【Boundless Loneliness】 (Adult novel adapted from anime)

【Boundless loneliness】

Open the window and you can see the never-melting snow on the opposite mountain. The snow-capped peaks that have been sleeping for thousands of years are so close to me. I thought of Sakura. Is she okay now?

Someone knocks on the door. I opened the door and saw it was her. She said, "My lighter is out of gas, I'd like to lend it to you."

"It's on the table, use it as you please."

This is a smart and icy woman. We just met on the train from that bustling city,
In just one day and one night, they had developed a tacit understanding like old friends. The souls of people are sometimes very close to each other.

The sky outside the window is so high. The pure blue makes people feel distressed. I saw an eagle fly by, rising up out of the canyon.

"What are you thinking about?" he said.

"have no idea."

"I know what you're thinking." She said calmly, "Let's go for a walk."

"Where's your husband? Didn't he come with you?"

She said calmly, "He has gone to another place to meet his friends."

I didn't ask why. When we were in the car, I could already see the cold relationship between them. It was beyond the limit and I didn't need to ask.

The city is so close to the sky that the air is thin. There are erratic night rains and strong sunlight. We walked out of the bustling downtown and entered along a small street. The streets are old and dilapidated, with the lime fading from the walls revealing stone and brick materials. The evening light shone through the broken roof tiles, dyeing the whole world an ambiguous color.

She suddenly stopped and said, "Can you hug me?"

I was stunned for a moment. See the expectation in her eyes.

I gently embraced her and hugged her.

She seemed to have suffered a great shock, and suddenly hugged my back tightly, with her head pressed against my shoulder. I felt a tear sliding down my neck.

"This city is too lonely, isn't it?" she said. "We talk and communicate with different people every day.
We shook hands, hugged each other, walked together, went shopping, and looked for food, but I didn't feel any warmth. "

I am speechless. All of this is the truth.

"Everyone appears to be so strong on the surface, never revealing their inner thoughts. In fact, this is a great sadness.

We are all just pretending, wrapping ourselves tightly in an attempt to protect ourselves. "She gently let me go, facing me, and said, "We are just strangers, right? Why do I feel safe only in front of strangers?"

She said a lot that day. We walked all the way to a tavern called "Hakka Hotel". It was a quiet place, quietly and lonely in this secluded corner, just waiting for unexpected tourists like us. We drank together and talked endlessly over the wine. She can drink a lot. “It’s a survival skill,” she said.

When we returned, it was already dark. The lights on the roadside are far away, and the dusk is so severe.
The figure lying on the ground was pulled very far away, as if it reached the end of the world from under his feet. The weather was getting cooler and she felt cold. I held her hand and walked quickly.

It was already twelve o'clock in the evening when we arrived at the hotel. Walking along the way with the cool wind blowing, I was much more sober. She followed me back to the room, took off her coat, and said, "Real warmth still requires real temperatures.

I wonder why, many years ago, on a cold night, I would just wear a men's coat and stay with someone in an unair-conditioned room all night. "

"Will you feel cold then?"

"No, I just feel warm, warm all over my body."

"The human heart will become more and more fragile, and so will the human body. After going through everything, it becomes numb in order to protect itself, but the fact is that it can no longer withstand the slightest blow."

"Have you ever stayed with a strange woman?"

"No."

"Never?"

I was silent. Perhaps, when I met Sakura, she was still a stranger to me. But I stayed with her.
Although we didn't have sex, we still stayed overnight.

"Maybe, I stayed overnight."

"Will you let me stay overnight?"

What she said was in the form of a question, but her tone was more like a plea.

"I'm just afraid of the cold." She said, "I've never met anyone who can give me warmth. I know,
You also feel cold and you are trying your best to resist, but we are all losers in the end. "

Yes, we are all losers. The strength I pretended to be could not be concealed in front of her at all. Maybe she was too smart, maybe my disguise was not good enough, or maybe we both knew each other too well. It’s not the hustle and bustle of worldly affairs, nor the ways of the world, but the inner confusion and loneliness.

We all need warmth.

"After we go back, we will never contact each other again, right?" She always used interrogative sentences and said things that left people with no choice. "So, we were strangers before, and we will always be strangers in the future.
We will not be afraid, nor do we need to defend each other, because as strangers, we will not be hurt. "

"Come here, let me hug you."

She was as obedient as a kitten. She climbed on me gently, wrapped her legs around my waist, and looked into my eyes with a hint of resentment. I felt her weight all over my body, but my heart was empty.

I hugged her gently and kissed her eyebrows.

She closed her eyes. She raised her head slightly and curled her lips.

It's a small, sexy lip. She exhaled softly and I could hear her heartbeat.

"Go to the bed," she said softly.

I put him on the bed and said, "I'm going to take a shower."

"Will you think about her in the bathroom?"

"You are so smart, how could you ask such a stupid question?"

She laughed, suddenly like a child, "How am I smart? I was just kidding you."

When I was in the bathroom, I heard her open the door and go out.

When I came out, I felt that the air conditioning temperature in the room was just right, giving people a comfortable temperature that felt comfortable to the body.

She had returned and taken off her coat. His hair was wet, with huge waves like the ocean, covering his chest like seaweed. The black lace of the bra is delicate and precise.

"Take off your panties." She suddenly said in a commanding tone. I looked at her quietly, and she finally couldn't help laughing out loud. Then he crawled over and took my underwear with his mouth.

I looked at her lying in front of me, with her thin waist, raised buttocks, and skin as smooth as satin, and I thought of Sakura again. She held my panties with her mouth and pulled them down, revealing her pubic hair.

"Ah... I like dense hair." He sighed heavily, then suddenly used both hands to pull off my panties violently.

I sighed softly, feeling that this moment was so illusory, yet I could also truly feel a primitive desire in my heart rapidly expanding.

"You're so tall and big..." She seemed to be sighing softly, or cheering happily. I reached my hand between her legs and felt through her panties that she was indeed wet.

Black lace gently covers the most private area. I followed her flat belly, slid into her panties, and slowly touched down, feeling a patch of soft pubic hair, and then a slippery wetness.

She couldn't help but moan.

I gently touched her clitoris and pressed lightly with my middle finger. She gasped heavily and her legs unconsciously clamped together. She held my penis with her right hand, opened her mouth and took it in. I felt a wet and soft feeling, and her tongue was like a soft little snake, moving over my glans. My left hand gently rubbed my testicles, then slowly slid down to touch my anus.

Suddenly, she turned over, pressed me down, and said, "Be good and lie down, let me serve you well."

I suddenly felt dizzy, as if I was back in that little house. Ying smiled evilly and pushed me onto the bed.
Said: "Be good and lie down, let me serve you well."

She took off her lace bra, and her full and plump breasts were set free. I said, "You are born to be a fairy that makes women jealous. Why do you have such a small waist but such small breasts?"

She breathed sweetly, leaned over to my ear and said, "Just be obedient and enjoy yourself."

Her breasts pressed against my chest and slowly slid down. She clamped my lower body with her breasts and began to rub gently. The waves of real pleasure coming from the flesh made my penis even bigger and harder. Watching the head of my penis moving in and out of the cleavage between her breasts, I felt waves of numbness. I breathed heavily and couldn't help but moan. When she saw my reaction, she became even more excited and squeezed her breasts with both hands and rubbed my penis hard.

She seemed to feel extremely comfortable and moaned heavily. She raised her face and looked at me, and said dazedly:
"Do you want to cum?"

I felt intense numbness in my glans and my penis twitched against her nipples. It was becoming increasingly unbearable. I knew I was about to ejaculate, so I opened my mouth and wanted to shout something. She seemed to feel it. "Call me sister, call me sister as much as you can..." she said.

"sister……"

I screamed out my whole life and finally couldn't bear it anymore. The entire penis kept twitching between her breasts, and the glans felt intense numbness. "Sister... I'm going to ejaculate... ejaculate..." I felt as if an electric current was running from the back of my head along the spine, to the buttocks, and finally to the penis, where it exploded at the glans, and then ejaculated in streams, from her cleavage to her breasts, neck, and some even splashed onto her face.

She waited for me to ejaculate, then slowly released her breasts. She lowered her head, gently took my penis into her mouth, licked it clean, then came close to me and smiled at me seductively. "Are you feeling comfortable?"

I feel really comfortable.

I got up. I pressed her down hard and said, "Sister, it's time for me to conquer you."

She giggled. "What a sensible child."

There was a large wet spot on the front of her panties. I pulled down her panties and saw her dense forest. She spread her long legs and presented herself to me for the whole world to see. I saw her sticky liquid flowing along the small grooves, into her anus, and dripping onto the bed sheets.

She closed her eyes and moaned in pleasure through her nose. I gently pulled aside her thick pubic hair, like lush grass in a field, and saw her rosy labia. The small clitoris has already protruded, like a mouth-watering fruit. I placed my middle finger on her clitoris, pressing gently and forcefully, watching the fluid flow out from deep within her vagina, like a flood, submerging the entire base of her thighs.

I gently spread her labia, revealing the deep vaginal opening. She gasped loudly and held my head with both hands, pressing it hard between her thighs.

"Hurry up, I can't stand it," she said.

I stuck out my tongue and licked her clitoris gently. She screamed "Ah" and then wrapped her legs around my back tightly. I held her thighs with both hands and licked her clitoris gently with my tongue. I felt her sticky liquid flowing into my mouth, which had a slightly salty taste.

"Sister, let me open your thighs a little bit," I said. She said "hmm" softly. Then she spread her legs, I used my thumbs to open her labia and inserted my tongue deep into her vagina to stir it. She couldn't help but let out a loud "ah" again.

"Are you feeling good, sis?"

"Hmm..." She moaned from her nose, "I feel so good, idiot, you make me feel so good...
…」

I don't know why she called me stupid. I also know that I don't need to know all this, now,
Just to make her feel real pleasure.

I continued to lick her vagina with my tongue, and my fingers slid along the back, slowly to the edge of her anus, gently stroking it, and trying to gently insert it. She seemed to sense it. She said, "Put it in."

I know what she needs. So I slowly inserted my middle finger into her anus, and she screamed "Ah——". I pressed gently and rhythmically, and she seemed to react very violently, moaning loudly.
"You idiot, you are so good at it... You make me feel so good..."

I pulled out my tongue, put it on her clitoris and licked it in circles, and she suddenly felt like she was electrocuted. "ah…
...Idiot, I can’t take it anymore...I’m coming...”

"Come on, sis, let me give you an orgasm."

I felt her trembling violently, her legs clamped my head tightly, her anus contracted and clamped my fingers, and the liquid in her vagina suddenly spurted out like a fountain. He shouted vigorously,
Ah, ah... idiot... I'm coming... I'm coming......"

After about ten seconds, she slowly calmed down and her breathing gradually slowed down. Seemingly a little embarrassed, she said, "Am I crazy?"

"I like when you're crazy."

She reached her hand under me and squeezed my already hard penis hard. "Here, give it to me."

She turned over, lay on the bed, and raised her butt high. Snow-white skin, smooth and pure.

I held her butt and thrust my penis all the way in at once.

She let out an "ah" and then moaned through her nose.

I stayed inside for a while, and then began to check slowly. She turned her right hand over and grabbed my hand tightly. My penis was inside her wet vagina, like a fish swimming in a deep canyon.
The slippery vaginal wall tightly wrapped around my glans, and the waves of tightening made me feel such real pleasure.

I watched my penis go in and out of her vagina, and at that moment, I seemed to be back in that little room, with Sakura lying on the bed and saying, "I want you to fuck me from behind."

She said, "I want to see you fuck me. I want to watch you move in and out of me."

She turned over, straddled me, faced away from me, held my penis with her hand, and slowly sat down. I felt the strong stimulation of my penis being tightly wrapped by him.

When she sat down completely, my penis was completely inserted. She uttered "Ah".
She said, "Stupid... I saw your penis was all the way in." Then she was on top of me, stroking my penis hard. Every time I feel as if I have entered a whole new world, and the hot glans seems to break through the heavy clouds and finally see the bright sunshine. Intense wetness and warmth wrap around the sensitive glans.

She said, "Are you going to come in from behind me?"

I don't understand what she means. After she finished speaking, without waiting for my answer, she turned over and exposed my penis. She grabbed it with her hand and stroked it a few times, then lay down on the bed, raised her buttocks, and used both hands to spread her buttocks apart, revealing her thin anus. Like a blooming chrysanthemum, with its door tightly closed, she said, "Insert it from here."

I suddenly felt a great excitement. I've never tried it this way. She closed her eyes and used both hands to pry open her anus. I finally couldn't bear it anymore, so I held my penis with my hand, put it at the entrance of her anus, and rubbed it gently a few times. She moaned loudly.

My penis was covered with the fluid from her vagina, and her anus had already been wet, so I easily inserted the head of my glans.

She seemed to be under great stimulation and screamed out loudly. At that moment, I seemed to be enjoying both physical and mental stimulation at the same time, and I inserted my entire penis into her with all my strength.

She screamed "Ah——", then gasped heavily and said, "It feels so good..."

I felt her tight anus clamping my penis, and her vagina was a different feeling. The stimulation seemed to be even more intense. I used all my strength to hit her violently. She also seemed to feel a more intense pleasure, and shouted loudly: "Idiot, fuck me to death..."

The stimulation was so real and intense that every time I thrust my entire penis into it. The sensitive glans was clamped by her tight anus and was tightly wrapped and rubbed in the rectum. I felt the numbness on my glans becoming more and more intense, and I was about to ejaculate. I said, "Sister, I'm about to ejaculate...let me ejaculate in your asshole..."

She suddenly felt like a flood bursting through a dam, "Ah - idiot, cum soon... I want you to cum in my asshole..." I felt her anus tightening, and then a tide of liquid spurted out of her vagina and shot onto the snow-white sheets. I finally couldn't bear such stimulation. The intense pleasure on my glans spread throughout my body in an instant, and semen shot out in streams and shot into her anus.

After I got off her, she turned over and hugged me. Without saying a word, we fell into a deep sleep.

I suddenly felt extremely lost, and a boundless loneliness came over me, surrounding me from all directions.
Looking at her in my arms, with her long eyebrows, sleeping so peacefully, like a worry-free child. I suddenly lost my sense of existence.

The air conditioner controls the room temperature to be like May in the south of the Yangtze River, which is just right for the skin. But my heart is blank.

I couldn't sleep all night.

The next morning, just when I felt I was about to fall asleep, she woke up. She called me softly:
Are you awake? "

I didn't respond.

She got up quietly, lifted the quilt, put on elegant lace underwear, then thermal underwear, cotton shirt, and coat. She fixes her hair in front of the mirror, looking as mysterious and beautiful as the sea. Then write quickly on the paper on the desk. Finally walked out. I felt that when she walked out, she looked back at me and said something to me softly, as if she was saying, "My name is Shaoyi." But I didn't hear it clearly. I know she doesn't need me to hear it clearly.

When she left, I got up and took a shower. Then simply pack up and walk out. I didn't look back.

I didn't look at what she wrote on the paper on the table. All this is no longer important. And we all know that