A Funeral (Other Adult Fiction)

There was sutra chanting going on downstairs, the wooden fish with a steady frequency and tone, and the chanting person's unchanging, boring and tedious hymns, accompanied by the intermittent crying of the family members nearby.

I thought I must be a monster. Hearing such voices almost made my sanity break. Maybe this was because the deceased was not familiar to me, he was just my boyfriend’s father, so I didn’t cry or scream, but just hid upstairs and used this accompaniment to accompany me as I finished reading a bunch of comics.

Because I can’t sleep at all.

Frankly speaking, I didn't want to come at all. It was because of the sad look on his face when he answered the phone that made me say such comforting words as saying I would accompany him back to Hsinchu from Taipei. This is not my first time to experience a funeral. Frankly speaking, I think funerals are as contrived as wedding banquets. Is it a form of commemoration to go to such great lengths to gather everyone together and make them cry their hearts out?

I don't think so. Anyway, it's all a show for the living people.

Fortunately, this is no longer my business. My parents passed away in an accident a long time ago, and I don’t have any relatives to take care of me. I have become a little numb to separations and deaths.

He would probably stay down there all night. He was the eldest son and I was considered the eldest daughter-in-law. Things that I had never considered when I was dating him, because of this funeral, all the unknown relatives gathered together and climbed directly onto my shoulders, pressing me to the point of suffocating me.

I don't think I'm ready to face this yet.

"Knock knock." Someone knocked on the door. I opened it and found it was his brother.

He is only in his third year of high school and has a gentle face very similar to his brother. The biggest difference is that he always has a smug smile on his face and is very naughty, which is very different from his brother's serious look.

"What's wrong?"

"I sneaked up here to play," he said, sitting down beside my bed. "Why aren't you asleep yet?"

"How can I sleep? Can you play here? Don't wait for your aunt to come up and call for help." I pretended to be relaxed and gave him some space on the bed.

"My brother is here anyway, so it's not too much for me to sneak away for a few hours." I didn't understand why he looked so relaxed. People were crying their hearts out below, but he didn't feel anything and even laughed and scolded with us.

"Would you like to read a comic?"

"Okay. My eardrums will really burst down there." He lay down beside me and started reading comics. "You're still talking about me, but my aunt is talking about you..."

"What did you say about me? Not helping? Staying upstairs all the time? Or do you seem to be good at spending money but can't be a good wife?" I rolled my eyes and asked repeatedly.

"You know that." He laughed, "But I definitely didn't think that!"

"You better." I pushed his head.

"Really? I've always wanted to see what a girl who can make my brother so happy looks like!"

He laughed so hard that he deserved a beating, and I couldn't help but reach out and pinch his cheeks. "You damn child!" He laughed and screamed, and struggled anxiously to grab my hand.

At this time, the door opened and my boyfriend walked in with a bad look on his face. "Bai Cheng, you're playing up there again, get off quickly."

"Can't I take a rest for a while? I'm so sleepy." He lay on my bed and wailed loudly. I patted his head with a wry smile. "How long will this damn thing take to chant? I'm getting fed up with it."

"Don't make me angry. He is your father. No matter how irresponsible you are, you should at least act like one. You are already 18 years old. Don't be so childish."

"Childish? I only know that dad has been ill for more than ten years, and it's not a bad thing that he died. Those inexplicable relatives didn't care about dad when he was alive, but now that he has passed away, they are crying and asking questions as if they care about our family. If you are not disgusted, dad will feel disgusted too!"

Bai Yu said nothing, turned around and slammed the door. I had to quickly walk over to open the door and persuade them to reconcile.

"Okay, don't be so angry." I went up and hugged my man. "Let Bo Cheng get some sleep. He's been busy with the college entrance exams lately and must be tired."

"He doesn't take the exam seriously at all. He's so old, but he doesn't even think about his family... He's so selfish..."

"Okay, I know you're tired, so you're angry and anxious." I coaxed him, "I'll comfort him and let him go, okay?"

"Why are you so protective of him?"

"Because he's just a child. Although I know you're tired of seeing him and don't feel that way, but I don't have any brothers or sisters, so I want to love him too."

"Go downstairs. You can come up and rest later." I patted him and watched him walk downstairs reluctantly. When I returned to the room, I saw Bai Cheng smiling so happily, curling up in bed reading comics and laughing out loud.

"Still laughing." I sat on the edge of the bed and patted him. He immediately pursed his lips to hold back his laughter. His funny look made me laugh as well.

Then he carried me to the bed and let me lie side by side with him. Because it happened so suddenly, I didn't have time to react.

"What are you doing?" Then he threw down the comic and leaned over me. I stared at him in surprise, "What on earth are you doing, Bai Cheng?"

"This posture is meant to be an invasion." Then he lowered his head and kissed me. His behavior surprised me, but what embarrassed me even more was that when he put his lips back on me, he pecked my lips lightly and slowly with his lips, so gently that it was unbelievable.

I pushed him away with all my strength. It was hard to imagine what my expression would be like, I just knew that my whole body was burning with heat. Even though I had pushed him away, the lingering embarrassment and confusion still filled my heart. How could this be the kiss? I couldn't look into his face. I only knew that Bai Cheng was sitting beside the bed, calm and silent.

What does this guy mean?

"Kashiwa..."

"I'm going downstairs, bye." His tone was full of smiles, which made my heart burn with anger.

Is he kidding me? Or just for fun? But what does a kiss like that mean?

The next day at breakfast, we met at the family gathering table. My aunt cooked a big pot of porridge, but he didn't eat it. Instead, he sat on the sofa next to her and watched TV.

"Qi Baicheng, do you want to eat or not?" Bai Yu yelled at him in a loud voice, but he didn't even blink. His aunt and uncle were chasing around with a bunch of little cousins, feeding them, but his eyes never left the TV, and he was not disturbed at all.

"Bai Cheng, we have to go to the crematorium later and it will take several hours. You will be hungry. Come and eat quickly." Grandma squinted her eyes and muttered over there.

"I'm not going to the crematorium," he said, crossing his legs high.

"As a son, is there anything more important to you than seeing your father for the last time?" The eldest aunt blinked, and her sarcasm was natural.

"I was by my father's side when he died, but you are the ones who got to see him for the last time."

While I was washing dishes in the back, Bai Cheng came over and filled the last bowl of white porridge. "Hey, I'm going to wash it all."

"You don't need to wash." He said, "Don't act like you are our daughter-in-law, or you will be abused if you really marry into our family."

His tone was very cold when he said this. I wiped my hands and went to the living room. I watched him pour the meat floss into the bowl, and then grandma spoke: "Bai Cheng! You shouldn't talk back to your aunt like this. Your aunt has always cared about you and treated you as her own children. You lost your mother when you were very young, and your father has been sick all the time..."

"Grandma! I want fried eggs!"

Bai Cheng interrupted grandma's mumbling. Grandma rolled her eyes at him and said, "I told you to eat just now but you refused. Now you're making a scene again. How can you only eat the poached eggs? Grandma will open another can for you..."

I was about to go help, but Bai Cheng stopped me and said, "Xiao Tong, can we go upstairs later?"

"what?"

"I want to kiss you a few more times." I was startled and suddenly remembered the kiss yesterday. When I met his eyes, I didn't expect him to be so serious.

"Stop making trouble. I'm your brother's girlfriend."

"So I can't kiss you?" Bai Cheng laughed, "Grandma!"

"What are you doing, shouting and yelling?" Grandma replied.

"Can you ask your brother to give the child to me?"

I frowned, and grandma laughed, "No, your brother likes the children's toys very much. The children's toys are not a model of the "Fortress" that can be snatched away. Do you remember when your brother was in elementary school, your uncle gave him a "Fortress" model, and you liked it very much when you saw it and wanted to snatch it away..."

"Grandma, it's not a fortress, it's Macross, and the doll is called Basara." Bai Cheng ate some rice and walked into the kitchen. "I'm full, I'll go upstairs."

"Hey! I've already fried the eggs! I've also opened the can..."

Bai Cheng came out and stretched out his hand to me. I shook my head and Bai Cheng pretended to hug me. I was so scared that I couldn't make a sound. I ran to the stairwell and he chased after me and hugged me tightly from behind. My whole body was hot and my cheeks were flushed. I could still hear grandma still muttering in my ears: "What about this egg! I ate it this morning. I'm old. Two eggs are too high in cholesterol and cardiovascular..."

"Go upstairs," he said, his voice a little hoarse, "don't make me kiss you here."

"You..." I was furious. Why could this guy force me to do things so naturally? !

His breath was just behind my ear, his palm was directly on my waist, and his entire upper body was pressed tightly against me. The strangest thing was that I didn't feel disgusted.

Why don't I feel disgusted?

I walked up the stairs slowly, and I felt him walking behind me. I entered the room and locked the door. I looked at him, and his handsome features showed no hesitation or playfulness.

"Bai Cheng..."

"Are you mad at me?" He said, sitting next to the bookcase in the room, deliberately keeping a little distance from me, "I like you."

I didn't say anything, just sat on the bed and looked at him. He is still a child, only eighteen years old, but I can feel his maturity and stability from his brows. He is already half an adult, which is something he has never shown when facing other family members.

I think we should use an adult way to tell him that this is wrong.

"I'm your brother's girlfriend." I said firmly, "I can't like you."

"It's okay, I just like you."

"What do you mean it doesn't matter? Of course it does matter." I didn't know whether to laugh or cry as I watched him stand up.

"Will you be mad at me?" Bai Cheng approached me slowly, making me a little nervous. "I kissed you yesterday and I couldn't sleep the whole night. I'm afraid you'll be mad at me and ignore me today."

"I'm a little angry..." I swallowed, not knowing why I was so nervous. What this kid said and his behavior made my whole body stiff and hot. The strangest thing was that I didn't refuse at all.

Why didn't I say no? Why did I watch him approach me and sit next to me without doing anything?

Bai Cheng hugged me and put his hands on my waist. His cheek rubbed against mine, making my whole body feel hot. "I want to kiss you."

"No..." I shook my head, but I watched his handsome facial features slowly approaching until he captured my lips deeply again, as gentle as yesterday, but with a little more domineering and trembling. His hands wandered more unscrupulously from my chin to my shoulders and arms.

When I separated from him, I felt that I was as excited as he was. My lower body was already wet. Even though I was passive, I felt that I wanted him.

Bai Cheng looked at me, his eyes full of desire. He pushed me down on the bed, pulled my skirt up to my waist from behind, and gently stroked my buttocks, kneading them gently as if cherishing something precious. "If you don't want it, just tell me no."

After he finished speaking, he gently reached into my underwear and stroked my buttocks, causing me to shiver. I lay prone, not daring to look back at his expression, and only uttered these two words from my mouth: "Don't..."

He picked me up by the waist and sat me on him. He gently spread my legs and let me clamp his waist. Then he gently stroked my thighs and lowered his head to peek at my panties. "Did you just say no?"

I felt his penis between his legs, already erect and pressing against my lower body, but I still bit my lower lip and said this. "...Bai Cheng...well...I said no."

He raised his head to brush away my hair that was scattered on his face, kissed my neck, and slid my shoulder straps off my shoulders, saying in a tone that sounded like a smile, "I didn't hear it."

I didn't struggle, not because I was confused. My head was clear, but I didn't have any intention of refusing. Perhaps in my dull and boring life, this kind of touch and stimulation is what I want. I looked at his handsome facial features. Even though he had just reached adulthood, I could still feel the sexiness and passion from his masculine scent and body temperature.

His hand went around my back, lifted up my shirt and was about to unbutton my bra, and I guessed that he would be surprised by my next move. I put my arms around his shoulders, pulled his head down and kissed him deeply, feeling his breathing become unusually rapid and heavy. I became even more playful and licked his earlobes and ear cavity, feeling him immediately become stiff all over.

"Why...?" He held my face, looking confused.

"Isn't this what you want?" I looked at him and smiled, then pushed his body down, took off his long T-shirt, straddled him and kissed him from his chest to his belly button, looking at his anxious and expectant expression with pride.

I opened his jeans, took out his young but erect penis, put it in my mouth and licked the glans, then I heard grandma calling out: "Bai Cheng? Bai Cheng?"

"What?" Bai Cheng smoothed his dry throat and coughed twice in response.

"Bai Cheng?" Grandma seemed not to hear me. She continued to call me as she walked upstairs. I didn't stop the movement of my mouth. I hesitated and made his entire penis smooth and sticky, and its veins bulged with redness.

He fumbled for the TV remote and turned on the TV, letting the sound of the TV drown out the noise in the room, and did not forget to respond to grandma, "I'm upstairs, what am I doing?"

Bai Cheng began to try to escape from me, but I held him tightly and even took his testicles into my mouth. The elastic balls bounced and rubbed against each other in my mouth, making him almost moan.

"I'm going to the market. Are you with the little boy? Do you want anything to eat? Your brothers and their friends won't be back until the afternoon."

"Yes..., we are watching TV..." Bai Cheng's expression was very interesting, his eyebrows were tied into dozens of knots, "No need to buy us anything, we are not hungry..."

His chest rose and fell more violently, but he tried to keep his breathing light. It was not until his grandma slowly walked downstairs and heard the door locked that he could not help but curse out loud: "Oh my God, you."

I giggled, and he pressed me down, and said in a fierce tone that was only suitable for his age: "I'm so nervous... I almost came... You can't bully a child like this, do you know?!"

He took off my shirt in a way that was intended to scare me. I didn't know whether I should tell a boy like this that I was no longer at the age where I would be shy, but instead he just stared at my breasts.

Then he tried to unbutton my bra. I think many boys find this difficult to understand, so they would pull and tug at it. I reached out and unbuttoned it myself, enjoying his eager gaze. He held one of my breasts and gently kneaded it, buried his head in the other one and sucked and kissed it, and teased my nipple with his tongue, which made me feel itchy. I couldn't help but sigh, and then I used my fingertips to lightly and teasingly slide over his young wheat-colored muscles.

"Bai Cheng, help me take off my skirt." I called him, trying to tell him that I was already wet, but he seemed to still be intoxicated by the buds on my chest. I bit my lower lip, looked into his eyes and said softly, "I want it."

He seemed stunned by these words. He took off my skirt and underwear and carefully touched my sticky and wet vagina with his fingers. I had already eagerly clamped my legs around his waist, urging him to come in quickly. And he did not disappoint me and quickly entered my body.

His penis filled my body so fully that all the cells in my body awakened. The feeling that was meant to be relieved was not only not released, but became more intense, making me almost feel pain. Looking at his furrowed brows, I knew he was thinking the same thing as I was.

He held my knees and began to thrust, each stroke so deep and hard, and with such a high speed that I couldn't control it. When I looked at him closely, I found that he was entering me very seriously, trembling and carefully maintaining his gentleness, but also full of pain and helplessness, just like when he kissed me.

The child seemed to be enduring something. I knew he had a little obsession with me. I noticed it from the first time I saw him. He was a handsome and seemingly rebellious child. He usually didn't say a word and would only talk to me when there was no one around.

Apart from that, I know that he loves his father more than anything else. Although he seems to not care about these things, from his words and actions, I know that he must have contributed a lot to this family. That is why he hates his brother who doesn’t come home, hates these boastful relatives, and has deep hostility towards many adults. I feel extremely distressed for him.

"Bai Cheng..." I called his name, and he pressed his body down, pointed his forehead at mine, and murmured, "Xiaotong... I really like you..." and then kissed me deeply. I really like his kiss, it's sincere and genuine, but also a little bit heartbreaking.

I actually don’t know whether I can bear the love of this child. All I can do is to hold his waist tightly, feel his body temperature, and let him know that I need him very much at this moment.

His movements were getting faster and faster. I could hear the sound of water and flesh hitting each other between our bodies. Feeling his wild speed, I moaned softly. Soon, he poured his white body fluids into my body, and then he collapsed on me. I gently patted Bai Cheng's face and smiled.

"I know you're going to laugh at me..." He couldn't even raise his head, "I'm not like you adults, who are experienced..."

"I'm not laughing at you." I laughed even more happily, "Shall we take a shower?"

I went into the bathroom without wiping my lower body, letting the sticky semen flow down my thighs. I rinsed my body with hot water, and my lower body still felt swollen.

"Why?" he asked me, hugging me from behind. "You don't use toilet paper because you're afraid of being discovered by me?"

I didn't answer, but he guessed right. "Do you like my brother very much?"

"I'm his girlfriend." I picked up the bath ball, dipped it in some shower gel, squeezed out bubbles of foam and rubbed it on my body, then turned around and carefully applied the smooth foam on his chest and arms.

He looked down at me as I gently stroked his chest, his shoulders, each of his fingers, then moved down around his abdomen, thighs, and finally stroked his hard cock and teased his soft balls. "Why are you still so hard...?"

"I want more..." He picked up the shower head and quickly rinsed our bodies, then placed it on the wall, letting the water splash all over our bodies. "Little boy..." We hugged and kissed, and he even picked me up and placed me on the sink, using his tongue to stir up all my emotions.

I hugged him, my nails almost digging into his muscles, "Fuck me."

He quickly put me down, turned me over so that I was lying on the sink, lifted one of my legs and quickly entered me. Because I was not wet enough, it was a little dry and painful. He gently found my clitoris and began to caress it, making me moan uncontrollably. I saw my expression in the mirror, seductive and painful, and he was the same as me.

"Does it hurt?" He bit my ear, and I shook my head and pulled his hair. I shook my head not because it didn't hurt, but because in such passion, I needed the stimulation of pain. Without pain, no one would remember it to the end.

Because he had already ejaculated once, he controlled the speed and depth with ease, torturing me slowly.

"Little boy...are you feeling well?"

"Which one do you like better, me or my brother?"

"Can I do this...?" Children of this age love to ask questions, but I am an adult who is good at avoiding questions and just responds with humming. Then he threw me to the ground, trying to finish me off quickly from behind, he held my hips which were bouncing from the impact, and thrust forward quickly, while my whole body was tense, welcoming the waves of pleasure that came to my body.

Finally, accompanied by his sigh, I trembled as if I was electrocuted and climbed to the highest peak. When he slowly pulled out his penis, my upper body was almost hanging on the bathtub, too exhausted to move. He gently rinsed me, wrapped me in a large towel and dried me, then gently carried me to the bed and helped me put on my clothes.

Looking at my blushing face, he put on his clothes and smiled, "I want more tomorrow."

"Don't take advantage of us just because we've had some success." I took some time to sit up, watch TV with him, went downstairs to find something to eat in the refrigerator, and then went back to the guest room to continue kissing. We didn't go any further because we were afraid that Baiyu and the others would come back.

"Little boy, I know you may not be serious about me." He held my hand tighter, "but..."

"I can't make you any promises... After all..." I said. Even though I knew in my heart that he was kind, gentle, and had a heart-breaking innocence, I didn't know if I could tell him how I felt. I didn't want to give him too much hope and make him think that there was a possibility for the two of us.

"I know..." Bai Cheng said, his tone shy, "Thank you for letting me... hug you."

I smiled foolishly and really wanted to tell him that maybe at his age, he still thought that a girl's willingness to commit herself was a kind of sacrifice, but I did it because I liked him doing it and wanted to satisfy my own desires. Sex itself is equal and reciprocal, and there is no force or grievance.

Hearing the voices downstairs made me feel a little creepy. Leaving Bai Cheng's warm embrace, I sat back on the sofa, chewing an apple. Looking at his lost eyes, I felt a little guilty.

"I'm back." Baiyu looked at me, "You guys were watching TV today?"

"Yeah." I forced a smile. "How are you today? Are you tired?"

"Not bad." He sat next to me, with a strong smell of cigarettes, "I'm much more tired than Bai Cheng. After all, he's been hanging around at home all day, doing nothing."

"I understand. Look at your pretentious face. It's a thankless job for the eldest son, isn't it?" Bai Cheng replied.

"Bai Cheng," I said to him, "talk less." Bai Cheng looked at my face, spread his hands in surprise, and continued to switch channels with the remote control.

"Go downstairs," Bai Yu said, "You have your own room, don't keep bothering Xiao Tong."

"You don't understand. This is my room. I specially prepared it for you to live in. Downstairs, I sleep on the floor with Peipei and the others. There's no TV to watch." Bai Cheng stood up and slammed the door shut. "Don't speak to me in a commanding tone if you don't understand anything."

"Bai Yu, this is just a small matter. Why do you have to go against him in every way and think that he is bad at everything?" In fact, he is very well-behaved and sensible. His tone of voice was a bit harsh, but he is such a grown-up, why bother with Bai Cheng?

"Oh come on, do you understand him or do I understand?"

"Of course you understand." I shrugged without comment. "Forget it, I don't want to get involved in your family affairs."

"Well, it'll be over tomorrow. Be good. After that, I'll take you to the upper room for a good meal." He patted my head to comfort me and walked into the bathroom. "Why are you so wet?"

"I took a shower in the afternoon." I answered hastily, "Because it was very hot today..."

"When you were taking a shower, wasn't Bai Cheng also in this room? I think that guy seems to like pestering you very much. You should keep your distance from him." He said half-jokingly.

"What do you mean? He's just a child, your younger brother. Is it necessary for you to doubt him like this?" I said anxiously and a little angrily.

"Oh, I'm just afraid that my baby's beautiful body will be seen by others." He saw that I was not happy, and explained with a smile, "I was tired after a day outside, but he was able to spend such a long time with you, I was jealous."

My heart sank and I said nothing. The mentality of wanting to quickly escape from Bai Cheng and Hsinchu became complicated and incomprehensible. I even felt that he was very ungraceful when he criticized his younger brother. Maybe what Bai Cheng said about him not caring about his family and not knowing enough about the family's current situation was correct.

I have no idea. I don’t even know if what happened between Bai Cheng and I will affect our relationship. What echoed in my mind was Bai Cheng's words: "I want it again tomorrow." These words pricked me like ants, making me feel itchy and uncomfortable. I just wanted to leave Hsinchu, leave this heavy home, and our complicated relationship.

I really wish what happened today had not happened at all, or I had not come at all.

Maybe I really thought too beautifully. The next day, we sat in my uncle's car. In the front seat was Bai Yu holding the ashes, and in the back seat were me, Bai Cheng and my little cousin.

Not only could I not escape, he was right next to me, and Bai Cheng didn't seem to want to let me go. Even though he knew that his brother was sitting in the front seat, he was fearless and kept touching me intentionally or unintentionally, making me irritated and unbearable.

At first, he just felt that he put his hand on my thigh unintentionally. I was wearing a denim skirt and the tough fabric seemed to protect me a little. I looked at his expression, which seemed very innocent, but his hand seemed a little sweaty and trembling slightly.

I put his hand back on my leg, coughed, and deliberately asked my little cousin next to me: "Shunshun, you didn't get enough sleep, did you?"

"Yeah, I'm so sleepy." The cute Shunshun frowned and yawned, leaning on my shoulder. Bai Cheng yelled, leaned over and pushed Shunshun's head, his arm lightly touching my chest, "You kept kicking me last night, and you're still sleepy, you stinky Shun."

"No way, it was obviously you who stole my quilt." Shunshun retorted without giving in. "Sister, help me beat up Brother Bai Cheng."

"You are so boring. Shunshun is only eight years old, how old are you?" I glared at him with a smile, and patted his shoulder with the palm of my hand, making a loud noise.

He lifted my hair and blew in my ear, making my face flush. "Am I still a child to you?"

"Don't be naughty." I winked at him, reminding him that his brother was in the front seat. He actually made a face, acting like a dead child.

After Bai Yu said a few times, "Dad, we've crossed the bridge," we finally arrived at the county funeral home and started the morning ceremony.

During the mourning, I saw Bai Cheng's tears. He was like any other kid of that era, puffing out his chest and shaking his shoulders, trying to hold back his tears. These past few days I've seen him being as carefree as ever, and I didn't expect him to be so sentimental. He said that his father's death was a good thing, but it didn't mean he wasn't sad. Or maybe he wanted to send his father off with tears for the last time?

After that, we drove to a nearby restaurant for a big family dinner. Baiyu sat next to me. His possessive behavior made me feel annoyed. Although I wanted to explain, I didn't know where to start. I didn’t know how to respond to him. When I peeked at our Bai Cheng from the rearview mirror, his expression seemed a bit sour.

At the lunch, all the relatives seemed to have let go of their burdens and started drinking, singing, and having a great time. Bai Cheng, Bai Yu and I took the children to the outdoor courtyard to chase and feed the carp.

The incident happened to the youngest one, Bai Jun. He drank a little more tea and accidentally peed in his pants while running and jumping. Bai Yu, the eldest brother, took Bai Jun inside to find his uncle. As soon as Bai Yu left, Bai Cheng immediately came close to me.

"Hey, let's go to the back, okay?" The backyard of this restaurant is a whole forest.

"What about the kids?"

"Bern, are you looking after your younger brother and sister?" Bern is my cousin who is already in the third grade of junior high school. She nodded obediently, and he pulled me and ran into the woods behind.

The forest was not particularly dense, with some large rocks used for landscaping mixed in it, making the scenery not monotonous. The cool bamboo had the fishy fragrance of green grass. He pulled me to hide behind a large rock and kissed me on the lips without saying a word. I could feel his eagerness and anxiety.

"Can I..." He lifted up my shirt, pulled open the bra cover, and held up my breasts and started licking them wildly, which made me almost unable to stand and couldn't control the moan that was about to overflow.

"Here?" I frowned, but he had already reached his hand into my long skirt and managed to take off my thin black panties.

"Don't take it off," I lifted up my skirt to reveal my naked buttocks, boldly pressed against his hard penis, and pulled my underwear aside, "Just come in like this..."

He sighed, took off his trousers, and pressed his already hot penis against me. He originally just wanted to rub it, but the glans accidentally slipped into my already soaked forbidden area. He gasped and continued to bury himself deep inside me, "...Why are you so wet...?"

I didn't answer, but just responded with sighs and groans like crying. He buried himself deep inside, kneading my elastic, full and soft breasts, and whispered in my ear: "You are leaving tomorrow...right?"

"Bai Cheng... stop talking..."

"You want to just walk away...right?" He began to pound me violently, each stroke going so deep that it almost hurt. My legs almost went weak, and I held onto the edge of the boulder, screaming out in ecstasy.

"Don't think you can get rid of me by leaving..." He pinched my buttocks, his voice full of sadness and resentment. "I won't lose to...his..."

"Bai Cheng..." I had the urge to cry, but I held it back and tried to use the pleasure of our bodies rubbing against each other to cover up my excessive emotions. His big and hard penis expanded and filled my vagina, and we were both trembling as we welcomed wave after wave of pleasure.

After a while, he turned me over and laid me on a big rock. He supported my waist and raised my legs high as he sprinted forward. Bai Cheng's deep breathing became heavier and heavier, slowly turning into a low moan of praise, blending in with my continuous gasps. I knew he was about to ejaculate, so I quickly grabbed him, "Um... Bai Cheng... ah... don't... ejaculate inside... ah..."

After hearing that, he immediately pulled out with trembling hands and ejaculated between my buttocks. My buttocks, anus and labia were all covered with his thick and sticky semen.

"I'm sorry..." He was still panting, lying on me weakly, "I forgot...we were outside..."

I hugged him and patted his face, "It's okay..." After resting for a while, I walked through the carp pond where the children were playing with my slippery and wet lower body, wanting to go to the toilet to wipe it.

"Where have you been?" Bai Yu asked, with a slightly angry look on his face. "You actually left your younger siblings to Bai En. That's not nice."

"Little Miss Tong's earring fell off just now... I'll go help her find it." Bai Cheng said, while playing with the child as if nothing had happened.

"Is that so...?" Baiyu looked at me with a cold expression. "What's wrong with you...? Are you feeling unwell?"

"I'm fine... I just have a stomachache... I want to go to the bathroom..." He grabbed my arm with concern, but I didn't dare to look at him and just responded with my head down.

"Why does it smell like bleach...?"

Finished. He must have known. Before I could reply, Bai Cheng and Bai En were playing around and bumped into me with such force that I was knocked into the carp pond. Bai Cheng and the other two who were reaching out to grab me also fell in.

Oh my god. Although the carp pond is not deep, it is really smelly. The children on the shore were laughing so hard, and it also alarmed the relatives. Seeing this, several waiters from the restaurant rushed over and hurriedly prepared towels and tried to pull us up.

Bai Cheng burst into laughter, "Sorry, Sister Xiaotong! I bumped into you."

"Oh my god." Bai Yu frowned, "I wonder if I ate fish feed..."

I couldn't help but scream and laugh, "Something is moving underneath! Ahhh! It's so itchy!"

After we were rescued to shore, we wrapped ourselves in towels and called a taxi to go home and change clothes. While in the car, Bai Cheng and I kept giggling at the awkward situation, and I could clearly feel that Bai Yu was looking at us, but he didn't say a word. When we got home, grandma saw how wet we were, with mud and moss all over our bodies. She couldn't stop laughing and quickly asked us to go to the bathroom to take a shower.

There were only two bathrooms, and Baiyu wanted me to go with him, but I shook my head and said that my body was dry, but still smelled bad, and I could wash later. In fact, I knew that when Bai Cheng heard my brother ask me that, he pushed me into the pond on purpose to save me, but this method was too cruel.

After a while, Bai Cheng came out shirtless and wearing shorts, and asked me to go into the bathroom to wash up. "Grandma, this dress is not mine, it belongs to my brother."

It turned out that grandma took the wrong clothes when she was sorting them out, and the two men had very similar figures, so she took Bai Yu's clothes and gave them to him, and Bai Cheng went upstairs to return the clothes to his brother.

When I was getting dressed, I heard a heated argument outside. It seemed that two brothers upstairs were arguing. After getting dressed and coming out, I saw my grandma standing on the stairwell with a worried and frightened look on her face. Suddenly, I heard a loud shout, "You two are so good. Carry me to bed!" Bai Cheng fell down the stairs, and the wooden stairs made a loud noise.

My grandma and I were shocked and rushed over to hold him. I yelled at him, "Are you crazy, Qi Boyu? Why are you pushing him like that?"

Bai Yu rushed downstairs in rage, grabbed my collar and said, "You are still protecting him! Tong Yujie, you shameless..." My tears fell quickly, but I was not afraid, I was only filled with guilt and pain.

"Let her go! If you have the guts, come at me." Bai Cheng pushed Bai Yu away, veins popping out, "I like her, so what?"

"Don't touch her!"

"Alright! Let's talk it over there! Stop fighting!" Grandma burst into tears, and the two brothers finally understood their limits and stopped in time.

It seemed that when Bai Cheng went up to return the clothes, Bai Yu asked him why he stole his girlfriend when he knew he had to return the clothes. Bai Cheng was surprised and after asking he found out that when we were in the restaurant, Bai Yu returned to the carp pond and asked Bai En where they had gone, and then he saw us making love.

I can imagine how angry he would be.

Bai Cheng was holding ice cubes on his head with a stiff face. Bai Yu was looking straight ahead, silently drinking the warm tea that grandma made for him. I was curled up on the sofa, and grandma was sitting next to me with a worried look on her face. After about half an hour of silence, none of the four of us dared to speak.

"Let's break up." The first person to speak was Bai Yu. He glared at me, and I felt like the sofas around him were on fire.

"I'm sorry," I replied.

"You don't need to say sorry to him." Bai Cheng stood up. "He has never cared about this family, and he has never cared about you. Only at the critical moment will he appear to assert his sovereignty, to declare himself the eldest son, to declare himself the boyfriend! To him, that is not love, it is responsibility!"

"Fuck, are you done yet?"

"It's over!" Grandma couldn't help crying. I quickly patted her back to comfort her. "Bai Cheng is right... For more than ten years, you haven't gone home to see your father, and you have never cared about the two of us... Now..."

"It's just that you spoil him too much, grandma! It was clearly his fault, and you still scold me!?"

"If I don't spoil him, who will? He's the one who works every day to earn his own pocket money! He's the one who took care of your father's poop and pee and took him to the emergency room! He's the one who stayed by your father's side day and night until he passed away! Why can't I spoil him?" Grandma became aggressive and hurriedly accused Bai Yu of wrongdoings.

In fact, I know he is in pain. Although he always smiles easily and naturally, he carries more pressure and heavy sorrow.

"Okay," Bai Yu was so angry that he rushed upstairs to pack his luggage and rushed out the door regardless of everything. I knew that once he left, he would never come back and we would never meet again, so I chased after him.

"Bai Yu." He turned and looked at me without saying anything.

"sorry."

"I will never forgive you." He said this coldly without looking into my eyes. I found that he really didn't have any emotional investment in me. He left only because he was embarrassed. He stopped to accept my apology just because he wanted to have a way out.

He doesn't love me, he just feels it's embarrassing. He doesn't allow Bai Cheng to take me away, and it's only because I'm just his accessory. is that so?

After a while, I turned around and found Bai Cheng standing at the door. "What about you?"

"What…?"

"You're the same. You've never told me who you love." Bai Cheng said with a serious expression. "Because for you, your relationship with your brother is a responsibility, and having sex with me is a necessity. Right?"

is that so? Is it because I'm used to this kind of relationship, so when faced with Bai Cheng's pursuit, I always use the excuse of responsibility to avoid my own feelings? I never said I loved him, I just said, "I'm his girlfriend."

"I..." I didn't know how to answer him. But he forced a smile and said, "It's okay."

"I'll make you fall in love with me." He said confidently. "Didn't I tell you that I won't let you escape?"

"That only works if you can get into a university in Taipei." I patted his shoulder and laughed too.

Although I am six years older than him and our beginning was so complicated, there will be many problems we will encounter in the future. But I am ready to give my affection, just as generously and naturally as I am willing to extend my arms to embrace him and accept his body.

I don’t know why, but seeing his smile always makes me feel more relaxed. Even though he is so young, I saw today that he would do everything he could to protect me, and I know that he not only says it, but he can do it.

My relatives are back. I heard that after taking a rest they will drive away from Hsinchu, some going back to Kaohsiung, some going back to Taichung. I will not tell them what happened just now. Unless, I have the chance to come back and participate in some large family group gathering as Bai Cheng’s girlfriend.

I just hope it won't be another funeral.