Friendship deteriorated due to loneliness (adult novel adapted from anime)

Loneliness is a sharp blade that always appears late at night and leaves a long mark on my heart.

I have to bleed while looking for ways to stop it from hurting me.

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Since breaking up with my boyfriend, I have to do many things independently.

When I encountered a spider, I killed it with my trembling hands.

When the light bulb broke, he stood on a chair to change it; when he accidentally cut his hand, he bandaged it himself.

If there is a problem with your computer, go online and google to find out the cause of the problem yourself.

In the past, my boyfriend was responsible for helping me take care of these things that I was not very good at.

Oh, yes, he has become my ex-boyfriend now.

As I was holding the network cables and figuring out how to install the router to share the Internet with me,

The cell phone rang.

"Yueyue~There's a party on Thursday!" Do you want to come? 』

The person who called was my good brother, Fu. I've been in a bad mood lately and always go to his house with several bottles of beer. He also knows

He knew I needed someone to party with me, so every time I opened the door of his house, there would always be his friends from the master's class who would drink with us.

There's no way, I can't stand the loneliness at night.

Those memories came flooding back to my mind and choked me in my throat. I wanted to find someone to talk to, but I didn't know how to start.

So I can only be depressed and depressed until I feel tired, but I can't find anyone to talk to about my loneliness.

Gradually, I was swallowed up by this loneliness.

I want to find a way out so that it won't bother me anymore.

"Thursday? Which one?" I asked.

"Babe, drink as much as you want. Drink your favorite wine." This time it’s Qianqian’s graduation party. You’re graduating too, why not come along? 』

"Yeah~ Let me think about it."

"What the hell!" Anyway, you have nothing to do in the middle of the night and you can't just sit there and think about random things. Why don't you come out and play with us so that you won't be depressed?

! 』

"Thank you! You really understand me." I rolled my eyes.

"Ashu will also be going, and so will our junior schoolmate Tingting. You have to take care of Tingting. She's only a freshman, so take her to see the world!" 』

"Please, I bet you that I will be the first to fall down in this state!"

"Everyone knows that you like to drink when you are in a bad mood! Why do you care so much? You've been drinking so much lately. One day won't make a difference, okay?

』

"Okay, okay! I'll go, I'll go. Then do you want to come to my house and help me check the Internet?"

"It's the A-League!" "After Fu said this, the phone started beeping.

"Kill the kid..." I held the phone, feeling cheated.

At seven o'clock, I put on foundation and started to dress myself up.

Just like Fu said, I really didn't have anything to do at night. At most, I would open Facebook and scroll through the photos I took with my ex-boyfriend.

Drink, cry, and sleep when you are tired of crying.

So why should I lock myself in the room, do a bunch of meaningless things, and go to class the next day with red and swollen eyes?

I put on a little dress that I hadn't worn for a long time and high heels and walked towards the meeting place.

"Depend on! Who is this? "Ashu screamed as soon as he saw me.

"What nonsense! Just because you see me like this doesn't mean I can't dress up, okay?!"

"No!" You usually have your hair messy and wear glasses in class, there's no way you know how to put on makeup! 』

"You idiot, why did you dress up to attract men when you already had a boyfriend?" I rolled my eyes at him.

"Senior Sister Yueyue is so hot!" ! Tingting stared at me with her big, bright eyes, looking innocent.

.

"Hey Yueyue, come here." "Ashu pulled me aside.

"Tingting, I want it tonight, help me!" 』

"Fuck~ Stop it! I'm only a freshman and I'm so pure!"

"No!" You want to be weird? I just want her to be my dance partner! 』

"Why didn't you tell me earlier, Bei Qi, come on!"

After biting his ear, Fu walked towards us.

"I'll help, too." 'He said.

"I'm dumbfounded! Ah Shu, what's wrong with you!" Lian Fu knew... I was speechless.

"We've been brothers for many years, of course he knows!" "Ashu replied to me confidently.

Fu looked at me.

"Hey, I've never seen you like this before. I'm not used to it."

"I know! Ah Shu just said it!" I replied to him impatiently.

As soon as you enter the venue, deafening music starts playing.

After the public relations officer took us to the private room, Qianqian quickly changed the wine and dice cups.

"Come on, let's have a drink first. How about this, girls drink cocktails and boys drink shots!" 』

Knowing that Fu was not very good at drinking, I picked up a shot and gave him the regular cocktail.

"Oh my~ Yueyue is so awesome~ She's so excited right from the start!" "Qianqian handed me the dice cup.

"Come and compare sizes?" You choose! 』

"Small!"

After about four or five rounds, I had already drunk three shots and Fu had finished his cocktail.

At this time, Fu leaned close to my ear.

"Will you be my dance partner tonight?" 'He said.

"Hmm~" Anyway, I don't have anyone else to choose. Qianqian has already brought his girlfriend, and I don't know the others well.

The time was almost up and the crowd slowly gathered in the center of the dance floor.

Fu took my hand and led me to the dance floor.

Tingting and Ashu followed behind, and I saw Tingting's face full of curiosity.

We started to sway our hips and the air was filled with the smell of perfume.

The music was accompanied by a heavy bass effect, the DJ sang rap to create a good atmosphere, and the air around them gradually became warmer.

Fu turned me around and put his arm around my waist.

After the first round, everyone was tired and went back to the box to continue playing dice.

We drank several more shots and some tequila boom. I felt that the assistant was not doing well. I patted his back while he drank.

Let him relax.

I didn't expect Fu to suddenly stand up and pull me towards the dance floor, which scared me.

This time we were not followed by our friends.

Fu pulled me to the corner and asked me to dance. Although I didn't quite understand what he meant, I still followed his lead.

As he was dancing, he suddenly held my face with his hands.

"..."

Before my eyes, his lips dropped.

Under the influence of alcohol, I also gave it my all.

Kiss him freely and smell his scent.

His kiss was gentle, without any aggressiveness, and I kissed him back slowly.

Suddenly he pressed me against the wall and his hands were moving all over my body.

"Hmm."

I made a sound, not expecting him to touch me.

He gently touched my upper lip, held it in his mouth and then let it go, then blocked my mouth, and slowly put his tongue into my mouth,

Tongues entwined.

I was a little surprised at how good he was at kissing. After all, we were good friends before, and I never thought we would have such a relationship.

An act beyond friendship.

Fu's hand began to move down to my private parts, and I had already flooded under his kissing skills.

"You're so wet." 'He said, and continued to cover my mouth.

From the corner of my eye, I noticed a foreigner next to us trying to get closer to us, and he put his other hand possessively around me and let me lean on him.

"Shall we go back to the box?" Seeing that he stopped and the foreigner had bad intentions again, I pulled his clothes and suggested.

Fu Da pulled me by the hand and took me away from that deserted place.

When the friends in the box saw us coming back, they all looked at us with a subtle look. Ah Shu motioned for me to lean forward to listen to him.

say.

"We all saw it!" "He laughed and gave Fu a thumbs up.

I don't know what medicine Fu took wrong, he suddenly pulled me up and asked me to sit on his lap, Qianqian and other friends beside me also cheered

.

"Sit on it!" Sit on it! Sit on it! 'Everyone clapped and shouted.

When I was standing there, not knowing what to do, Fu pulled me with both hands, causing me to lose my balance and fall directly on him.

"Great!" "Let's drink~" Qianqian forced a glass of lychee wine on Fu. It seemed like he couldn't drink any more, and I was a little worried about him.

"Dry! " he shouted, and his friends around him toasted him, and the remaining wine dripped from the corners of his mouth onto his clothes.

I stood up and tried to get him some toilet paper, but he didn't want me to leave. He put one arm around my waist and turned my head with the other.

, put her lips on mine and fed me the wine with her mouth.

Everyone around them started to get excited again, and Qianqian and his girlfriend didn't want to be outdone and started kissing each other.

"Come home with me tonight." 'Fu said domineeringly.

"You drank too much," I replied.

The night ended quickly. When we stepped out of the nightclub, schoolmate Tingting was already drunk on Ah Shu.

"Hey, I'm going to take my junior away, so stop making trouble." I glared at Ah Shu.

"I know. I won't do anything to her. She's too naive..."

Meanwhile, Fu, who was standing by, had regained consciousness and was back to his normal self, without any inappropriate behavior.

"Let's go home~" I took his hand.

Of course, I didn't go to Fu's house, and he didn't come to my house.

After graduation, I found a job where I often had to work overtime, but the pay was surprisingly good.

Fu and I didn't say much about what happened that day. I think we all have similar thoughts, and we should all go to relax.

, just drank too much, it doesn’t mean anything.

However, my junior sister Tingting even asked us naively whether we would be together.

"Senior Yueyue~~Why don't you two be together~~"

"How is that possible? We are so familiar with each other..."

"But you all acted like that that day."

"That doesn't mean anything. We all know we were just going out for fun, and I just broke up with my ex-boyfriend." I was speechless.

After a glance at the junior sister, she pouted and dared not ask any more questions.

Because of this job, I am somewhat out of touch with their student life, and the only one I still keep in touch with is my junior schoolmate Tingting.

Occasionally he would come to my rental house to chat.

As for Fu, to be honest, I felt a little embarrassed after that day.

When a friend does something beyond friendship, you will start to imagine whether there will be someone who will take care of him one day.

It's me, but I feel like there's something I can't get over. We used to chat and drink together, but gradually we became

The atmosphere is disconnected.

I think our friendship has deteriorated.

When I realized that I had expectations for him, I thought there was no way we could go back to the relationship we had before.

I was busy working overtime and slowly forgot the memories with my ex-boyfriend.

As for that night, I can only regard it as a beautiful memory, although I sometimes think of Fu’s kiss when I feel lonely.

I work myself to death every day just to stop thinking about the feeling of being unable to sleep at night and having no one to talk to.

What's more, now there is no one to drink with me.

The days passed by quietly like this for two years.

That day, I received an order from the company asking me to go on a business trip to Kaohsiung for three days.

I packed my bags and headed for Kaohsiung, bringing my company's briefing and products with me, ready to fight with my partners to get this

case.

When I walked out of the high-speed rail station, a familiar person stood in front of me.

"auxiliary?"

"Yueyue?" Why are you here? ! ' His surprise was beyond words.

"I'm on a business trip~"

Two years later, his appearance hasn't changed much, but he is much more stable than when he was a student.

"Wow, time goes by so fast. It's been two years since you graduated," he said.

"Yes! What about you? Are you going back to your hometown to work?" His hometown is in Kaohsiung.

"Yes, I'm helping out with my family's company. Where do you live?" We haven't had a drink in a long time! 』

"The 85th Building. The company booked a room there for me."

"Well, are you free tonight?" Come to my villa for a drink! 』

It seems that the awkwardness of just graduating is gone. After all, we have become adults. Besides, I haven’t seen him for a long time. I also want to know his recent situation.

condition.

"Okay~" I agreed to him.

The company originally planned to give me two days to convince the manufacturer to cooperate with us, but I didn't expect that I could win over the manufacturer in just one afternoon.

After the company reported back, they gave me a reward and allowed me to spend a day in Kaohsiung before returning to Taipei.

After finishing my work, I called my assistant and happily told him that I had successfully negotiated a case and that we had an appointment for dinner together in the evening.

We had dinner and then went to his house to drink together.

"You're worthy of being the host, otherwise I would have just eaten whatever I wanted on this trip." I said to him with a smile in his car.

"real! You've been eating whatever you want since college. What's this stupid theory about eating lunch at 4 o'clock to save money for dinner? It's also making your stomach

It hurts. Can’t you get rid of this bad habit? 'Support me.

"What the hell is it to you?" I rolled my eyes at him and felt like I was back in the old days.

I followed him upstairs and was stunned when I opened the door.

"Your house is so big! It's several times larger than the place I rented when I was in college!" I exclaimed.

"This house was left to my family. No one will live in it if it's not occupied!" 』

"You rich bastard, if I had known that day would come, I would have kept haunting you." I glared at him, and then we smiled at each other.

"Shut up! Come and drink! 'He took me to the window to see the night view.

We chatted with each other about our recent situation in the past two years, and it turned out that we were both single in the past two years.

"Then why have we become so unfamiliar with each other in the past two years?" I asked him.

"It was that night. We drank a little too much. Ah Shu and the others beside us saw everything clearly. It was quite awkward afterwards.

of. 'He dropped the gold medal in his hand.

"Actually, I was scared that day. You are such a good kisser. You must have so many girlfriends and practiced so much that you are so proficient?" I teased him.

"Of course, the first step to conquering a girl is to learn how to kiss, right? 』

"What the hell, I'll be full after I tell you everything!"

"You are really not just slow-witted. You are still the same after two years." 'He said suddenly.

"Huh?" I was puzzled.

"That night two years ago, you kissed me back, right? I thought I finally had my chance, but I didn't expect that I would end up getting drunk and making ourselves

The relationship has become so bad. 』

"I have always liked you, but you didn't realize it and still treated me as a brother. Sometimes I think I should just give up.

Until the day you kissed me back and gave me hope again. 』

"I'm glad I met you today." 』

He slowly stretched out his hand towards me and motioned for me to put my hand in his.

After pulling me up, he held me tightly in his arms. My heart was beating so fast that I could even hear it thump thump.

The sound makes me feel happy and warm.

Do I like him too? I asked myself.

"Raise your head." "He said slowly and held my face with his right hand.

Just like that night, he bent down and kissed me gently.

Let’s go for one more night.

I responded to his kiss, our tongues intertwined, our bodies pressed together.

He held my face gently and kissed my lips little by little.

I closed my eyes, enjoying a luxury I hadn't had in a long time.

"May I? 'Fu asked me.

"Yeah," I agreed.

He slowly unbuttoned my shirt, and as the shirt fell to the ground, he moved his hands to the back of my bra and unfastened the straps of my bra.

, then took me to the sofa and pushed me down on it.

He kissed my breasts with his tongue, which made me want to protect him. I stroked his hair and he raised his head to support himself.

The body touched my lips again.

Is this the feeling of happiness?

I was pressed under him, confused.

He began to unzip my pants and put his hands to my private parts, teasing my sensitive spots.

"You're wet," he said in a low voice, and gently moved his head under me, teasing me with his tongue instead.

"Hmm" I moaned.

His right hand reached into my flooded private parts, and his left hand took my hand as he stood up to hold his penis that had been erected for an unknown period of time.

penis.

"Your..." I closed my eyes shyly.

"My it wants you." "After he finished speaking, he knelt on the sofa and let it enter my body and move rhythmically.

"Yueyue, I like you." "Fu said while biting my ear gently.

After finishing, Fu gently helped me clean up.

"Yueyue, I'm serious. But I won't force you to give me an answer now. After today, if you think about it later,

If the response is no, then let’s keep today our secret. 』

"Fuku... I really don't know if I like you or not, but having sex with you makes me feel very happy."

"It's okay. You have plenty of time to think about it. But you can stay here tonight. Tonight is mine, okay?" 』

"Um."

He walked towards me, took my hand and led me into his room.

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Do I love him? Is he lonely during this time when he loves me?

Let’s be together because of loneliness, okay?

When friendship turns into love, can it go back?

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