Lost Innocence (Martial Arts Science Fiction Adult Novel)

Chapter 1: White Shirt and Black Skirt

I wish I were a bird, flying in the sky.

Following the afterimages of memory, fly back to the past.

I use the cry of youth to exhale the depression and helplessness in my heart.

I want to escape, escape﹍﹍朷朷but﹍﹍where to?

Not wanting to do anything anymore, Jing threw herself on the sofa, feeling so tired. My husband just came back, and there are a lot of things to do at home.

There are so many things to do, plus a busy day in the office. My thoughts slowly began to drift away.

The days of wearing white shirts and black skirts and carrying heavy schoolbags are long gone, but I have never forgotten them. Happy life is always in

When I was young. That was an innocent age! Studying is never a pressure for Jing.

There are always endless stories of youth and love, and there are always a few handsome boys walking by on the way to school. It was so self-

A future unfolds before our eyes, with infinite space and infinite fantasy.

When I stood up to look at my child's homework, my body felt as heavy as a thousand pounds. It's not that I don't love my child, but I just can't bear it.

Learn lessons that can never be taught. Then I take a shower, go online and check emails, and the day goes by like this.

Day after day. Life is trapped in an invisible net. I want to escape but I am powerless. Where can I escape to? But unwilling

Heart.

Over the years, there has always been a lover by my side. He is a very ordinary middle-aged man. He is not special but has an incomparable

love. Thinking of Qin, I felt warm inside, but I also felt helpless. This love slowly fell into a dead end.

in the whirlpool. I had love with my husband back then, but it was torn apart by the years and life.

Qin is very special in some aspects, for example, he always has the motivation to break everything and destroy everything.

But he achieved nothing in his life, like a hero in distress. Perhaps it was this tragic character that attracted Jing,

To be honest, Qin is just an impractical person with great ambitions but little talent, but this kind of person can always please women.

After finishing the chores, I sat in front of the computer, aimlessly waiting for Qin to appear. This has become a kind of dependence.

Sexual convention. I opened my mailbox and found two letters. One of them was from a guy I met in the chat room in the past two weeks.

Netizen ﹍﹍Li. This person is quite polite. He never mentioned any meeting or other improper thoughts. He is a very good person.

The right chat partner makes people feel stress-free.

Reading the words in his letter makes people laugh out loud. This person is quite humorous and always makes people laugh. His writing is also very good.

Well, we can vaguely see the image of this person in the letter, an honest and genuine middle-aged elite. Write according to his words

I wrote back, and suddenly I was back to the days of being free in white shirts and black skirts. My thoughts became smoother, and I wrote

As I write, I feel a sense of fulfillment in my heart. Recently I have gradually developed the habit of waiting for his letter, but he is very busy.

You will always receive it within three or two days.

I felt melancholy in my heart. At that time, I was writing to Qin in the same way, and all the things I wrote about were happy things.

Thinking of Qin's complaints from the past few days, I just can't muster the mood to write this. Qin's love is sometimes like a rope

Like, haven't I also been relying on Qin in my heart like a vine? It's like a vicious cycle, because caring for each other

They quarrel over everything, miss each other endlessly when not together, and become enemies again when we meet. Now it is almost impossible to write to Qin

What else is there, except for some life, there is no feeling of freedom in my heart. When a person lives in life

It’s hard to imagine. How can I write without imagination?

Thinking of the Qin Dynasty always makes people feel passionate, because of love! Although Qin is not a good lover, but doing it together

When you are in love, you can always feel the love of life and death. Whenever we meet, our lower body becomes wet.

Just thinking of his name can do that. Before I met Qin, I had never had any trouble with desire. It was during Qin's time that I realized sex.

But it also brought torment and pain. She always looked forward to Qin's entry and collision, but the actual opportunity to meet

But it is so little!

As I was thinking, Qin's figure jumped out along with the little green flower on ICQ. He looked at the half-written letter.

I sighed in my heart, will our meeting tonight end in longing or argument? Unconsciously, I read Li's letter.

While talking to Qin, her body's desire was aroused again, and she said, "I miss you so much, when are you going to have sex?"

Come to see me? "

Chapter 2: Trapped Baiyun

You bring pain and sweetness, harvest and famine.

I wish you could take me away, not just my heart.

A person with an empty heart is just a shell. How can he or she get through each day of separation?

I want you to think of me, darling, but I have to tell myself not to think of you.

The more I miss you, the emptier I feel, until I have nothing.

The smell of cigarettes in the office is unbearable, so why do these men always act so unscrupulously? Thinking in my heart

But Qin's shadow emerged. Qin also smokes and is addicted to it. He knew Jing hated the smell of cigarettes, so he always

Yes, I endure it. Jiu Zhijing also took the initiative to ask Qin to smoke a few cigarettes after making love. She could see that the nicotine in Qin's body

Ding was stirring. Although the hotel was a small space, Jing had never been disgusted by the smell of cigarettes. Thinking of Qin Wei's kiss with the smell of cigarettes,

The body began to stir.

Be lonely! After being with Qin, she became more lonely. It should be said that Qin made her see that there is true love in the world.

But we can't be together day and night. Children who are used to taking medicine will not know the taste of sugar until they eat it once.

Medicine tastes bitter, but eating sugar is harmful to your health!

Qin was coming up in the afternoon, and Jing was calculating in her mind how long she could stay up that night. As I thought about it, my thoughts drifted to Qin Zhong again.

After all, I had to leave, and I became sad again. It's not that Qin wants to leave, Qin is a drifter like duckweed. Jing knows that Qin wants

Taking root, but she was undecided, and it was Jing herself who had to leave, and her heart began to ache.

Qin's figure is not attractive, Jing often wonders why she is so obsessed with him? With husband

By her standards, Qin has no advantages at all, but she just wants to be with Qin. It's not about physical pleasure.

Her husband could also give her orgasms, but it seemed like he just couldn’t satisfy her. In fact, Jing didn't know what she wanted.

What? Facing Qin, her whole body was in a state of collapse, but it seemed that it was not her body that mattered.

Jing takes good care of herself, maybe she is naturally a little narcissistic! Or is it women's nature? Approaching middle age

Her figure had not changed at all, and Jing was secretly proud of herself in the hotel bathroom. The breasts are still pointed and the nipples are proud

Although standing upright, her waist is still so slender.

Qin hugged Jing from behind, his hands stretched between her legs, and Jing's body was completely soft and could not be manipulated.

Came down. The road back to the bed was so long that Jing couldn't control her desire at all.

Wearing Qin.

It’s been three years since they made love without much caressing! It has always been this way. It doesn't seem to be because of Qin Ai

Whether aggressive or inconsiderate, most of the time it was Jing who begged him to enter her body. Jing is shy and often only dares to peek secretly.

Look at Qin's private parts. Even if I kissed her occasionally, I wouldn't dare open my eyes to see clearly. Qin's penis is not very thick, at least

Compared to her husband, he is much inferior, but Jing can feel the rhythm of his lower body, as if it can follow her heartbeat.

Generally throbbing in sync. She loved kissing his penis, feeling a sense of complete possession.

Body and his moans.

Turning over, Jing felt that her entire lower body was wet. She turned away from Qin's caress and asked him to

He immediately entered her body, and her whole body was burning like a lit torch.

The moment she entered, Jing was like a coma, with a sweet feeling in her heart. I don’t know if it was the pleasure of the body or

The love in my heart only knows to hook Qin's shoulders. I could feel Qin's body inside, twitching inside.

She screamed passionately: "Kiss me, kiss me."

The house is still as quiet as before. The children are playing video games quietly by themselves, and my husband is watching TV attentively.

Apparently my husband didn’t call the company in the afternoon, so the reason I had prepared for asking for leave was no longer necessary. Heart

I feel a little angry, as if the child’s homework is none of my husband’s business.

The smell of Qin still lingers in my body, and I can still feel Qin's semen flowing in my womb and into my heart.

Guarding. This feeling persists even after a shower and lasts for several days. But this feeling is not sweet

Beauty actually carries with it a kind of pain and a kind of emptiness. Thinking that Qin would be home soon, Jing sat on the TV as usual.

I stared blankly at the white clouds on the Microsoft startup screen, and I felt myself trapped in this frame just like the clouds.

It has been three days since I received Li’s letter while waiting for Qin to show up! There was no news from Li for three days.

However, in the past few days, Jing was so happy about Qin's coming that she didn't pay attention to Li for a while.

I don't believe it. Li was still laughing happily, which made Jing feel more at ease.

Qin.

Li is a person like sunshine! Qin always acts like a child with a lot on his mind, asking for love.

Jing was smiling while writing the letter, so focused that she didn't notice the message from Qin on ICQ.

Chapter 3: Afternoon of Lost Memory

An empty heart walks in an empty afternoon.

I wanted to grab something, but I only grabbed a handful of emptiness.

Choose to let yourself be betrayed by memory so as to forget all the pain and joy.

All that was left in the body was emptiness, without any residue.

oh! There's still a hint of smoke on your fingertips.

Qin's time is always wrong. It's okay if we don't meet, but it's sad that we can't meet after we say we will.

arrive. This suddenly made the hearts that had been waiting for a long time feel empty, and the two people on the Internet became more and more angry.

I always meet a man when I eat buffet during lunch break every day. This buffet restaurant is far away from Jing's company.

It’s a short distance, but Jing loves the feeling of traveling alone at noon. A kind of loneliness, being treated badly, being

The feeling of abandonment is a bit like self-punishment.

This man always smiled in a friendly manner and sometimes chatted with her for a few words. Jing couldn't even remember the man's past.

To understand a person’s appearance, one must meet him/her in person. I had the impression that this man tried to invite Jing to have coffee or something, but Jing

I blocked them all with a smile.

The only thing that left an impression was the man's smile, a sense of intimacy. And this person's words have no substance.

He must not be very knowledgeable or anything like that, although he seems to be a mid-level manager in a large company.

The man sat down next to Jing with his usual smile and started eating.

Jing unconsciously moved her chair slightly away, thinking that she had already taken a leave this afternoon, so Qin

Not only did he not come, he even had a fight with me last night.

The man suddenly asked, "Are you free this afternoon?"

Jing responded casually with "Yeah!" and was immediately startled by herself and regained consciousness.

"Then let's go for a walk together? The client I had an appointment with this afternoon suddenly canceled the show." said the man.

The words "broken appointment" made Jing's heart ache. She suddenly felt so empty and wanted something to fill it.

It is like grabbing whatever you can get in the ocean, knowing that it cannot carry all your burdens, but still holding on to it.

Also picked it up.

The man in the car was talking about his great achievements. Jing didn't expect him to talk about anything meaningful.

topic, but this person made the atmosphere quite harmonious. Jing took a peek at the man, he's about average build! Forty years old,

Looks pretty ordinary. Thinking about what might happen next, I started to get nervous.

The man must have noticed Jing's sudden silence and said, "Let's find a place to rest and talk, okay?" Jing didn't respond.

She just lowered her head and didn't care where the man drove.

Qin was Jing's second man. Jing also had a tryst with someone after that. That time, Jing felt the same way.

A kind of filling, without any love, nor feeling any sense of indebtedness to Qin. "It's just once,

Qin will never know the truth. "Jing secretly comforted herself in her heart.

The man came into the room and hugged Jing and kissed her. Jing's sexual desire was aroused and their tongues entangled.

I feel like I'm melting.

The man's hands teased Jing like a magician, making Jing's whole body feel like being brushed by feathers, and she couldn't help but moan.

stand up. He licked Jing's lower body, gently harassing her small clitoris. Jing felt a kind of wetness flowing through her lower body.

come out. She put her feet against the bed and moved her lower body forward, enjoying waves of irresistible orgasms.

Gently stroking the man's penis, it felt so solid and hard, Jing couldn't help but pull the man's lower body over

Hold the penis in your mouth. The man stopped and closed his eyes in ecstasy. Jing suddenly felt empty in her lower body and looked up at the man.

He motioned for him to come in.

The man's penis is considered thick! When it penetrated her, Jing felt so full that her body began to tremble and she felt dizzy.

He murmured, "So strong! So strong! Poke me, harder."

A warm current rushed through my uterus.

Jing can't stand long battles. She must take a breath after each climax, but this man doesn't know and still tries hard.

Showing off. Jing begged him, "Please stop!" The man stopped and sweat dripped onto Jing's

On the breasts, this made Jing a little unhappy, because Jing loves to feel fresh. But the man's penis suddenly jumped in Jing's lower body.

Next, Jing became immersed in the heat again.

Jing's body was beaten like by waves, with waves of climax coming over her. I can't feel the sun, moon, and stars, I can't feel

The direction of heaven and earth is just screaming for more from men. Today's Jing is different from before, he has become greedy and

Endless demand, this was the most satisfying sex in Jing's life.

The man's semen spurted out, spraying all over Jing's chest and some on her face.

The man lay on Jing's body, his semen and sweat mixed together, making it impossible to tell who was who. Elite

He stood up and went to wash himself.

In the bathroom, Jing felt a sense of fullness extending from her vagina to her head. She thought to herself that he could give her another

times? As I thought about it, I chuckled.

When I got home, everything was as expected. My husband was unconscious and there was no need to worry about anything. Jinghewang

As usual, I finished my chores and sat in front of the computer. Suddenly, I realized that I hadn't missed Qin all afternoon. It seemed that Qin had gone

It's like it doesn't exist at all. I tried to recall what happened in the afternoon, but my mind went blank. I just felt that it must have happened very quickly.

The music looks good, but the details are completely gone. I can't remember the man's face or voice, or even how to get home.

I forgot everything.

All that remains in my memory is the orgasm, the sweat, and the man's fingertips.

Jing smiled and wondered if she would go to that restaurant for lunch again tomorrow. She turned on her computer and

I thought, isn’t a one-night stand just a one-time thing? Is this a one night stand or a half day stand? Or is it simply ruthless?

The ICQ was ticking, and Qin said, "I'll go to your company this afternoon..." Jing was completely confused, and her hands were shaking.

I just can't type.

"What's wrong with you?" The continuous messages came like the sea.

"I'm not feeling well and I'm going home." Jing could only try her best to block him.

"You're not home. I went there and your son said you were gone all day."

"You...you came to my house? You're going too far!" Jing suddenly felt humiliated.

"I'm just worried. I'm afraid something might happen to you. Don't worry. I'm from the insurance company. Nothing will happen to you.

of"

"You're tracking me?" Jing's emotions began to flutter, using anger to cover up her fear and guilt.

Jing's tears kept flowing, flowing... The words she typed were as sharp as a knife, but Qin was like a broken sword.

Frozen in place like a thread.

After a long time, Jing also stopped and said, "I only love you."

Qin said, "You know what? I never thought you would be like this. I'm crying."

Chapter 4: The Only Memory

Never gained anything, so never lost anything.

All dreams remain in the innocent age, and all others are chosen to be forgotten.

That ancient tree and those short-haired girls.

Refusing to continue growing in my dreams because that's all I have.

Wherever you leave, innocence is gone.

The afternoon was quite hot and stuffy. Jing had been eating at a different buffet restaurant for three years. The story three years ago is like cancer

It clung to her like a disease, until both of them were hurt and died.

Jing will always remember the next morning after the incident, when she left home for work, she found Qin standing across the street with red eyes.

Under the arcade, it was obvious that he had rushed up overnight. The night before, the two of them were almost speechless, and Qin took the initiative to disconnect the phone.

I also tossed and turned all night, not knowing how to face Qin. Who knew that what I had to face would come so soon?

I was at a loss as to what to do.

Qin walked over the street and without saying a word almost half-dragged Jing into a taxi. Taipei is only bright and early in the morning.

In a more normal situation, everyone was busy going to work as if they were going to the execution ground, but these two people went into a hotel.

Qin kissed Jing as if there was no tomorrow. Jing felt heartbroken and her tears were like pearls that had broken off the string. She couldn't stop crying.

Come. Qin buried his head in Jing's chest and cried like a child. Jing could only say, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault."

Wrong, it’s all my fault. ", the two of them hugged each other and cried.

Qin suddenly stood up and walked out of the room without looking back. Qin never appeared again. Jing sat there blankly

In the room, staring at the carpet, the embroidery on the carpet turned into countless Qin figures, so lonely. Jing Brain One

My mind was blank until the front desk called to ask if I wanted to extend my room, then I realized it was almost noon. When I stood up, I found that my chest

The tears on the dress had dried. Jing never washed it again. She placed it at the door of Jing's closet and looked at it for a long time.

Three years.

After dinner, Jing returned to the company. There was a familiar figure sitting on the motorcycle in front of the building, a figure that he would never forget.

pain. Time has not left any scars on Qin's face. Perhaps he was already covered in wounds and there was no place to cut anymore!

He still has that decadent look, and his back is still hunched over and can never be straightened, and he still makes people feel distressed.

The two walked silently to the coffee shop in the next alley. Qin lit a cigarette and the familiar feeling came back.

"How have you been lately?" Qin said with a tired look on his face.

"Yeah! It's okay, let's just live our lives like this!"

"How about home?" Qin asked meaningfully.

"Everything is fine. My husband is still the same." Jing hesitated for a moment, paused, raised her head and looked directly at Qin.

Then he said, "I have a friend with me now."

Qin lit up another cigarette. The smell of the cigarette made Jing want to cry. It must be a different brand from the one Li loves to smoke! Why three years later?

Can't forget this taste? Why have all the memories faded away, leaving only the choking smell of smoke?

"Oh! I'm fine too. As usual, I came to see you today." There was a hint of sadness in Qin's voice.

"It's almost time to go to work! I still remember it, huh!"

Jing followed Qin. Qin didn't look back. Jing stared at his back blankly. I thought: "Three years ago,

I lost him because of deception, and three years later I lost him again because of honesty. "Thinking about the contradictions in life, I can't help but laugh.

got up. The summer sun was still shining in Taipei, but Jing felt very cold and thought she should go back to the office and put on more clothes.

Jing used to stop by Li's place before going home from get off work, sometimes bringing some food with her.

One's own. Things have been a mess with Li lately, we're bickering all the time, it's really annoying.

The afternoon market is crowded with office workers. The traditional market makes people feel at home, like going back to the time when they were children shopping with their mothers.

Like the food, this is Jing’s favorite place to visit recently. Seeing a few bunches of green vegetables dripping with water on the stall, Jing's mind

Suddenly, it was like a power outage and she couldn't remember anything. She only knew that this dish was so familiar, as if it was connected to her destiny.

There is some kind of mysterious and unbreakable destiny.

"What the hell is this dish?"

The vegetable seller replied in a normal way: "Water spinach"

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