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§Chapter One: There was a blinding light in the hospital. Looking out from the window, sunset was gradually approaching. The ever-changing clouds burned bright red, like feathers dyed fiery red, floating down lightly. In the courtyard filled with the fragrance of flowers and the chirping of birds, the rustling sound of paulownia leaves can be heard from time to time. I am sweating profusely, and the gentle breeze blows towards me. It feels like... It feels so cool.
This huge hospital, K Hospital, is located at the port near the coast of City A. It is a beautiful building built on a slightly elevated hill with pleasant scenery.
Along the coastline, there are dimly lit fishing villages in the distance, in the evening fog. The fishing fires driven by the waves, reflecting the remaining light and heat, are very beautiful. As I look out at the night view here, the homesickness adds to the pain in my heart. The childhood memories are vividly in my heart and before my eyes. I don’t know when, but the tears have already quietly filled my cheeks.
When man is born, his nature is good. Everyone is a clean and flawless white paper since childhood...People like me never thought that I would still have tears to shed.
In fact, I am not born a bad person.
Since childhood, I have been full of longings and hopes for a happy and beautiful future, and I have been eagerly pursuing and looking forward to it. It was such an innocent and pure era. And now I am in a miserable state, and my pitiful appearance was actually destined to happen. The influence of my innate environment has led to who I am today, and it has been a huge blow to me. The heart-wrenching pain I feel cannot be understood by those who have experienced it themselves.
In this ever-changing and complex society, there are many people who are in the same situation as me, but few have experienced the torment that is like being in dire straits like me. And I am just living a miserable life in this chaotic mud.
I speak out the pain in my heart not to gain your pity and sympathy, but to tell everyone about the humiliation I have suffered from the past to the present, so that everyone will be alert and careful.
The book on my lap is a living diary.
This life diary has been with me for a long time and has accompanied me through many winters and summers. It records my life from childhood to the age of twenty-seven until today, including all my joys, happy times, sad and painful struggles, and the humiliation inflicted on me by bad men.
Although the diary looks small and inconspicuous, it records my life over the past decade and contains a lot of chatter. It is not easy to finish reading it in one breath. It is absolutely necessary to spend a considerable amount of time to finish reading it. Here, I will briefly describe it in a concise and focused manner!
I have a fairly complicated living environment.
My father and mother run a restaurant together in Honmoku, Yokohama. As everyone knows, this place is a well-known red-light district, and every house is connected to a very famous devil's den amidst the green lights.
Because my family ran a restaurant, my parents were busy with business and greeting customers, and they didn't pay much attention to me when I was young. In this situation of neglecting one thing while focusing on another, I grew up slowly, and my future fate was already determined at this time. After graduating from national school, I have been growing up on this land and have deep feelings for this growing environment.
Because the family runs a cooking business, the gentlemen and ladies who come upstairs to drink and have fun drink to their heart's content. From time to time, there are barmaids brought in by the drinkers to keep the guests company. In case the guests are drunk, there are empty rooms on the second floor for them to rest. I had a bad feeling towards drunk guests, so when they went upstairs, I just turned a blind eye.
It happened in March, around the time I graduated from elementary school...
The room on the second floor has always been mysterious. I have never gone upstairs to see it because my parents have repeatedly forbidden me to do so. One night, I was looking for the book Girls Club that I had been studying for many days, but strangely I couldn't find it. After asking the maid, Ading, she said:
"Oh! That book? The tenant on the second floor took it upstairs to read."
After saying this, he lowered his head and went back to work. Because Ading's work was so tedious, she was too busy to pay attention to me, so I slowly climbed the stairs. When I climbed up the stairs to the second floor and gently opened the door, I looked at the scene with my eyes wide open and my mouth opened wide for a long time.
"Ouch! Ah...ah...oh..."
The panting sounds of men and women mixed with huge beads of sweat. This was the horrifying scene I saw when I opened the door for the first time!
The light in the room is bright. I saw a naked man and woman lying on the bed, sweating profusely and hugging each other tightly. The woman's moans could be heard from time to time. It was a really hot scene.
The passionate men and women never forget to be alert at all times, and the sound of me quietly opening the door was discovered. One of the men turned around and smiled at me.
"Oh...it's A-Bang! You've seen everything, right? Actually...A-Bang has grown up now. Let me teach you the best way to make love..."
The male guest, with a lewd smile on his face, showed me his red and erect penis, and stroked it two or three times for me to see. I secretly tilted my head to look at the blocked female guest, and it turned out to be Aunt Meiyu, a beautiful woman about twenty-four or twenty-five years old, with a charming look that always had a sad face. Her buttocks were raised high, her vagina was covered with shiny black hair, and the moist flesh was filled with white stuff.
The male guest Liang unceremoniously pushed his hard penis into the small hole. His hips were shaking and the hole was turning around. White liquid flowed out several times, puff! There was a puffing sound, and a very strange and indescribable sound flowed out.
Her face was swollen like a red apple, and with the rapid twisting and thrusting, the moans like crying kept rising.
The very proud male guest seemed like a sadist. He did not stop the torture, but became more arrogant. Then, he bent down, pinched the woman's swollen and firm breasts with his hands, and began to lick and suck them with the tip of his tongue, kneading them left and right. The female tenant's body was twisting restlessly, as if there were millions of ants biting her body. She held the man's arms tightly with both hands, and her body kept squirming.
Because of the constant twisting of her body, the penis inserted into the secret hole quickly came out again. After the man readjusted his aim, he thrust hard into the woman's secret hole again. She rubbed it back and forth several times, swaying her hips back and forth, up and down, left and right, and the muscles moving in and out made the sound of a woman's moans. From the mysterious and sexy junction, puffing sounds can be heard from time to time, and the naked men and women are intoxicated in the gentle nest of carnal desire.
It was the first time I saw such a fiery and eye-catching scene, and I was really shocked. Suddenly, a blush appeared on my cheeks. I was like a defeated rooster, looking for a door and running away.
After this blushing and heart-pounding experience, I now understand why my parents didn’t allow me to go upstairs. It turns out there is such a mystery upstairs.
Because my family runs a special business, I often hear the obscene laughter and jokes between drinkers and bar girls, and I also know a thing or two about the flirting between men and women. So I matured earlier than my classmates, not only my mind but also my physical development was faster than average. Most of my classmates in the same period had sparse pubic hair. Apart from me, there were about five or six other students whose clitorises were as plump as walnuts, and their pubic hair was black, shiny and dense.
Although I often hear all kinds of crazy things happening between men and women, that is just hearsay. Seeing is believing, and it really opened my eyes. That night, I fell asleep with a very wonderful feeling, and before I knew it, a large area of my pants bottom was wet.
In my mind, I kept seeing the naked man and woman upstairs. When they were enjoying themselves like paparazzi on the street, the woman was gasping and moaning; the erect penis was shaking constantly, and they were panting rapidly. For me, who was seeing it for the first time, it was a very intense and exciting scene. The strange thing is that in my mind, those naked scenes not only did not make me feel disgusted or uncomfortable, but instead, a strange longing deep in my heart slowly spread.
A week after this incident, the store happened to be closed one day.
When I got home from school, my father said to me:
"Kuniko, what's the store today? I'm going to Chiba and won't be back until later. The pocket money is at the bottom of the drawer. You have to get it yourself. When you come back from school, Masayoshi and the others will stay to watch over you, so be careful!"
After explaining everything, he went out to Aunt Chiba's house.
When I came back from school, the maids and cooks went out shopping, and Zhengji was the only one left in the huge house. At this time, Zhengji was reading a book in his hand, lying lazily on the chair.
"I'm back!"
"Oh! Sister, you're back?"
"yes!"
"..."
"Huh? Why...where are the others?" He looked around.
"Why are you alone..."
"Well... they went out to buy something. I'm the only one left..."
"Is that so? I'm so hungry! Is there anything to eat?"
"I've prepared dinner."
After listening to my complaints, Masayoshi, who was already 19 years old, slowly and methodically put the utensils for the coronation meal on the table.
"Masayoshi...would you like to eat together?"
"Thank you, you're welcome, I want to eat too..."
"Masayoshi, do you want to drink...?"
"Drinking? I don't know how to drink and I've never drunk before."
"Then let's secretly open some and drink it, okay?"
I asked cheerfully and suddenly, and Zhengji showed a surprised expression and blushed in embarrassment. Maybe if there was a hole on the ground at that time, he might have crawled into it. Who knows!
"Little sister.. do you like drinking?"
"I don't know. I've never drunk alcohol before. I just suddenly wanted to drink a lot. Maybe I wanted to try getting tipsy. Bring me the wine glass."
The docile Masayoshi obediently took out a fancy bottle of wine and a glass from the cupboard. Under Masayoshi's careful gaze, I slowly swallowed the wine down my throat. In an instant, my entire mouth seemed to sink into fire, burning all the way down to my throat and muscles. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't cough, and tears welled up in my eyes. However, such a strong stimulation at the entrance gradually warmed up my body, and I felt so comfortable and refreshed.
"Masayoshi, why don't you try this too! It's really delicious! Mmm... it makes me feel so lightheaded, so comfortable..."
Seeing how intoxicated I was, Zhengji couldn't help swallowing his saliva and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp. He did not cough continuously like me as expected. On the contrary, his fair face immediately turned into a shy and uneasy red-faced Guan Gong.
Due to the effect of alcohol, I felt dizzy and a warmth surged up from my body. My consciousness began to be clouded by the stimulation. I don’t know why... maybe it was the alcohol that took effect. I gently grabbed Zhengji’s hand and slowly moved my body over.
Under the influence of alcohol, Zhengji could not resist the call of carnal desire. "Sister..." he shouted like a groan, quickly pulling me to his body, hugging me tightly and passionately, and my slightly open lips were soon covered by the plump male petals.
Although I often hear adults talking about obscene things, I only know what they actually do from experience. The first time I kissed a boy, it was an indescribable feeling. This was my first kiss. When I experienced it myself, I suddenly realized that the movement of the human tongue has a different feeling. My whole body was filled with excitement and itchiness.
"I...sister, I...I can't bear it any longer...let's...come...look at me down there...it's already..."
Masayoshi was panting heavily, breathlessly. My fingers nimbly unbuttoned his pants, revealing the man's amazing lower body for me to see, and at the same time he reached out and took my hand and touched it.
Stroking the red-black male penis that was as hard as a rock, it looked very strange, with swollen blue veins all over it. I touched him lightly out of curiosity, and perhaps because of my soft fingers, Zhengji became more and more excited.
Suddenly, Zhengji was like a beast out of a cage. He pushed me down quickly and used his hands and feet to take off my pocket-sized panties.
After separating my buttocks, Zhengji quickly pressed his strong body down. I was startled by the sudden movement and resisted the invasion instinctively, but the man's excitement fueled his immense strength. As we pushed and pulled each other, I felt a rising pleasure as if in a dream. When the strength weakened a little, he quickly subdued my restless body, found my nest that exuded a charming fragrance, aimed the tip of his penis, pushed it into the Huanglong acupoint in one breath, and then began to rub it.
Because it was my first time, and there was no soft and sweet foreplay beforehand, I inserted it quickly and forcefully. When the glans rubbed against the flesh wall, "Ouch! It hurts!" I couldn't help but scream out loud, cursing in my heart why so many people enjoy doing this?
The frightened Zhengji pulled out the hard rod that was deep in the vagina in a very embarrassed manner; at the same time, he smeared saliva on the glans to wet it, so that the hard rod could move easily and freely in the vagina.
With slow friction, the pain gradually decreased. When the penis rubbed the wall of the vagina, a wonderful feeling was produced. Every time the bottom of the uterus was invaded by the huge object, the pleasure that made my soul seem to be lost filled my whole body. It reminded me of the scene of the naked man and woman making love in the room on the second floor a few months ago.
Although I grew up in a special entertainment area, no one told me what adultery was like between men and women or for money; no one taught me the intoxicating sex techniques. Although there is no cure for innate bad habits, the obscene conversations and sweet words of couples that rang in my ears every time, influenced by them, made me mature precociously in all aspects of my mind. In fact, I had already memorized the love between men and women.
Not only was my physical and mental development precocious, but my appearance was also very tall. No one in the sixth grade could compare to me. Naturally, my female reproductive organs matured earlier than usual and developed faster. I had my period when I was in the fifth grade.
Due to the combination of several objective factors, there will be no difficulty in trying sexual intercourse for the first time, and the thick and hard male root can smoothly enter the secret place. After a slight pain, it brings a lasting pleasure all over the body. The feeling at this time is like a wild goose spreading its wings and ready to fly, as if ascending to the sky, so refreshing!
When I raised and twisted my hips, the excitement that soared into the sky made me feel powerless and soft like a docile sheep. Being tightened by my thirteen-year-old vagina, Masayoshi twisted his body in unbearable pain, moving restlessly, with a painful expression and a sound like "Ah! Ah! Um..." that sounded like a cry.
The soles of my feet were overwhelmed by an itchy pleasure, and I felt as happy as a god, flying! So comfortable! So refreshing! If I wasn't afraid of being heard by others, I would have wanted to scream out loud.
Zhengji's hot breathing kept making whirring sounds on my face, and his sticky lower body pushed forward with force. I instinctively raised my hips and pushed forward. The thick rod covered with blue veins and kept throbbing rhythmically was happily playing in my womb like a fish in water. Just as I began to taste the sweetness, Zhengji suddenly made a rapid panting sound as if he had intestinal colic.
"Ah, sister, I can't take it anymore, no, no, I'm going to cum, I'm going to cum, because it feels so good..."
Before I could realize what was happening, hot liquid burst out from the tip of the penis as Masaaki groaned in pain. I could clearly feel the warm, wet and sticky feeling. Once the roaring lion has vented its abundant energy, it will soon become weak and powerless. The thick rod that was vigorous and throbbing just now suddenly shortened from its original state of vigor and vitality. I was secretly anxious and tried to push my hips forward again, but they were no longer able to close tightly and I couldn't stop the itching deep in my uterus.
"What...are you done yet? I just started to feel better..."
Looking at Zhengji's helpless and powerless state, my joyful expectations were suddenly poured with a bucket of cold water, which was extremely disappointing.
"I'm sorry.. I tried my best to endure it.. But.. because the feeling was so good.. so.. so.. "
Masayoshi kept saying to me apologetically, "I'm sorry..."
I gently touched the private parts and buttocks with my hands. Under the raised flesh hillock like a steamed bun, the red and black swollen flesh petals were twitching slightly. Under the flesh membrane, there was a small black hole that was opening and contracting. I think it would not be too much to put in three fingers!
A white sticky liquid was flowing down from under the white and plump buttocks, and the naked vagina was exposed under the lush pubic hair. The strange shape was so weird! At that time, I was so ignorant that I had no idea what ejaculation and vaginal fluid were.
"Masayoshi, will your penis grow as big as before...?"
"It'll take a while."
“It will get bigger soon.”
"How could that be... Hurry up and make it bigger... Let's do it again..."
"Because I just ejaculated once... so I have to..."
"I don't care..I don't care..."
"you.."
"You lied to me! I don't care! This penis is yours, so you are the only one who can tell it what to do."
"My dear lady..."
"Whatever..."
"You are forcing me, aren't you?"
He hugged my breasts, sweating all over, and tried desperately to explain to me.
"Sister... today... what happened just now, you must not tell anyone! Not even your best friend. Once you tell it... it will become a big deal that cannot be handled, do you understand?"
"Um.."
Of course I know the seriousness of this matter.
"Of course I know. If my parents knew about this, they would definitely beat me up, and you might even be kicked out."
After listening to my logical analysis, Zhengji finally put his mind at ease. Just like adults, I wiped it with toilet paper afterwards, crumpled it into a ball and flushed it down the toilet.
Not long after, my parents came back from visiting friends.
Just like usual, I pretended nothing happened and acted generous and natural on the outside. Ever since I had sexual contact with Zhengji, the feeling is truly unforgettable. The desire to hug him again grew day by day.
I was only thirteen years old at that time, full of beautiful fantasies about everything. Driven by curiosity, I easily gave away my noble virginity, but I didn't regret it at all. Now when I think about how naive and ignorant I was at that time.
In the ignorant minds of young children, chastity is a vague and invisible thing, and it is inevitable to give it up easily and fail to maintain it.
The desire to let boys get close to me again often surges in my heart. The sexual desire of men and women stimulates my mind from time to time. My longing to be hugged and loved by a strong man grows deeper day by day.
The man's strong, rock-hard penis penetrates deep into my womb, and every time in the dead of night, it bites my lonely heart fiercely.
In order to taste the sweet fruit with Zhengji again, she is always looking for opportunities to be in love with him.
But for Masayoshi, perhaps because of a serious mistake and inner regret, two or three days later, Masayoshi suddenly submitted a letter of resignation, quit his job, and voluntarily joined the army to serve in a special forces corps to defend the country.
That was before the Pacific War.
Zhengji’s sudden departure came as a huge shock to me. It was as if I had lost an important spiritual pillar in my life, like a person who had lost his soul. I had no appetite, no desire to eat, and no desire to do anything. All that was left was an empty shell without a soul.
Later, I successfully entered Tokyo Municipal Girls' Senior High School. Because it was quite far from home, my good friend and I rented a house to make it easier to commute to school.
Maybe I was born to be a slutty woman. But in school, I am considered a good student with excellent grades!
The Municipal High School for Girls is a school famous for its strict discipline. Because under strict supervision, students with bad character or improper behavior were forced to drop out of school under severe punishment. During the past year at school, I have always been very calm! I have never told anyone about my deepest feelings.
That day was December 8th, and the Pacific War, which left an indelible scar in history and was unforgettable, finally broke out.
Because of the war, the air was filled with tension and anxiety. Various forces were called up, and several strong teachers in the school were also ordered to be conscripted into the army. The young friends I see every day all have anxious expressions. As the war escalates, everyone is in a panic and worried all day long. The streets are full of green-clad defense soldiers, who look at the people passing by with emotionless and indifferent faces. As men, they have the important mission of defending the country, which is also another helplessness for them!
The next year, I was successfully promoted to the second grade in the girls' school. At the same time, my plump and round figure became more charming, attractive and mature. |
