaotic and ridiculous, so I turned around and fled to the living room, but I missed a step...

I sat up from the bed with a sudden sound, realizing that it was all a dream. I gasped violently and looked around the room. I was alone there. When I saw the messy sheets and a small pool of solidified blood on them, I suddenly remembered everything that happened last night. Thinking about the dream just now, my heart was suddenly filled with infinite regret and self-blame.

"Oh my god!? What did I do to Xiaorou? What should I do? What should I do?"

"Brother? Are you awake?" Xiaorou's voice sounded outside the door and I was startled.

"If you wake up, get up and have breakfast!"

I stayed in bed for a while, decided to face it all, and after thinking about what to say, I washed up, pushed the door open and went out. Xiaorou suddenly appeared beside me and kissed me on the cheek.

"Lazy boy, you slept so long!"

I looked at Xiaorou intently. She was wearing ordinary home clothes and an apron. Her long hair was tied into a ponytail. She looked clean and refreshed.

"What are you looking at!" Xiaorou pushed me and said, "Isn't it enough to look at it every day? Let's go! Let's have breakfast!"

She pushed me into the dining room, and I was stunned when I saw everything on the table: sesame seed cakes, fried dough sticks, fried dumplings, poached eggs, and a pot of century egg and lean meat porridge. Xiaorou pushed me down on the chair and made arrangements quickly.

"These are all the things you like to eat, right? The sesame seed cakes and fried dough sticks are bought, but the others are all made by me!"

"You..." I could hardly believe my ears "You can do this?"

Xiaorou said (the look you just found out today) "I knew you always thought of me as a little girl who only knows how to act like a spoiled brat, but I can do a lot more!"

Putting a bowl of hot porridge in front of me, Xiaorou slowly walked to sit opposite me. Seeing her walking in a strange way, I couldn't help but ask her: "What's wrong with you? Why are you walking in a strange way?"

Xiaorou's pale face flushed, even her ears turned red. She lowered her head and whispered, "I...I still feel pain there...but..."

Then he looked up at me with a happy smile on his face: "But you'll get used to it in the future, right?"

after? Oh my god! I looked at the wisps of white smoke rising from the bowl in front of me, struggling to think of how to start talking.

"Eat it quickly! It won't taste good if it gets cold!"

I picked up the bowl and took a bite. I really had no idea what the food was like. “Is it delicious? Is it too salty?”

"Looking at my expressionless face, Xiaorou asked with concern.

"It shouldn't be? I've tried it several times just now..." She muttered to herself, and took a bite of a bowl. "I think it's okay. If you think it's too salty, I'll put less salt next time!"

Oh my god! She's acting like a little wife treating her husband. How can I say anything? I really don't want to hurt her feelings.

"Brother? What are you thinking about?"

"Me? I was thinking about the company. What did you just say?"

"So annoying, not paying attention at all! I said I took a day off today to rest at home, can you also take a day off to accompany me?"

"Maybe not? I have a very important meeting today. Can I come back early?

“

"Hmm~~" Xiaorou bit her little finger and tilted her head to think for a while, "Okay! I have made up my mind. From today on, I will no longer be willful. You go to work obediently. What do you want to eat in the evening? I will prepare it."

Alas~! I'm in big trouble.

"Xiao Rou...I...I think...I have something to say to you..." I stuttered, trying to organize what I wanted to say.

"My parents and uncle won't know!" Xiaorou suddenly said solemnly, "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone. This is our little secret. As long as I can be like this every day, I will be satisfied and happy."

"But…………"

"Eat quickly! You're going to be late!" The smile on Xiaorou's face disappeared, and she ate her porridge in small mouthfuls. I could only keep shouting in my heart, "Xiaorou, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"

………“

I left the house as if I was avoiding the plague. Actually, I had no meetings today and I was still on vacation. All day, I wandered around the noisy streets like a ghost. I couldn't think. Whenever I thought of Xiaorou, my heart became tangled and flustered. I really didn't want to hurt her feelings, but if I didn't say it, it would only hurt her more. All day, I struggled with the contradiction, and even when it got dark and the streets were full of neon lights, I still couldn't make up my mind.

When I got home, the house was filled with the aroma of food and the sound of spatulas colliding came from the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and saw Xiaorou busy working in the kitchen, sweating. When she turned around and saw me, she was startled.

"You're so annoying! You came back without making a sound and scared me." She pretended to hit me with a spatula, and I quickly begged for mercy.

"Go wash your hands, it's time to eat!"

After dinner, we sat in the living room together watching TV. Xiaorou leaned on my shoulder. We were all uninterested in the plot on TV and were thinking about our own things.

"Brother, do you remember Guo Qingru?" Xiaorou broke the silence.

I thought about it and realized it was an unfamiliar name, so I shook my head.

"He was my elementary school classmate! Do you remember that one time you beat him up for me and his mother complained to you, causing you to be beaten by your uncle?"

I remembered that it was the only time in my life that I was beaten by my father. I went to the elementary school next to the school to pick up Xiaorou as usual after class, but I saw her surrounded by two or three little boys, crying helplessly. Those boys clapped their hands and teased her, saying "crybaby drink cold water..."

…"One of them actually reached out to lift Xiaorou’s skirt and said"Wow! White one! Can you take it off and give it to me as a souvenir?" Then he turned to his companion and said: "I heard that the hole in girls' private parts is for boys' penises!" Am I right? "He kept asking Xiaorou, pushing her into a corner and saying, "Can I try?" "I was so angry that I walked over to pull him away and punched him in the face with all my strength. He fell down holding his nose, and the other two scattered like birds and beasts. I walked over and kicked him twice before taking Xiaorou home.

Not long after, the boy's mother came to my house to blame me. She heard that I broke his nose. His father asked me why I hit him and I just said that he deserved to be beaten for bullying Xiaorou. His father asked me how he bullied Xiaorou, but I refused to say anything. His mother kept yelling that she must give her an explanation, otherwise she would report it to the school. My father first promised to pay for all the medical expenses, and then after making sure that I would not tell the reason, he gave her an explanation. I stayed in bed with the boy for three days.

"How could I forget?" I smiled and said, "So that brat's name is Guo Qingru?"

"Ha! You hurt him so badly and you don't even know his name?"

"Actually, I was too impulsive."

"No way! You did that because you saw me being bullied and wanted to protect me! From that time on, everyone in the class knew that I had a powerful brother, and no one dared to bully me anymore!"

Xiaorou said gently, "Since that time, my brother's shadow has always been in my heart... I once... I once swore that I would be good to my brother for the rest of my life, and I also hope that my brother can always be so good to me. I often watch TV series saying that to capture a man's heart you must first capture his stomach, so I learned from my mother to cook many dishes that my brother likes. My mother always asked me why I wanted to learn this, but I didn't dare to say..."

Alas~! I really don’t know whether to cry or laugh?

"Silly Xiaorou, I pinched her nose. I am your brother, so of course I will treat you well for the rest of my life!"

"But that's not enough. Xiaorou hopes... hopes..." Her voice gradually became smaller, like the buzz of a mosquito. "I really hope you can treat me as well as you did last night. Xiaorou feels so happy and satisfied..."

I slapped myself in my heart, it was all caused by alcohol.

In the following days, I could only go along with Xiaorou and be her secret husband. Sometimes when my aunt saw how enthusiastic she was about housework, she would smile and say, "That's good. Practice more, so that when you get married, your in-laws won't think you can't do housework." I could only smile bitterly. I was always worried about what the consequences would be if there were no safety measures that night, and one day I couldn't help but ask Xiaorou.

"Did your... that come?"

"What's that?" Xiaorou was confused by my question.

"That... good friend... that big one... Hey! Have you had your period yet?"

Xiaorou was startled, her face flushed, "Hate it, why are you asking me that?"

"I was...last time..."

"Don't be afraid, I'm normal."

I feel like a fool.

Often, when Xiaorou came over late at night, she would always arouse my desire intentionally or unintentionally. I knew clearly that if this continued, one day, the world of two people, and even the two families would be destroyed. But when Xiaorou kissed me gently, when she undressed one by one in front of my eyes, when I saw her increasingly mature and plump body, when my hands gently slid over her white jade skin, her youthful and firm breasts, her pink and tender valley, when I frantically entered and exited her body, my reason floated and sank in waves of lust, and finally drowned.

I felt like there was a devil inside me, watching me sink into depravity with cold eyes. At every peak of joy, I seemed to hear his sneer of contempt. Day after day I was in inner torment, waiting to collapse.

5.

"Richard, look outside!"

I was staring at a bunch of photos of beautiful women in swimsuits. "Okay! Stop looking. They won't jump out to find you even if you look at them! There's a real beauty out there, and she's got a companion. Go check it out!"

I had no interest in such jokes at all. I slowly walked to the door of the company and was stunned.

"Xiao Feng?!"

"Hi! Long time no see!" Xiao Feng wore a pair of sunglasses and held a chubby, doll-like little girl with fluffy curly hair in his arms. "Rongrong, be good and call me uncle."

The little girl shrank shyly in her mother's arms.

"How old are you?" I teased the child.

"When I was three, that day, I told you that she was the one in my belly."

It's been more than three years. Time has passed so quickly. I didn't even attend her wedding, and we never had any contact since then.

"Why did you think of coming to see me?"

"I just happened to be passing by and thought I'd say it's been a while since we last met. I wonder if you're still here?"

People coming and going in Baosi looked at us curiously, and I pulled Xiaofeng.

"Come on, I'll buy you a cup of coffee, are you free?"

After sitting down, I looked at Xiao Feng carefully, wanting to see how much she had changed over the years. Suddenly, I noticed that she had a bruise on the corner of her mouth and several band-aids on her hands. I think I know why she was wearing sunglasses.

"What's going on? These injuries?"

"Nothing!" She curled her lips. "I bumped into it by accident."

"It wouldn't be like this if you bumped into him accidentally. Did he hit you?"

Her nose twitched and she took a breath and said.

"I'm really embarrassed to let my old friend see me like this."

"We're more than just old friends," I corrected her.

“Sigh~~~~~~~~” She let out a long sigh, “Sometimes when I think back on it, I feel quite regretful.”

I couldn't respond, and the two of them stirred the coffee in their cups awkwardly.

"Mommy!" Rongrong called softly, bringing us back to reality.

"It's time to go home." She picked up the child, "I'm sorry, I asked you to treat me to a meal today, but you haven't moved yet, have you?"

I shook my head and watched her get into the taxi and drive away. I couldn't describe the feeling in my heart, so I went back to the company and continued to daydream.

6.

It was another night of struggle between the heart and the mind. Xiaorou asked me in confusion, panting slightly.

"Brother, why do you always wear two condoms?"

"This is called foolproof." I think this is the only conscience I have left? I am really afraid that the nightmare I had that night will become reality one day.

"Brother." Xiaorou said faintly, "I feel that you have always been unhappy. Is it because Xiaorou has not done well enough? Am I too dull? I have seen that kind of videotape. If you want to do that, I... I can do it too..."

"Silly girl." I pulled her nipple teasingly, "Stop imagining that!"

"But I always feel like you're afraid of something. Otherwise, why do you wear two condoms?"

"First, it's safer this way. Second, I'll be less sensitive this way, so it will last longer. Wouldn't that make you more comfortable?"

"How annoying. You talk as if I'm a pervert." Xiaorou pinched me below, got up and got dressed. "I'm going back to bed. Recently my mom always complains that I run here all day and don't study." After putting on her clothes, Xiaorou gave me a passionate kiss. "Think of me." As if we were going to say goodbye forever, Xiaorou walked away, looking back every three steps.

I didn't want to get up and was staring at the ceiling in a daze. At this moment, the phone rang. Oh! It’s the director again. An important client will come to the meeting tomorrow, and he will definitely talk for a long time. I deliberately let it ring for a long time before slowly picking up the microphone.

"Mingwei?" Oh my god, it's Xiaofeng.

"Yes, I am, Xiao Feng? What's wrong?"

"Wu..." Xiao Feng started to cry, "He...he hit me again."

"What's going on?"

"He, he had an affair and brought that woman home today. I argued with him and he beat me..."

"Where are you now?"

"I ran away and am now at the entrance of the community. Mingwei, are you free now? I don't have any money and I don't know where to go."

"Okay, I'll be there right away, wait for me."

After I settled Xiaofeng in the hotel, it was already midnight. Thinking about tomorrow's affairs, I stood up and said goodbye to Xiaofeng.

"…" Xiao Feng grabbed the corner of my clothes and said, "Mingwei, can you stay with me for a while?"

I hesitated for a moment, then sat down, and Xiao Feng leaned towards me.

"Can you hug me?" I hesitated for a moment, then reached out to hold her in my arms. She said faintly, "You always hugged me like this before."

I stroked her hair, and she had a strange scent on her body. "Have you never thought of taking it a step further before?"

"I………"

"Your heartbeat has gotten faster, just like before."

"I really want to, but I'm afraid you'll be angry."

"Silly boy, you worry too much. No wonder you can't get married yet. So... do you want to get married now?"

I answered with silence. Xiao Feng raised her head and looked at me tenderly. I looked at her carefully. She had changed a little. Her face, which was a little thin before, now had the charm of a mature young woman.

"Come on, Mingwei, let's go back to the past tonight."

She took my hand and placed it on her chest. The rapid heartbeat rhythm was transmitted to my palm. I lowered my head to kiss her. Her soft and fragrant tongue actively stretched out to search for mine. I increased the strength of my palm.

"Hmm~"

She snorted, stepped off me and stood up.

"Remember when the boys all called me nanny?" I nodded: "Before, you only dared to touch them through clothes, but now, you can have them."

Xiao Feng took off her top and reached out to unhook her bra. A pair of snow-white, plump breasts jumped out in front of my eyes, hanging on her chest like two grapefruits, with her nipples slightly tilted upwards. Xiao Feng held them in her hands, like weighing them, and waves of them began to surge before my eyes.

"They've been a little saggy since I gave birth to Rongrong. It's a pity that you can't see how firm they were before."

She proudly puffed out her chest towards me, as if in protest. Her breasts were shaking and bouncing. Was it because she had breastfed before? Her areola and nipples are darker in color, and her nipples are also larger. They are not as fresh and pink as Xiaorou's, but they have a more mature charm. At this moment, they are swaying in front of my eyes as if calling me: "Come on, take me!"

I leaned over and buried my face in Xiao Feng's deep cleavage, greedily breathing in the sweet scent of her breasts. My hands firmly grasped the pair of huge breasts that were famous both inside and outside the department at the time, and then we both fell on the bed.

My hands drew circles on her breasts over and over again, gently flicking her nipples.

"Ah!" She shook a little, and her nipples immediately became hard. I pinched them with my thumb and index finger and rubbed them gently. Xiao Feng reached out and grabbed my crotch.

"Ah! So restless." Xiao Feng laughed: "I used to want to see what it looks like."

"You'd think about it, too?"

"Don't you know that young girls can also fall in love?" How could I not know? Xiaorou is an example.

"Then you can take a good look at it now."

Xiao Feng unzipped her pants without saying a word, took out my already erect cock, and kept rubbing it.

"How is it? Are you satisfied?" I remembered that it took Xiaorou three whole days to walk normally again, and she was a little conceited about her size.

"You don't have common sense! It doesn't have to be big to make a woman feel comfortable. Women care about the situation and the atmosphere." Xiao Feng swallowed, "But I still like something bigger."

It helped me take off my clothes. I turned over and pressed her down, kissing her hard. She was such a woman that I couldn't control her at all. I couldn't even hold her breasts. My lips slid to her chest and licked her two nipples in turn.

"Ah~~" Xiaorou moaned: "You can, you can lick it together."

"Together?" I immediately came over and squeezed her breasts in the middle. Her nipples were actually close to each other. I held both nipples in my mouth and sucked hard.

"Ah, so comfortable." Xiao Feng panted. The color of her areola and nipples became darker due to excitement and congestion. I came to Xiao Feng's lower body and took off her pants. Through her silk panties, I could clearly see her thick and black pubic hair. I licked her through her panties, and Xiao Feng rubbed her nipples.

"Um∼∼∼ah∼∼∼take...take off...your panties." I took off her panties. The crystal clear love juice had already overflowed. I parted the grass, found the source of this living water, and licked it gently.

"Ah~~~~~" She screamed, her whole body shaking, her smooth and delicate legs bending back and forth, rubbing my cock, I just felt the pleasure rising continuously, and suddenly she said: "Mingwei, hurry up, I can't stand it anymore."

I stood up and faced her, and she spread her legs and exposed her honeypot to my attack. She clamped her legs around my waist and pressed me forward, so I slid in.

"Ah~ Mingwei, you're so great, it feels so good~" To be honest, Xiaofeng is not as tight as Xiaorou, but her reaction makes me more excited. I was so excited that I didn't care about her feelings and just kept thrusting.

"Hmm∼ah∼" Her voice became louder and louder, and her breathing became more and more rapid. Within a few minutes, I ejaculated inside her.

After lying down for a while, I got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower, the door opened with a creak, and Xiao Feng stepped into the bathtub naked, hugged me from behind, with her two hot balls pressed against my back. I turned her around and hugged her from behind, letting the strong water column from the shower head wet her body. Xiao Feng's body was covered with water droplets, which looked crystal clear under the light. I kissed her earlobes and her snow-white neck, and my hands lovingly rubbed her breasts.

“Ah~~”

Xiao Feng let out a long breath.

"It's so comfortable, you know? I haven't felt this way for a long time... Ever since she started keeping a woman outside, I almost forgot this feeling."

Xiao Feng twisted her body restlessly under my caress, and her plump, white buttocks kept rubbing against my cock.

"Mingwei."

Xiao Feng turned around and breathed into my ear.

"I...I want to do it again, can I?"

I have done it twice tonight, and I am really exhausted. I glanced at the watch when I came in just now, and it was almost three o'clock. I was thinking about the meeting in the morning. Xiao Feng saw that I was hesitating, so she squatted down, held my cock, licked it gently with her tongue, and then took it into her mouth and sucked hard. I felt a tingling sensation in my lower body, and the blood in my body gradually gathered in my crotch. After a while, I had an erection. Xiao Feng raised her head and said to me seductively, "Look, it's nodding and saying yes!" My cock was shaking up and down with the intense pleasure. Xiao Feng spread the bath towel on the ground and motioned for me to lie down. She straddled me and bent down to lick my ears.

"You don't need to move, I'll make you very comfortable."

As she spoke, her lips and tongue slowly and gently stroked every inch of my body from my forehead, and then her nipples slid from the soles of her feet all the way to my front. I stuck out my tongue to lick it, but Xiao Feng shook her huge breasts left and right, teasing me. Then she squatted down facing my face, and I sucked and licked her mysterious triangle area while she rubbed her labia against my nose tip. After a while, I smelled a faint fishy odor. As she became more and more excited, she sat heavier and heavier, and finally pressed down on me with almost all her strength. I felt difficulty breathing, and she left me after I slapped her buttocks hard. I wiped the love juice around my nose and lips with my hand and complained.

"You want to suffocate me?"

Xiao Feng whispered in my ear.

"If you die under the influence of a slutty cunt, you will still be a romantic ghost, right?"

I could hardly believe my ears. How could the literary girl who always spoke of herself as a gentleman and a gentleman say such obscene words? Xiao Feng didn't give me time to think. She smeared soap all over her body and rubbed her body against mine. I could feel her hardened nipples and hairy lower body sliding on my body. Then she came to my crotch, held her plump breasts and clamped my cock, stroking it up and down. My cock, which was not short, was almost submerged in her breasts. I could only see the glans appearing in her cleavage as she stroked it. Her vagina was rubbing against my knees, and I lifted my knees and pushed her back harder.

“Ah~~”

Her breathing became heavier and heavier, and she couldn't help but hum.

“I can’t stand it anymore.”

Xiao Feng quickly straddled me, grabbed my cock, aimed it at her pussy, and sat down on it, shaking it up and down and left and right almost crazily.

“Ah…ah…”

Her breasts were shaking violently with her movements, and I really doubted whether she would throw me off her body, so I held that pair of restless breasts with my hands and rubbed her nipples gently, which seemed to make her more excited, and her movements became more and more wild. After a while, she finally stopped moving and lay on me, gasping violently. I felt her body begin to contract wildly and regularly, and reached out to stroke her smooth back, Xiao Feng suddenly said.

"Why are you still hard? Come, look at me!"

As she said that, she grabbed my cock and put it in her mouth and started sucking and licking it. After a while, I felt a numbness in my lower body. I wanted to pull it out, but Xiao Feng held me tightly and stroked it more vigorously. Finally, I entered her mouth like a thousand troops galloping...

7.

In the following days, Xiao Feng often came to see me, and after telling me about her unhappy marriage, we had a big fight in bed. Xiao Feng's sexual demands seemed to be getting stronger and stronger. Sometimes I even suspected that she had a tendency to be abused. Several times, she even punched me so hard that I saw stars in order to provoke my anger. Maybe she subconsciously wanted to avenge her betrayal? I responded to her desire enthusiastically, leaving traces of intense sex on her snow-white body.

I wanted to use this to divert my guilt towards Xiaorou, but in the end, I couldn't escape it. Xiaorou sensed my evasive attitude and finally couldn't help but ask me.

"Brother, do you have a girlfriend?"

"No! Why do you ask that?"

"I feel like you've changed recently. You don't like talking to me anymore and you often come home very late."

"I've been busy lately!"

"You're lying. You were very busy before! Otherwise, let me ask you, what kind of underwear did I wear when we had sex?"

"this……"

I really forgot.

"At that time? You weren't wearing any underwear!"

"It's not funny at all. I knew you weren't paying attention to me. You even said that I looked more mature and sexy when I wore that. You forgot that yourself."

"Okay! I apologize to you. Next time I will take notes and write down the colors and styles of the underwear you wear every day, okay? My little panty master."

I reached out to comfort her, but she broke free from my arms.

"Brother, promise me that you won't make me sad, okay?"

After saying that, he left without looking back. I fell on the bed, feeling so tired, but not sleepy at all. Everything that happened in the past few days flashed before my eyes like a kaleidoscope. I thought of Xiaorou's sometimes innocent and affectionate face, Xiaofeng's sad face when she talked about her unhappy marriage, and the relationship between me and them. I was shocked, how could I have ended up like this?

What hurts me the most is Xiaorou. On the one hand, I was suffering from the torture of sin, but on the other hand, I had physical relations with her without any resistance. I couldn't help but ask myself, do I really love Xiaorou? Or was he simply indulging in her youthful body that was like a newly blossoming bud, and indulging in the soul-stirring feeling of ejaculating wildly into her body? I can't bear to reject her feelings. Am I loving her or hurting her? I heard a voice in my heart telling me that I couldn't go on like this. It was better to hurt her now than to destroy her. I had to make a break for it immediately, otherwise I would spend my whole life in regret.

The next day, I went home early. There was a faint candlelight coming from the kitchen. When Xiaorou saw me, her face was full of smiles.

"Brother, I'm sorry. I was so unreasonable last night, so I prepared a romantic candlelight dinner today to make amends to you. There will also be a special gift after dinner!"

Xiaorou wore the little dress she wore to last year's Christmas ball and had light makeup on her face. I took a deep breath.

"Xiao Rou, come, sit down, I have something to tell you."

"Brother, what happened? You look so ugly."

"Xiao Rou, I have been thinking about this for a long time, but I don't know how to start the conversation. I know that if I tell you, it will definitely hurt your feelings. I really don't want to do this, but I can't help but say it..."

“Brother, you…”

Xiaorou looked at me anxiously.

"Don't interrupt me, Xiaorou, let me finish. We can't go on like this. This is not right. We are siblings and blood relatives. Neither morality nor our hearts allow us to do this. I'm sorry that I have been hesitant in my attitude, and I'm even more sorry for violating your body, Xiaorou. I'm really sorry for you. I don't know what to do to make up for the harm I have done to you..."

"Brother, don't leave me."

There was a layer of tears in Xiaorou's eyes. When I saw that thin layer of tears gradually condensed into tears rolling out of her eye sockets, I almost retreated.

"Xiao Rou, are you listening to me?"

"I don't want to listen." Xiaorou covered her ears and kept shaking her head.

"Xiao Rou, calm down. Think about it. This will only ruin your future. You will eventually get married."

"I don't want to listen, I don't want to think, and I don't want to get married. I just want the present."

"Xiao Rou, don't be like this."

"You don't love me at all, right? Why did you lie to me? Why were you so nice to me? Why did you pamper me, love me, and say so many nice things to me? And why... why did you want to sleep with me... with me?"

"My dear little Rou, I love you, really, since we were little, I swear, but it's different..."

"Stop talking."

Xiaorou suddenly raised her head, stared at me with wide eyes, and said word by word through gritted teeth:

"Do you still think of me as a child? I will be a junior next year. Do you think I am still the crying and spoiled little girl who never grows up? Do you know how disgusting it is for me to pretend to be innocent and cute at this age? But I am willing to do this, because in this way you will love and pamper me. I like the feeling of being pampered and loved by you, do you know? Do you think I don’t know that we are brother and sister, and I can’t fall in love with you, have sex with you, and stay with you for the rest of my life? But I just can’t do it! Why do you have to say it, why do you want to ruin my beautiful dream of the past few years? Since you don’t love me, why do you treat me so well? If you hadn’t helped me out that year, I wouldn’t have been raped! You let me fall in love with you, but you don’t let me love you. How can you be so cruel? It’s all your fault. I hate you, and I never want to see you again."

After Xiaorou finished speaking, she turned around and ran out. When she reached the door, she tripped over her skirt and fell out. I rushed over to help her up, but she shook my hand off and ran back home crying. I chased her in.

"Xiao Rou..."

When I entered her living room, I saw Xiaorou holding up her skirt, and a pair of silver high heels under her snow-white calves disappeared around the corner of the stairs. My uncle stuck his head out of the newspaper and asked.

"What's wrong?"

My aunt was concentrating on the plot of the TV series without even raising her head.

"Are you fighting again? Xiaorou is a willful child. Your uncle and I spoiled her. As her brother, you should be more tolerant of her and don't argue with her."

I retreated timidly and returned to the kitchen, where I slumped in the chair. The candlelight on the table was still swaying lightly. I felt a piercing pain. I blew out the candle and took out a bottle of wine from the cupboard, uncorked it and desperately poured it down my throat. After drinking most of the bottle, I felt a burning sensation in my stomach. I stumbled into the bathroom and vomited into the toilet.

I haven't seen Xiaorou for more than ten days. She seems to deliberately avoid the time when I go in and out, and I can't muster up the courage to see her. It's better this way. I really don't know how to face her again, but the depression in my heart is increasing day by day. Alcohol can no longer dilute my hatred for myself, so I found Xiaofeng to come out.

As soon as Xiao Feng entered the hotel room and closed the door, I excitedly threw her onto the bed and roughly took off her clothes.

"Mingwei, have you been drinking?"

I ignored her, pulled off her panties, and entered her body with great force.

"Mingwei, wait, I haven't..."

Xiao Feng anxiously tried to block my attack, but I held her down tightly.

"Mingwei, please, I'm still dry, go slower, don't be so hard, it hurts!"

I couldn't hear clearly what Xiao Feng was saying. I had fallen into a crazy world. At this moment, I just wanted to vent all the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time. When I was about to reach the peak, Xiao Feng's face, which was distorted by pain, gradually turned into the heartbroken expression when Xiao Rou left in despair that night. I screamed in daze.

"Xiao Rou......"

"Xiaorou?"

Xiao Feng was stunned for a moment, then quickly left my body and sat up as if burned by fire. My still hard cock popped out of her body, and a stream of white liquid drew a funny arc in the air and flowed straight onto the sheets between us.

"Xiao Rou? You called your cousin's name when we were having sex? You...you slept with her? You fucked your sister?"

When Xiao Feng saw me kneeling on the bed in a daze, she understood everything immediately.

"You fucked your sister, you actually fucked your sister, you...you...shameless beast!

“

A look of anger appeared on Xiao Feng's face. She waved her hand and gave me a crisp slap, then stood up and put on the underwear that I had almost torn to pieces.

"Hahaha……"

I burst into laughter, and Xiao Feng stopped and looked at me in confusion.

"why are you laughing?"

"Yes, I am a shameless beast. I fucked my sister."

I said loudly.

"What about you? Who are you? You have a husband and children, yet you come to me and ask me to fuck you. Who are you?"

"I…"

I pushed myself in front of her and fought back ruthlessly.

"You big pervert, you asked me to hit you, pinch you, and bite you. Have the bruises on your breasts healed? You are just a bitch who only knows how to make love. What do you know? I don't want to be your sex machine anymore. Goodbye!"

After saying that, I put on my clothes as quickly as I could in my life, walked out of the room, and entered the elevator. I could vaguely hear Xiao Feng's shrill cries in the room.

"Mingwei, don't leave me."

8.

I huddled woodenly on a bench in the park. The faint morning light shone through the sparse leaves around me. The chirping of birds seemed to be telling of the beauty of the world. People coming and going early to exercise cast curious and wary eyes at me, but these had nothing to do with me. My head was in a mess, but I didn't know what I was thinking. Various images were arranged in a disorderly manner in my mind. Suddenly, I saw Xiaorou concentrating on cooking in the kitchen, and suddenly I was pulled back to the time when Xiaorou was just born and I looked at the crying, wrinkled little thing in the baby's room through the glass window with excitement and curiosity. Suddenly, I saw Xiaorou's first day of school again, and then Xiaorou turned into Xiaofeng. We walked hand in hand on the way home from school. I turned around and said to her viciously, "Goodbye, you bitch." Suddenly, Xiaorou said sadly that she didn't want to see me again, but Xiaofeng pulled my clothes and asked me not to leave her.

On that July morning, I felt my whole body shaking. If this continued, I would go crazy, so I decided to leave.

There was a vacancy in the Hong Kong branch and no one had been willing to go for a while, so I volunteered and my boss agreed. After taking care of some trivial matters, I hurriedly packed my bags and left Taiwan with infinite regret. I didn't tell anyone, but late at night before I left, I came to Xiaorou's door and stuffed a letter into her.

Xiaorou:

Tonight, I have mixed feelings. I don't know how to express the regret and apology in my heart. You said that you don't want to see me again, so I left, left Taiwan, and went far away. This is good for you and me. I really don't know how to face you again.

Don't be sad, don't cry. Every drop of your tears will gather into an ocean and drown me in every uneasy dream of mine in the future. I cannot ask for your forgiveness for hurting you, because I will never, ever forgive myself. I hope that my departure can take away all the pain and leave you a new space. I think distance and time will be good healers. In the near future, I hope you can walk out of this shadow and embrace your young and beautiful future wholeheartedly. One day, you will meet a boy who loves you more and you will spend every sweet day in the future with him. You will gradually forget me, my image, everything about me, will eventually become a vague and hazy impression in the deepest part of your heart. In the night when you sleep peacefully, there will no longer be any remaining memory of me, your irresponsible bastard brother.

I am happy to see this result.

我一直一直希望你能幸福而美好的过这一生，一如我第一眼见到你时对自己许下的承诺，但我已无法实现了，今后，我再也不能跟在你身边疼你，呵护你，痛揍那些欺负你的坏蛋，但我知道，会有一个人，他会乐意的接续我的任务。 But before the prince appears, you have to be brave and strong. As you said, you will be big girls in your junior year next year!

I have to go, with great reluctance. My mood is conflicted and my steps are hesitant, but I don’t want to say goodbye. I will pray for you every day to come!

elder brother

After arriving in Hong Kong, I only informed my father in mainland China of the news. I deliberately avoided anything related to Taiwan. In the company, I was a person without a past. I never mentioned anything about the past outside of work to anyone.

But as if cursed, all kinds of scenes from the past followed me like a ghost, emerging like a ghost in every silent night and after every laugh of mine.

Later, I had an opportunity and decided to immigrate to England. I thought the farther the distance, the fainter my memory would be. But the opposite happened. The doctor warned me that if I continued drinking, my brain nerves would be taken over by alcohol and I would become an idiot. My neighbors called me a weird Oriental. I avoided every call from home, so I learned from the answering machine that Xiaorou was in love, got married, and was pregnant with a child. I felt a little comforted, but also a little regretful. How nice it would be if Xiaorou told me these in person. But I have never heard her sweet and coquettish voice again since the night Xiaorou rushed out of my house. My father asked me angrily on the answering machine if I planned to die in a foreign country. I drank the last drop of wine in the glass and answered myself - maybe?

9.

Through the glass window, I can see the lights of the distant city shrouded in a thin layer of mist. Yes, I remembered that it was the season when the spring rain was falling all day long in this city, and the stewardess was kindly reminding all the passengers to fasten their seat belts one by one. Suddenly, my thoughts flew far away again.

"Sir, the plane is about to land, please fasten your seat belts."

The stewardess gave me a sweet smile and brought me back to reality in a soft voice. The plane made a big turn in the air and landed smoothly on the wide and long runway, slowly sliding towards the apron. The lights of the airport rendered circles of gorgeous colors in the mist. I suddenly became uneasy in my heart, wishing the captain would turn the plane around and take off again, but this was impossible. I walked out of the plane door with the crowd in a daze. A gust of strong wind unique to the airport mixed with rain made me stagger. I steadied myself and looked around.

ah! Taiwan, I am finally back. After ten years, I once again set foot on this land where my memories are filled with pain, regret and reluctance.

Last week, my eldest brother called me and told me that my uncle was hit by a tow truck on his way home from a social event a few days ago and became a vegetable.

"I don't know what's wrong with you that you don't want to go back to Taiwan, but this time, at least come back and see me. Xiaorou's eyes are almost blind from crying!"

So I packed my luggage hastily and boarded the airbus to my hometown.

I took a taxi to the hospital in the dark. There were not many vehicles on the highway late at night. The driver pursed his lips and drove attentively. The street lights and tree shadows flew quickly behind him. The only sounds in the world were the monotonous sounds of tires sliding across the wet road and wipers sweeping back and forth across the windshield. I soon fell into deep thought again.

Over the past ten years, it seems that the purpose of my living is to endure the torture of the past. When I walk on the noisy streets, when I lie alone on the cold bed, when I am awake, when I dream, the past that I don’t want to think about is always circling in my mind, never ending.

I was awakened by the sound of brakes. I arrived at the hospital. I deliberately chose to come late at night, perhaps so that I could avoid many questions and a certain person? I thought so. I walked hesitantly and slowly towards the ward, wondering who I would meet, what questions they would ask and how I would answer them. I breathed a sigh of relief when I opened the door. Only my aunt was in the room, dozing on the bed. I closed the door gently, but still woke her up.

She raised her head and looked at me in confusion with her puffy eyes narrowed.

"Aunt, it's Mingwei! I'm back!"

"Mingwei? Why are you here now? Have you gone home yet?"

"No, I came here directly after I got off the plane. I came to see my uncle first."

"Ah! What are you looking at? It's just like this."

Aunt said helplessly, slowly approaching uncle's ear.

"Jiafu, Mingwei is back to see you! Do you still remember Mingwei? Xiaowei! The Xiaowei who used to fight with others for Xiaorou when they were little! Did you hear that?"

I also moved forward.

"Uncle, it's Xiaowei! I'm back, you have to get better soon!"

My uncle's index finger suddenly twitched a few times. I looked at my aunt in surprise, but she said expressionlessly.

"The doctor said it was a simple reflex action and it doesn't mean anything. Sometimes his whole body would twitch non-stop. Alas! Seeing him living in such pain, it would be better for him to die earlier and avoid suffering from this torture."

My aunt looked at me steadily.

"How did you become so thin? You don't even know how to take good care of yourself when you're out there! You! You've been gone for ten years without a word. Even though your three brothers have immigrated abroad, they at least come back once or twice a year, but you're nothing like that? Every time your mother comes back and talks about you, she always cries. Are you married?"

I shook my head.

"What's wrong with you? I really don't understand you young people. I remember you had a fight with Xiaorou before you left. I don't know if that's why you left. When I asked Xiaorou, she refused to tell me. She just said she was sorry for you. Oh! It's just a fight between kids. What's the big deal? Is it worth it?"

I didn't say anything and asked hesitantly.

"Xiao...Xiaorou, are you okay?"

"Alas! After you left, she didn't talk to us for a long time and was often in a bad mood. After a while, she got better. Later, she graduated, fell in love, got married, and had a cute baby. He is a replica of her when she was a child. If you come earlier, you can see it. I sent her back to rest and come back tomorrow morning."

I think I have got what I wanted to know. My aunt kept talking about Xiaorou's life after marriage. It sounded like it was a happy family with a loving couple and a cute and well-behaved daughter. I felt comforted but also a little disappointed. As it gradually became brighter outside the window, I stood up and said.

"I should go back now."

"Hey! You haven't been back for so long, it's time to go back and see your parents!"

"I am going back to London."

"What?!"

My aunt stood up suddenly.

"You just came back and you're leaving again?"

"I have some important things to deal with over there. I'll be back soon after I'm done. I have a flight early in the morning, so I should leave now."

My aunt didn't try to keep me, so I hailed a taxi and rushed to the airport. The sky seemed especially clear after the rain, although it was still cloudy. I rolled down the window and let the fresh air blow on my tired face.

I didn't want to catch a flight, as my ticket was for the evening. I just wanted to escape from what was about to happen. Although I had anticipated all kinds of possible scenarios before I came back, in the end, I still ran away. It was pouring rain outside. I paced in the hall for a few laps and felt so tired that I took a nap in the chair.

Soon I fell into a deep dream again.

"Mingwei? Mingwei?"

Someone called me, and I slowly opened my eyes. In front of me was a young woman with a round face and a pair of big, watery eyes that were clear and bright. Her beautiful face was made even more delicate by her bun. I almost jumped out of my seat.

“Xiao, Xiaorou!!”

"Brother! It's you!"

Xiaorou smiled.

"Mom told me that you came back last night and left early in the morning, so I wanted to rush over to try my luck. As expected, I was right. You didn't have any flight to catch. You were just trying to escape again!"

10.

Xiaorou stood up and picked up the baby beside her. I looked outside and the rain had stopped.

“The rain has stopped.”

I spoke ramblingly, trying to dilute the embarrassment in my heart. Such a scene was beyond my expectations.

"Yeah! I don't know why this year? It rained so much."

I reached out to take the doll, and walked out side by side with Xiaorou. The doll put its face softly on my shoulder. No one spoke along the way. I tried hard to sort out the confusion in my mind, while Xiaorou lowered her head, not knowing what she was thinking. When we walked to a corner of the airport building, we both spoke at the same time.

"you……"

This seemed to be a common occurrence in the past, and both of them started laughing, I said.

"You go first."

"No way, I've always been the one to speak first since we were young, this time it's your turn!"

"I just wanted to ask, are you doing well?"

"Ha! I wanted to ask that too, but I don't think I need to ask. Look at you, you're so thin. Look, your hair is all white! You don't take good care of yourself."

Xiaorou gently stroked my temples, and I had the urge to reach out and hold her.

"What about you?"

"I'm fine! Mom told you that I got married and gave birth to this little one."

Xiaorou reached out and pinched her daughter's nose. The little girl giggled and hid in my arms.

"He...he was very good to me, doting on me and taking care of me, just like...just like you used to be."

"Xiaorou."

I finally couldn't help but hold her hand, it was still so soft.

"I'm sorry."

"What is there to be sorry about? It's not your fault. It's because I was too willful that you are suffering. Brother, I should be the one to say sorry."

Xiaorou's eyes were filled with tears again.

"Xiao Rou, don't say that."

"Oh! Sometimes I think it's fate that plays tricks on me."

Perhaps the child could sense my inner excitement, he twisted uncomfortably in my arms, and Xiaorou took him over.

"I forgot. Come and call me uncle. Do you know her name?"

"uncle."

The childish voice was so sweet and tender, it reminded me of the first time Xiaorou spoke of her brother when she was a child.

"Good boy, what's your name?"

"My name is Nian Wei."

I looked at Xiaorou in surprise and she lowered her head.

"I thought, I thought you would never come back to Taiwan in this lifetime, brother. Sometimes I hate you, I hate you for being so selfish, leaving without a word, leaving me with so many things to say to you, you were all alone in your sorrow, not even giving me a chance to share my sorrow."

I don't know where a piece of cotton wool floated in from. I reached out and held it tightly in my hand. Xiaorou said meaningfully.

"Brother, let it go! Why are you holding on to it so tightly? We all have a long future to live, don't we?"

A sharp sound of an airplane crossed the sky, and Xiaorou's soft voice came over.

"Brother, promise me that no matter whether you come back or not, you must take good care of yourself and live a good life, okay?"

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